Living With The Boss

Chapter 6

My alarm resounded and i knew that i had to get up and ready for work. Sam and i spoke about the steps that  i'll have to take now that i've told Mr Cooper and i am dying for a cup of strong coffee this morning, maybe decaf will help but i don't actually know if i should be drinking it. Grabbing my phone, i tapped the asked siri to search "If pregnant mom's can drink decaf." Well atleast i can.

I'm currently in the bath, washing myself for work, speaking to myself, 'I think taking a bath like this is going to get harder the bigger my belly gets, maybe i should get an apartment with a shower? How will i raise two babies in this place, the stairs is a killer, there's no space for  them the run around and play and theres no heating systom in winter. I can't do that to them.' I finished bathing and then got a black highwaisted skinny jeans and a maroon silk blouse and a maroon heel. I needed to wear my jeans whilst they still fit. Having no time to blowdry my hair, I just combed it back into a ponytail and packed in my lunch. I'm stopping at a cafe' this morning for decaf coffee on the way to work since i have none at home. Locking up my apartment behind me, i headed off to work.

Stepping into the office building, i realized that i forgot my coffee. So annoyed at myself that i just offered Sara a small smile as i called for the elevator. I'll have to check if we have decaf in the kitchen.  I placed my handbag on my desk and immediately went to the kitchen, no decaf.

That's just great, i can't even remember to get myself coffee on the way to work, how will i be able to take care of two little humans. I can't do this, i'm not ready. Without meaning to, i started crying, i have no idea if it's me or the baby hormones but i'm so out of my debth here, i didn't even hear the elevator but as i turned around the leave the kitchen i saw Mr Cooper standing at the kitchen door, watching me. With a quick motion of my hands i wiped my tears away and cleared my throat, "Good Morning Mr Cooper, i was just..." "Crying?" he said as i struggled to find the words to explain what i was actually doing. "No, looking for coffee." I said. "Coffee? Why would you want to drink coffee when your pregnant and nonetheless carrying my children? Why is your hair wet too? Do you want to get sick?" His tone carried an annoyance that i couldn't understand, he doesn't care that i'm pregnant, he didn't even seem to want me to keep my babies. "I wanted to get myself decaf on my way to work but forgot and my hairs wet because i didn't have time to blowdry it this morning. Don't worry about MY BABIES, they'll be loved and taken care of to the best of my ability." "Your babies? What? You got yourself pregnant? Don't you dare speak to me in that disrespectful manner, i'm still your boss." He said as he walked towards me. "Not for much longer, i've filled out a few applications for other jobs and am just waiting for them to get back to me." I lied, because I wanted to seem as though I was in control of the situation. Like I didn't need him. I don't know why he got under my skin the way he did but I felt enraged when I saw him. This way all his fault, I couldn't have coffee because he messed up and got me pregnant!

"Oh no you're not, i have some level of responsibiliy to my kids and if you leave and refuse to have me fulfill it, i will fight you and take them from you, i will not have my name dragged through the mud because a silly girl refuses to let me do the right thing and take care of my kids." He said as he turned and walked off.

I can't have them taken from me, how will i survive not knowing if they fine or not. I'll sacrifice anything if it meant i could keep my babies. I exhaled and counted to 10 to calm myself, I was way too worked up over a cup of coffee.

I returned to my desk and logged on to my PC, i refuse to have that man stress me out. About 10 minutes Mr Mani existed the elevator with a paper cup and note in his hand. "Good morning Ms Lockwood, how are you today?" "I'm fine thanks and you Mr Mani? And please call me Jess, everyone but Mr Cooper does." "I'm good thank you Jess. Mr Cooper has sent me to get this to you".