Adopted by Elton Castee?!

Part seventeen: in Japan

A/N: hi really quickly i just wanna say a quick sorry for not uploading, i haven't been feeling the best mentally but i'm doing better. I hope to those that are still reading are enjoying i have a bit of free time though i am still busy with school. But i hope to get back to writing i really miss it anyways on with the chapter. one last thing ik from the video sam isn't there but i wanna add him since i really don't as much

Third persons POV:
as everyone is unpacking meadow lays on the bed trying to relax her leg as requested from her doctor. she slowly falls asleep from jet lag, everyone around her lets her sleep. elton grabs her blanket and pillow and fixes the way she's laying so she's comfortable. everyone slowly and quietly unpacks and charges everything while music is quietly playing in the background.

elton's POV:
i had finished unpack and the boys did too and are just relaxing while i am writing down video ideas, i feel the bed shift next to me and see that colby is now sitting next to me, "hey elton do you think its really safe that she joins us on the suicide forest video" colby asked "i dont think its safe, but i do know she's been looking forward to it, i have her crutches in the car and was approved by the doctor that she could" "ah i see, i just don't want her to get even more hurt since there will be a lot of walking and how bumpy and dangerous it can be" "i get that, but we can all switch off on giving her a piggy back ride if she gets tired of walking" "true"

we sit in silence, slowly everyone falls asleep but meadow wakes up. "hey bug, you sleep okay?" "yeah" she said yawning "what time is it" "its about 11" she nodded and sat up while looking around the room. "hey dad why is colby on the floor but sams in your bed" "oh he was gonna lay with you, i told him i was okay with it, but seeing as you guys just made up he didn't want to risk anything." "i feel so stupid" she said crying

i rushed over to her and held her, "oh bug, don't say that" "but its true, you adopted me and i look up to all of you, but i butted heads with colby" "bug its okay, look i know why it happened" "i just wish i could wake up and have a do over, and what do you mean" "you guys didn't butt heads, it was colby and corbin. colby liked you and corbin didn't, at first. it was colby who wanted to be with you but he lashed out. i told them to both stay away from you and let you decide. and when you had picked corbin he flipped out"

"oh my goodness, how was i so blind" she said curling into herself "bug it's ok-" she cut me off by handing me her phone "why'd you give me your phone" "go to my notes and read it"

Notes~
diary entry 1 date 05-02-2017

why am i writing this while crying in my room, dads out there, everyone is. corbin is next to me but all i can think about is the fact i had butted heads with the one guy i fell in love with when first discovered vine, wow i sound like a stalker. i just wish things were different. i never should've gone to do the trampoline video when dad first adopted me, i wouldn't have met corbin, i wouldn't be telling myself i love him. he makes me happy but its all for show, why am i still holding onto the fact that i love him when my heart is set on someone who is temporary not in the house. fuck it

Colby.. i love you, i always have, again sound like a stalker fuck me...
i hate that i am lying to myself and everyone online, why am i so stupid
i hope to whoever is above that you don't see this
i hope i can disappear if you find this, the fact i'm getting hate for not being with you and that they can tell that the smiles being posted when i'm with you is forced for the likes
i shouldn't be here writing this with corbin next to me..... it should be you
you aren't home but when corbin isn't i sneak into your room and lay in your bed crying,
i sneak to the roof to sit above your room crying i'm so stupid
the japan trip is coming up i will be home by myself crying myself to sleep in your bed

daddy(a/n not in a weird way) i'm sorry for letting you down, if i go on that trip i want to go back to the orphanage. i'm not the look girl you wanted. i'm fucked up in the head, i live everyday like its wonderland. i love you, if you're reading this you're probably in japan and i'll be on my way back to the orphanage. i'm sorry to you and the rest of the trap house. please tell colby i love him tell sam and kat that i love them tell corey and dev i love them. daddy i love you... i'm sorry for failing you... good bye i love you

I looked up at her in tears, i hadn't realized i was reading it out loud until i saw sam and colby on the bed with us in tears. she got up and went into the bathroom while sam colby and i sat in her bed crying in silence. i can hear the quiet weeps from the bathroom, sam went to check on her but was stopped by colby. "let me talk to her please.. i need to" sam looked at me i just nodded my head

colby got up and went to the bathroom

colby's POV:
after waking up and hearing that, i couldn't help but cry and blame myself. i remember meadow following me on social media from vine, i even met her a few times at vidcon and when sam and i would explore places. she was the one that recommended us to start doing videos like that. as i crept to the bathroom door, i sat on the floor next to that bathroom and knocked slowly to let her know it was me "go away dad" "its colby" she unlocked the door and i crawled in slowly

as her and i are sitting on the floor quietly crying, she would occasionally look over at me and i can see the pain in her eyes but every time i'd lock eyes with her she'd look away from me. i hate the way things started. i wish i can wake up and have a do over.. i can see she's sitting there pick at her arm i moved closer to her and held her tightly in my arms. she reluctantly leaded into me.

one hour later
i had stopped crying and so did meadow. she eventually fell asleep in my arms. i stood up and picked her up with her head in my neck i brought her to the bed and laid her down, elton and sam had fell asleep. i quietly sat next to meadow, my phone chimed in my pocket, i pulled it out and got a text from corbin to have me let him in the room because he was taking meadow home, i told him to fuck off and that she was staying and he started banging on the door which woke everyone up.

meadow jumped and landed in my arms, sam and elton went to check the door, and rushed outside shoving him away from the door to try and prevent him from coming in. meadow moved and got up i tried to stop her but she told me to help her to the door, i gave in and helped her. "daddy sam stop" the three of them looked up at her and stopped pushing each other.

meadows POV:
the three of them looked at me, "corbin you are a psycho who made me think that i never loved colby or myself or my family. you tricked me into loving you when you knew i loved colby. you manipulated me into loving you knowing damn well i saw you as a friend. i want nothing to do with you. i want you to leave me and my family and best friends alone. you can do all the videos you want with them i don't want anything to do with you" i yelled after doing so i moved off of colby and slapped corbin in the face and falling over in the process but dad and colby caught me

"go home you asshole, i told corey to leave your shit at your house, i put everything you ever gave me in the bag including a bag of ashes from the pictures i burnt. leave. me. alone" i got off of colby and dad and went back into the room. i can hear them and security outside. they made him leave and i fell asleep again.

A/N
heyyyy long time no see, again i am sooo sorry for not updating the book, i hope you guys are still liking this book. ik it took a turn but i wasn't comfortable with the way things were going with the story, so i changed this. i like it a bit now i hope you guys are liking it. i have college tuesday wednesday and thursday so i probably wont be uploading those days but will try to write as much as i can those days and upload on the weekends when i can. in the meantime please leave any ideas please it would be so helpful to see what you guys would wanna see from me from this story or new stories !

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