We as humans, often hold onto the worst memories, the ones that destroy us without us even realizing. We can remember them so vivid in our young minds, replaying over and over. We create illusions that often lead us into a disastrous place in our minds.
We slowly become accustomed to the illusion and it becomes frequent for us to see them. We don't realize we hold onto these memories, we think it's not our fault they come. But in reality it is, you can't stay stuck in one moment because of what happened, it's past tense, you have to move on.
Some say it's impossible to forget, and it is. But you have to occupy your self with things that bring out the real you, the things that make you happy. It may be people, exercising, books or music. Whatever it may be, occupy your self with it.
I've learned from experience that it's impossible to forget, but it is possible to forget for the shortest amount of time, and for me, that's just enough. I've found amazing friends this year, that make me happy, and accept my past without judging me for it. It's hard to find people like that in this generation.
We often tend to identify ourselves as the words we are being told. We become accustomed to the words, even though we know deep inside those words are not true. We hurt ourselves more then we know.
Holding onto memories hurts us, we often want to go back to them, or don't want to think of them because of what happened. Well, I hold onto the worst memories, this is what the whole book will be about. My memories.
