Need Love

Chapter 16

"Okay Class. We will be doing an assignment that involves partners. It'll be a project that will be needed to be due in 2 weeks on Monday." Mrs. Mollards says.

Great just great. Really. I have to live with torture forever.

"We will be on the focus of taking care of a baby. By this you will need a MALE and FEMALE partner."

oh yea she really is trying to torture me.

Its been a week after the whole thing happened with my brother, Lucas and I. Lucas and I are no longer in speaking terms, because I asked him why does he love me. Because I told him how could he love someone so god damn worthless! We got into an argument and he walked out on me.

FLASH BACK-

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We were in the Janitors closet. Once again. This was like the place we'd meet up when we skip class. I'm not all goody now am I?

He knocked on the door and I opened it for him. I smiled full of warmth.

"Hey." He says in a low toned voice.

"Babe.." I said as the smile that was hiding my sadness disappeared. I just had to ask. I wanted to know after all what my brother said.

"Yes?" he said as he moved a piece of hair from my face. Placed it behind my ear as his lips connect to my neck.

"Why?"

"Why what?" he muffled kissing my collar bone.

"Do you love me?"

"Yes, Yes baby. Lots of love. Strong love." He replied trying to pull my shirt up.

"Why? How could you love a pathetic girl like me?" I whispered.

He looked at me dead in the eye. His eyes began to darken.

"DON'T YOU EVER SAY THAT ABOUT YOURSELF!" He yelled.

"WHY CAN'T I SAY SOMETHING THAT..... THAT'S TRUE!?" I yelled back.

"STOP JULIA. THE ONLY THING THAT'S PATHETIC IS YOUR GOD DAMN MIND!" He yelled and he walked out the closet room.

Leaving me crying. So speechless. I slid down against the wall. I cried non-stop. No one came to check up on me.

No Lucas.

I knew I was pathetic and worthless. Love just made it worst. Warm tears fell down my face. Eyes felt as if swollen by then. I knew they were red. After what feels like 30 minutes I managed to get up and finish school. Finish the day.

No sign of Lucas.

Maybe with other girls, somewhere where I was forgotten.

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REALITY

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"Julia?" The teacher called my name. How long did my inner-self disappear?

Everyone in the class were staring at me. Whispers.

Whispers.

Whispers.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I yell and storm out of the class room.

This is crazy I thought. I can't do this. I can't do this anymore. I can't be here anymore. It was time. No one cared for me. No one loved me. There was just no purpose of me being here. Here in this world full of hell. No desire. I couldn't live a happy life, because I was already ruined. It was too late. I'm everything to blame. To think anyone would love me. I'm so damn stupid. Me? Love? Not possible. All my life I wished I could be someone I'm not. But I guess this was meant to happen. I'll be forgotten anyways. I'll be happily with my mother. Pain released.