I've gone through a lot and I still seem to push through it with the little I have left.
I've built these walls up, not by choice. They constrict me from being the person I used to be. I've lost that person some where along the lines of becoming this one.
I might be the same to everyone else, but behind closed curtains I can't help but feel alone. I wear this mask that hides my true feelings. I might be the person you see smiling all the time, but it's not my true identity.
I remember getting up everyday being all smiles and happy about SOMETHING, and now, I can't seem to find anything that makes worth living.
I kind of miss the person I used to be. I sometimes want someone to pull me out of the stage I'm in now, but then I don't. I've built these walls that hold be back from letting anyone new enter my life. I'm scared of losing someone I love again.
It's just when I need comfort, I can't seem to find any. I've been on my own since day 1. And I'm proud of that, proud of being able to continue my life without having to have someone there for me.
But giving up is the last thing on my mind, I want to prove everyone wrong, i want to do it for myself. I don't need anyone for me to fulfill that dream.
I'm ready to move on from my past, I know I'll remember everything but, moving on is something I'm still working on. I'm hoping one day I'll be able to do it, and until then, I've accepted that my past will haunt me.
