Living With The Boss

Chapter 4

A few days has passed and i just about had enough of this nausia and puking so i decided that i would have to go and get some medication during my lunch break since the pharmacy is closed tomorrow since it's a Sunday, i had to work one Saturday during the month and today was that day.

I grabbed my bag and left the office at 1pm and was off to the pharmacy, at the pharmacy the pharmasist asked me what my symptoms are and after i explained them,she asked me if i might be pregnant, she then told me what the best home test to take was and said that she wasn't allowed to administer any medication until i knew incase it harmed the baby. Only at this moment did the thought cross my mind. I mean pregnancy hasn't always been a concern for me since i was still a virgin a month ago and it wasn't my first thought but as i sat and thought about my period last month i realized that i had skipped it. Panicked i bought 3 home tests and returned to the office.

Feeling out of sort for the rest of that day as i was anxious to get home and take the test but now that i'm finally home, i can't get myself to remove the test of the packaging. I had some tea to make sure that i'd have enough liquids to urinate and then closed my eyes and counted to 10 as it always made me calm down, "It's okay, whatever the outcome. I can handle it, i'll be fine." I told myself as i took 2 tests, still in its packaging to the toilet with me. I unwrapped it and then sat on the pot and held both sticks under the flow of urine and when i was done i placed it on some tissue on the washbowl counter top.

I was too nervous to stay in the toilet so i washed my hands and decided to start on making me some dinner, that ofcause depends on whether or not i'll be able to eat. Done with dinner i went back to the toilet to check the results. I kept the last test for tomorrow morning so that i could confirm the results. I just stared at the word PREGNANT on the test. THIS IS NOT HAPPENING TO ME. I was afraid that something like this would happen to me, that i'd end up pregnant and alone.

I need to call Sam and talk to her about it, she has been my best friend for 10 long years and has always been there for me, she'll know what to say. She'll know what i need to do. So i dialed her number and on the 3rd ring she picked up. "Hey Babe" She said cheerfully into the phone. "Hey Sam, how are you?" "I'm good thanks. Matt just popped some popcorn in the microwave for us. We're having a movie night. How are you? You sound weird."

"I'm freaking out." I said and then was overcome with so much emotions that i just burst into tears. "I started getting sick at random times during the day but mostly in the morning after having coffee and then went to get medication but instead bought a pregnancy test and i'm pregnant, without a clue on what to do and i'm just freaking out because this is such a shitty situation that i never wanted to end up in. What am i going to do, how will i tell my mom about this?" I sobbed and heard her breathing on the other end of the call. "Wow, i don't know how you must be feeling but i'm coming over right now." "Okay." I said as i cut the call.

I tried to eat but couldn't and then i heard a knock on the door. I went to open it and saw Sam and Matt. Sam immediately hugged me as Matt moved past us to enter my apartment. "It's going to be okay, you've got this." Sam whispered in my ear and my eyes began to water all over again. I couldn't say anything so i just nodded at her. We went inside and heard Matt call out from the kitchen "Do you ladies want some tea?" If i said i'm surprised, that would be an understatment "Yeah" Sam called back at him. "What's that all aboout? Matt making tea?" I asked Sam and she just shrugged. "Well his been learning a few things about what to do when a girl is stressed and thinks that because i drink a lot of tea when i'm on my period that tea magically fixes things." She said and rolled her eyes while leading me to one of my two Sofa's, we sat down and she grabbed the tv's remote control, "i'm going to switch the tv on for Matt to watch while you and i talk okay?" I just nodded, grateful that she understood that i was in no mood to think of ways to entertain her boyfriend right now. He brought our tea and then sat on the other sofa, 'thanks." i said gesturing to the tea.

I told Sam that no matter what, i'm keeping the baby and that i'm not going out of my way to tell the guy, even though i'm currently working at his company. She was surprised because i haven't told her that i was working for him. "Why haven't you told me this? Ofcause you have to tell him."

"I can't tell him because then he'll think that i'm after his money and that i want to tie him down or something. It was my mistake to have drank that much and done what i've done on that night. I'll get through this on my own." "Well in that case, i hope that the baby doesn't have that oddly shaped ears of yours that i keep teasing you about." Sam said and smiled at me, i then threw her with a couch pillow, "You asshole." I said but she just laughed which made me laugh too. Her laugh was always infectious and she knew just how to cheer me up. "You know you have pretty ears. Come here you.You know Matt and I are here for you, whatever you need, we've got you." She said whilst hugging me. "Hell yeah we do, anything that you need will be yours." Matt added. He wasn't much of an expressive guy but he really did love Sam, so much so that he treated me like a sister just because I meant so much to her and for that I was happy for her. She found a guy that treated her with the love and respect she deserved. She always had a heart of gold.

"Thank you for being here with me and for that." Because I was over talking about it mainly because I couldn't comprehend my situation fully, i startly urging Matt to put a movie and all watched it, the movie ended and she and Matt went back home. It helped me feel better, just talking about it even though the conversation was only a couple of minutes and then having Sam make me laugh with her commentary throughout the movie, I had faith that I'll be okay. Yes the situation wasn't ideal and it wasn't in my plan but I could do this, I'll be fine. I returned our cups to the kitchen and heated up the food  I tried to eat earlier even though my appetite was nonexistent, I can't let my baby starve and returned back to the sofa, surfing for something to watch. I found Divergent on one of the channels and started watching it while finishing my food. When i was done, i laid down on the sofa, trying to focus on what was playing on tv instead of the things floating around my mind. Money was a big concern for me because I couldn't raise a child in this apartment, I needed to focus on saving enough to get a better apartment.

I don't know when i fell asleep but i was waking up to the sound of my alarm clock. I got up and tidied the lounge and then went to pee on the extra stick just to be sure, after seeing the confirmation of last nights results, i hopped in a bath to get ready for a day in. I just wanted to get back into bed and sulk. I'll make a doctors appointment for Tuesday morning as I'll need to speak to them about coming in late at work tomorrow, I didn't want to give them short notice but I wanted a doctors confirmation and for them to check me out. I still haven't gotten around to checking for stds either and it would be killing two birds with one stone.

I'll call my mom after the doctors visit and once I know how to explain the situation to her, I obviously would be too ashamed to tell her that he was a one night stand so I'll have to compose a believable story.

After my bath I put on a worn-out oversized tee and searched for some snacks but realized I had none.
Grumpy that I'd have to leave my apartment, I just put on a track pants and hoodie and ran out to the store that was only two blocks away from my apartment.

I grabbed some sweets, lays, chocolate and most importantly icecream and paid then headed back to my safe haven.

After entering I removed the pants and hoodie and settled in bed after grabbing a spoon for my delicious chocolate icecream. I should properly eat breakfast first but all I wanted right now was to snack.

I decided to bench watch new girl for the day, only getting up to grab a meal which was yesterday's left over pasta or to use the toilet.