Need Love

Chapter 8

I slowly walked up to the swung sets.

Were he was.

Early.

I sat down on the swing sets and pushed myself against the wind to rock/swing back and forth on the swings.

He broke the silence.

'I'm so--rry about yesterday.' he whispered.

I just nodded.

'I'm such a fucked up person. I messed you up and made your life worse, I really don't deserve you. But what I wanted to say yesterday was--' He said and took a deep breathe then it was silent again.

'Ive liked you for a long time. You never noticed. I didn't mean to bully you and all though.' He reached for my hand, and I let him grab it.

It was warm. It was nice. Its was soft. I just couldn't believe someone had liked....

Me.

See, Lucas was my crush for a few years and when he found out he bullied me.

But knowing what he just told me and the way he held my small skiny hand, I didn't believed him. I wanted to, but I just can't get the conversation my father and I had had.

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Flashback
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'Why can't you or anyone love me?' I silently cried, but it really tore me apart.

He just laughed looking at my pathetic self.

'Because you don't deserve love, you ruin it.' He spat.

I cried 'I didn't--' I refuse to speak as he slapped me and banged my head against the table.

'No one will ever love you' He said as his nose crinkled up and his face was dark, it was and he was evil.

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'Julia!' Lucas yelled.

He was standing right in front of my swing. Right in front of me.

I shook my head. Lucas had held both of my hands and pulled me up.

'What happened?' he said.

'Nothing' I smiled looking up at his face.

'What happened to yo--' He said but then stopped.

It was silent after.

'Nothing okay.'

'Julia I know that someone hits you, but I know you don't want to tell me the details and all. But I'm always here, even though I did bad things to you. I'm sorry.' He looked down.

I smiled and put my finger on his chin to bring his face up to look at me.

'Its okay.' I smiled.

I don't know. I wanted him to.kiss me. To love me endlessly.

He leaned into me.

I just stared back at his hazel eyes. U could just get lost in them easily.

His lips then were in mine. Slowly We kissed.

His tongue wanted to go into my mouth. I opened mine to let him explore . His tongue gradually touched my tongue. He then took his tongue out and bit my my bottom lip.

I moaned. His kiss was so good. He was a great kisser. This would be my first kiss (not counting my brother).

My brother.

I pulled away. Lucas searched my eyes. My eyes that wondered off in a different direction that he wasn't in..

' Did I do something? Did I got to fast? Shit.' He said.  Trying to apologize.

I couldn't say anything. My brother. How could I forget about him.

Us.

But it was wrong. I needed to talk to him.

Or just not tell him at all.

Lucas grabbed my hand.

'I'm sorry'He said apologetically.

And with that I crashed my lips onto his onto his. As his hands roamed down to my waist.

Could Lucas actually Love me?

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What do you think? Could he?

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