So Far...Yet So Close...

Week 5

3/7/2022- Monday 

Hey Baby!

Today was a good day. I woke up to your handsome voice <3. I know I didn't get out of bed right away as we would have wished for but I eventually got up. I took a shower, did a little work out and headed out the door for work. I went thru my first session which was good and productive. My second session was a home session with my usual kiddo. He was sick today and got a fever throughout session. We had to end session early. I then headed to my moms and we went out to eat Whataburger together. I then went to visit my uncle and wish him a happy birthday. I made a decision that can be very good and very bad. I have no regrets. 

He gave me the choice to take care of a puppy he was not able to look after until it was older. I went ahead and took the risk to bring her home with me today. My sister and I headed to the dollar store to buy her things with the money my uncle gave us. I then brought her home, brushed her hair and set up a little bed and pamper and food spot for her. I named her Cinnamon. She is only a few months old. We both seem to be adjusting well to each other. We worked on some pairing before I put her to bed. I learnt that she likes when her hair is brushed, she also likes soaked puppy food. She learnt that I don't like her under the bed, she seems to respect that. 

We are chatting on the phone right now and I love how we are talking about our goals and how we can adjust them to make them easier and cheaper to accomplish them. I'm just going to lay back and relax with you before falling asleep. 

Te Amo Corazon! <3

3/8/2022- Tuesday 

Hello amor, 

Today was a shit day. Just shit straight up. 

I was late to work had issues with that and turned out boss wanted me to work but didn't want to pay me because I was late. So I wasn't having it. I left the center. I still attended my second session, it went by so slow and I was feeling really agitated and impatient. I finally got off and went to my other job. Papa Johns was just really dead.. until the last hour or so before closing. I was able to talk to you while at work and that was amazing. It really cheered me up a little. I called you when I was about to head home. 

You where busy and I didn't seem to understand that. I wanted to hear and see you and you didn't understand that. We ended up making things worse than they should have been. You are still mad and we won't be calling tonight... It really hurts but I have to learn to respect that. It really hurts  you chose to not fix things and the fact that I feel like I am only making things worse when trying to fix them... Either way it hurts a lot. We will be okay though.. We will figure this out. 

I really don't got anyone and that hurts a lot too. When we fight... I don't got friends and my family wouldn't understand. All I had was a puppy. I tried my best to play with her I even took her for a walk but I kept on breaking down and overthinking. She got tired and fell asleep after eating. I just sat in the bathroom until I got myself together. I work early morning tomorrow and there is SOOO much shit going on thru my head that I won't be sleeping and that is going to be a challenge because I have to be at work at 8 am. If I don't show up or I call off they might just fire me.. I really don't want that so I have to show up. 

I love you so much and I really hope to hear from you soon. I miss you so fucking much and I don't like us arguing.. I just wish we could understand each other a little better... but that will come with time.. 

I love you amor. 

Goodnight...

3/9/2022- Wednesday

Hey handsome!!

Today was an alright day. It is what it is. Woke up, went out for walk with Cinnamon came back home showered and went to work. I went from one session to the other. I then went to papa johns and it was pretty dead until the last hour of course. I came home and played with Cinnamon for a little.