An Unforeseen Love

Another day...Another drama

After all of the drama with John the day before I was starting to look forward to my life with Kyle. I knew that things were finally getting better for me. He was the one that saved my life. If I hadn't have met Kyle I probably wouldn't have gotten the courage to leave John when I did. I was starting to fall in love with Kyle more and more and to me that is scaring the hell out of me. I am terrified of getting hurt again but something tells me to trust and believe in him. I know that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me but I need to let him in. At some point I think that I should tell him everything but how do I do that without sounding like an idiot? Someday I might get the courage to tell him. 

I still haven't told Kyle about the things that happen when I was with John. I don't know how to tell him. And honestly i don't know if i want to tell him because i feel like if i tell him that then i am going to admit that i am weak. I don't want to be looking like I am weak. I am going to do things differently. I am never going to allow another man hurt me in any way. I trust Kyle which is really odd for me to say especially after being beaten by John for so long. 

Kyle and I are still working at Wal-Mart and pretty much everyone knows now that we are a couple. Things have been going great since Kyle and I started dating. John still tries doing his shit of starting drama but I have been ignoring him. He isn't even worth my time or energy. He is a fucking worthless piece of shit. Honestly I have no idea why I even started dating John in the first place. I guess it is one of those things that you guys are friends for so long and you think that you guys owe it to one another to see if there's more to it. I did care about John i will admit that. I mean you don't just start dating someone for the hell of it. At least I don't. 

A few days after we started dating Kyle and I have been staying at each others house. It has been almost like a fairy tale story between Kyle and I. I love him. 'Wow did I really just say that I love Kyle.' What the hell is wrong with me? Actually, I am not going to question this. I love Kyle. God, it feels nice to say that. Now if I could just get the courage to tell Kyle how I feel about it. But maybe it is to soon. I doubt that he feels the same way about me. And to be honest I am just glade that i am with a man that cares so much about me. 

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Kyle and I both work the same shift today so we just go to work together. As I am sitting in Kyle's car I feel that my heart is floating on air. I have these butterflies in my stomach when he is around me. I really do love this guy. Seems like each day that passes the more that we talk and hang out the more that I feel myself falling deeper in love with him. Kyle gives me a kiss each day before we log into work and each kiss still makes me feel like it is the first time. He is perfect. How in the world did I ever get so lucky to have such an amazing guy? I really don't know but I am really glad that I have him. 

Kyle and I were supposed to have break at the same time. However, when we get to our first break I am sent to break before him. I hate this. I wanted to see him on my break. It's not like I don't see him while we are working but I still love spending time with him on my breaks. However, if I would have known what was going to happen on my break this time I probably would have just stayed inside of the store instead of going outside. I wanted to have a smoke but I really am kicking myself in the ass right now. 

As I walk outside and start to have a cigarette I see the bitch out of the corner of my eye. There she is and she is walking towards me. Just fucking great. I was staring at Kyle as he was getting carts out of the stalls. But I never expected him to be able to see my panic from across the parking lot. 

As John's mother is walking towards me I feel the panic coming in full force and worse than before now. 

"What the hell is your problem? You break up with my son and than you have your new boyfriend beat the hell out of my son and put him in the hospital!" John's mother is yelling at me at this point and all I can do is look at her like she is crazy. 

What the hell is she talking about. Kyle never put her in son in the hospital. She has officially lost her damn mind. This woman is crazy. 

"Excuse me but what the hell are you talking about right now?" I am confused and pissed off that this bitch has the nerve to show up at my work to cause a scene like this. What the hell is her problem. Who the fuck does she think that she is!

"Don't play stupid Becca! Your boyfriend put my son in the hospital last night." As she is saying this she shows me a picture of her son laying in a hospital bed. I really want to laugh and tell her good he finally got what he deserves. 

She wouldn't of even cared if this was me and her son did this to me. Wow. She is just as much of a cold hearted bitch as her son is. I know for a damn fact that my boyfriend did not put John in the hospital. All though that would have been amazing if he had. I would not even feel sorry about it. 

I tell John's mom that she needs to leave and that my boyfriend never put her son in the hospital. She is out of her god damn mind and I am over this family. They need to stay the hell out of my life and stay the hell away from me. Kyle has been by my side while she talks all this shit and accuses him of beaten the hell out of John. I know that Kyle didn't do anything to John because I was with him all night last night. I stayed the night at his place and we spent the night watching movies and playing video games.

Whoever put John in the hospital did everyone a favor. I just hope that this is the last time I have to deal with John and his family because I am over it. I just want to focus on my boyfriend and just want them to stay the hell away from me. I haven't told Kyle about what all John has done but I know that I need to soon. I have one more cigarette and am focusing on not shaking. I decided at that moment that I am sitting next to Kyle that I am going to tell him everything. I just hope that he doesn't look at me differently and doesn't go running away from me. 

I tell Kyle that we need to talk after work. Just the two of us. I told him that it's nothing bad I just wanted to talk to him and explain a few things to him. The rest of the day seems to be going by to fast. I just wanted to slow down time a little so I can gather the strength and figure out what I am going to tell him exactly. I know that I am going to tell him everything about John and the situation I just don't know how or what his reactions are going to be. 

After work Kyle tells me that he wants to take me out to dinner before we talked. He wanted to brighten my day just a little after everything that happened. I tell him that would be amazing. 

"Well where would you like to go to dinner babe?" Kyle is so sweet. He is always asking me what I want to eat. He is so sweet. He always makes me feel so beyond loved and cared for. 

"Um, this may sound really odd. But I don't want to go anywhere fancy. To be honest, I really want Taco Bell. It just sounds so amazing." As I say this I feel like I am stupid. I decided that I am going to make sure that I don't change for anyone ever again. I am just going to be me and if that's not good enough well then that person doesn't deserve to be with me.  And to my surprise he was okay with going there for dinner.

Later that night we decided that I was going to stay the night with him at his place. We have been spending the night with one another since we got together pretty much. We talked all the time and I finally told Kyle all about John and what he did. I asked him not to say anything to anyone else. I told him that I didn't want to be looked at differently because of everything that i have been through. Kyle doesn't seem like that kind of person but something told me to say that. I knew he wouldn't disrespect me. I am more in love with Kyle than anything that I ever thought possible.  I still play back the things that happened between John and I. Mainly because it still haunts me. I know that Kyle is a great guy but how do you just move past the trauma that he cased me for the past eight months? I don't think that you can. He has been so beyond patient with me. He never forces me to do anything that I am not ready for. He is sweet and caring. So much different than John ever could be. Looking at it John was nothing more than just a boy and Kyle...well he is what a person would call a real man. Everything he does is to make sure that I am happy and make sure that I have everything that I could ever want or need.