I got lost for a bit and ended up back in the dining area. I wondered if I should head back to our room and wait for him there. Then I saw him, he stuck out with his colorful exterior. I stared from a distance as he talked amongst a few other vampires. My hands shook and I had trouble getting my feet to move.
I took a deep breath and stepped forward, I wasn't getting there very fast. I stopped when I saw Arra sit by him. Larten faced her and smiled, he greeted her warmly. He said something and she laughed. Then it clicked in my brain. Larten liked Arra. He did in the books, why would that be any different now.
My heart sank into my stomach. I turned around and walked out. I sat down in the hall, trying not to cry. I knew this was a bad idea. I didn't stand a chance with Larten. I tried not to cry, but I couldn't stop the tears from coming. I sat in that hall and cried.
"Are you alright " a vampire asks me as they were passing by.
I just nodded. I got up and hurried to mine and Larten's room. I looked at the separate coffins. One for me and one for him. Of course, why would he ever want to lay with me. I'm not strong or beautiful like Arra. I'm nothing, just nothing. I lay down in the coffin and silently cried. At some point I must have fallen asleep.
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Cirque Du Amour
FanficThis is a self ship story of myself and Larten Crepsley. Spoilers ahead for the Cirque du Freak and Saga of Larten Crepsley. There's also a bunch of art I got commissioned. Info on the artists in story and in the comments.
