An Unforeseen Love

The courage

I knew that something had to give. There was only so many times that some one can sit there and get beaten before they give up. This is not where I seen my life at when I was in school thinking about my future. I also knew that I had no one that I could turn to for help. This had to end but I had to be the one that ended it. I knew one way or another all the pain, tears, heartache, worthlessness, and betrayal was going to end. I was going to leave John. I didn't know how or when or what was going to happen but I knew this couldn't go on. 

As I was sitting in my car I got a feeling that I should go by John's house before going to my moms. I didn't know why I was going over there but something kept telling me to go by there. So, that is what I did. I turned on my music and turned it up so loud that I couldn't hear myself think. That is what I needed. Not to think and just do because if I allowed myself to think then I was going to talk myself out of walking away in fear of my life. I made a choice...I was leaving and that is my final choice. As I pulled onto his road I braced myself with what I thought was going to happen as soon as I pulled in. I was going to put an end to it. Today was the day that he either kills me or I walk away. I knew that Ryan was going to be there and so was Bryan and his girlfriend.  

When I got to his house I didn't even turn my car off. I mean if he kills me then what is it going to matter that my car is still running. And if he acts like the betrayed shocked boyfriend that I am leaving then I wanted my car to be running so I can leave. I wasn't going to give him the chance to make good on the promise to kill me if he was going to be all "perfect boyfriend" in front of his friends. As I step out of my car I realize that there is a vehicle there that I don't recognize. 

"who the hell is that? Great there is someone else here and I don't know who that is. This isn't going to go good for me." As I walk towards the house I quickly take my phone out and send my mom a text saying that I stopped by John's for a minute or so but I was still coming over. I wanted her to know where I was so she didn't worry. She was either getting her daughter soon and to her suprise I was moving back home or she was going to plan a funeral for her youngest child. 

"No! You can't think like that! If you start thinking about that your going to back out of leaving and eventually she will be planning your funeral anyway. You need to do this and you need to do it now." 

I walk up to the front door and look in. That's odd I thought where is everyone. I look around one more time and that's when I see what just threw me over the edge so to speak. I see John with some other bitch in his lap with her in her bra kissing John. I start to laugh as I am standing there at the door watching my boyfriend (if you can call him that) and this other chick. Not because I thought that it was funny because it was anything but funny. But simply because I didnt even care that he was doing that. I was happy that i caught him like this because it just means that i made the right decision. He used me as a punching bag and yet is going to pretty much dry fuck this bitch while I am at work.Good for you John you have everyone fooled but let's see how long it last after this. 

As I go to reach for the door I hear someone ask where is John and Lilly? I laughed out loud at this point and said they are inside but it looks like they are a little busy. I must of shocked everyone that was there because when I spoke it was like they all seen a ghost. Yeah go ahead and play dumb like you don't know what is going on I thought. I fling open the door and seen Lilly jump off of John like she was shot in the ass. 

"So, what the fuck is all this?" I was pissed but at the same time I was glade. I was done and he just made it so clear to me that I made the right decision. 

"Who are you?" Lilly asks looking embarrassed and confused as shit.

"Oh, me? Yeah I am no one. Well that's not true I was John's girlfriend for the past 8 months but thanks to you I get to be his ex-girlfriend for the rest of his life." I said as I looked right at John daring him to make good on his promise in front of all his friends.