Living With The Boss

Chapter 5

Monday went by in a haze, I could barely contain my nerves to get this day over with so that I could see the doctor tomorrow. Mr. Mani didn't mind me coming in after my doctors visit and of-cause I never told him what exactly I was having a check up for, only that I think I might has a bug, he didn't have to know that it was the nine month bug. After my shift I headed home and was grateful that I didn't run into Mr. Cooper today, I was so mad at him, a part of me wanted to resign because working for him just seemed so complicated now but I needed this job, i have been searching for a job with a good enough salary for 6 months and finally got this one. Talk about bad timing and a bad situation.

Leaving this job would be so irresponsible because that would mean moving back home and having my parents help with my child. It'll only prove my dad right, he was against me moving out here and thought I couldn't cope on my own but I honestly just think he wanted me home to alleviate being alone with my mom. The guilt of his affair was weighing on him and I honestly just feel that they need to reconnect and find one another again. That's the main reason for me moving out, to give them space to figure out what they meant to each other again.

I got home and made super like every other night, a part of me was grateful that a baby would spice up my life a bit because I was kind of on auto pilot most days, I didn't like partying, my circle of friends was only Sam and Matt and now Sara but Sara was a work friend and we never hung out and I hated taking up a lot of Sam's time, she and Matt needed their own space and they should have time to themselves so most nights I was just home finding things to do to occupy my time before I had to call it a night.

A month has passed and i decided to muster up the gusts to ask Mr Cooper if i could either leave work a few hours earlier or come in a bit late so that i could go have my first check up, yes that's right, I'm due for my 3 months checkup. So i decided to stop him as he passed by my desk to call for his elevator. He had a meeting that had just ended and the pair of two couples  that he met with just left.

"Mr Cooper? Could i please have a minute of your time?" I asked as i stood up from my chair. He stopped and turned towards me, my desk separating us. "Yes Ms Lockwood?" He responded. I started to fiddle with my hands, "Sir i wanted to ask for a few hours off from work next week Monday, either in the morning or afternoon, please." I asked while he just watched me. "For what possible reason?" "Well sir, i have a doctors appartment and need to confirm a time with my doctor, it's important sir." I said, hoping that he wouldn't ask any more questions. "Very well, i'll have to see a doctors note. Take the morning because my afternoon is really busy and i need you to be in." He turned away when finished with his sentence. "Thank you sir." I said to his back before i sat down again and he called his elevator.

I'm not sure if he remembers me, i don't even know if he was the guy that i slept with or if he just looks really similiar to him because if he knows who i am then his doing a really good job at hiding it or maybe his done this so many times that he doesn't remember who i am.

The rest of the week couldn't go by fast enough. I still haven't told my mom even after my last visit at the doctor's office and thank goodness that I at least never contracted an std.

It's Monday morning and i'm in the waiting room at the doctors office. "Jessica Lockwood?" A lady called out and looked around the room between me and the two other ladies. "That's me" I said as i stood up from my seat. "Right this way then." She said and led me into the doctor's office, she closed the door behind me and after the doctor checked her notebook she put it down on a table top and started putting on gloves. "Okay Jessica, I'm doctor Smith. Please lift your dress, this is a cloth that you may cover yourself with and lay on the table." I nodded and did as she said. The doctor came towards me and moved the ultrasound machine closer and in my direction so that I could see the screen. "Okay, the gel will feel a bit cold but you'll forget about it once you hear your babys heartbeat okay?" I nodded, "Okay" i said, suddenly feeling emotional all over again,i was doing this alone. Now's not the time for me to worry about that, whats done is done and i can't change that and then, my heart stopped and breath hitched. I was so lost in my own mind that I barely noticed her place the gel on me.