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Je te laisserai des mots - Patrick Watson
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I will leave you notes
Under your door
Under the singing moon
Near the place where your feet pass
Hidden in the holes of wintertime
And when you're alone for a
moment...
Kiss me, whenever you want
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I closed the door behind me and plopped down on my bed. I held the letter above my head examining it for what felt like hours, which was actually only a couple of minutes.
After finally mustering up the courage I opened the letter.
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My darling Y/n,
It pains me to have to speak to you through such means. If you found this letter than I can only imagine what you are thinking of me right now, but I assure you darling... I have not once broken our promise until this very moment. It pains me to break your trust but I had to know that it was possible that I could see you once again.
I miss your teeth and your smile. I haven't seen them in a while. Remember when you stole that SpringBonnie Plush from the Pizzeria?
I've never had a kind of love like that before, and when I kissed your head and left you in my bed to go to work, I remember feeling like, I could live right here for years. But I loved you, and that's all it meant to me, and when you left I was in tears. I miss everything about you, my love.
I miss your obnoxious laugh.
I miss your warm embrace.
I miss the way you could always calm me down during an episode.
I miss the way you would trace my cheek bone with your fingers when you thought I was asleep.
I miss the way you would go out of your way to make me happy.
I miss the way that you would desperately try and mimic my accent.
I miss the way that you would go out of your way to disobey me or anger me so that I would give you attention.
I miss the way that you would act like you were angry with me so I would become a spoiled little brat and desperately try to make it up to you.
I miss your hair.
I miss your nose.
I miss the smell of your clothes.
My darling Y/n, I miss you. I miss you so much that it pains me everyday. It pains me everyday to live knowing that I may never be able to hold you again.
Your loving embrace... god I miss that...
If you're reading this letter and I am not their it means that I was correct, that in order for somebody to teleport through the rift they have to be important to the timeline. That woman however was not, I'm sorry that you had to see that darling.
It pains me to say this too you love, but I will be giving up now. This was my last resort to seeing you again, this was my small glimmer of hope and it's now gone.
Your home is beautiful Y/n, I've never seen such technology and such architectural things before.
As you're laying in your bed reading this letter I will be lying right next to you holding you in my warm embrace across the multiverse.
Would you believe me if I told you that I met our daughter? Her looks resemble me far too much, I wish she'd inherited your looks. Her messy chocolate hair, rosy cheeks, and her baby blue eyes.
She looks to much like me! >:(
But that is okay, because when I heard her giggle all my thoughts quickly faded away..
she has your laugh..
your smile..
your cheerful personality..
that gleam you have in your eyes..
she is such a beautiful Angel.. I wish I could have held her.. I wish I could have tucked her back into bed.. I wish I could have pulled her into my arms when she called me "Da-Da.". There's so much I wish I could do, but I sadly won't ever be able too.
I love my family so much. I will tell Michael, Elizabeth, and Evan about their new sister. They will be thrilled to hear about her. Henry will be thrilled as well to know that he has another brat to spoil!
Just kidding, of course! :p
I was never a religious person Y/n.. but ever since you fell out of my arms and became one with the stars, I have got on my knees every night and prayed desperately to the Gods that they would bring you back to me.
Y/n dear, I don't want to worry you... but I genuinely don't know how much more I can handle without you being here with me.
My episodes have gotten worse ever since you left me. Lately they're almost unbearable.. I've drowned myself in liquor because when I'm not sober I never have them. I meant it when I said that I promise I'd never commit those sins.
I just wish you were, I need you here Y/n. I don't know how much longer I can keep our promise. I can feel myself falling deeper and deeper into insanity.
Y/n, I'm sorry this is all that I could fit into this letter. I wish I could've wrote you more. I would love if you could try and write me a letter as well so that I could at least know you're okay... that you're still alive.
I am going to go now, my love. I will continue my life in this universe. I will thrive for you, my dear. I hope that you can live happily without me. I would be a hypocrite if I said I wished for you to find happiness in another man, so I won't say that.. Instead I will say this.
I wish for you to find love and happiness in our beautiful daughter. Have her fill the void you feel inside your heart whenever you think of me. I will do the same with my own children, love.
I will say this again, and tell you this countless times whenever I pray to the gods every night.
I love you more than the stars could even comprehend.
Yours truly,
William Afton. 💜
1,065 words.🤍
