My Love // Theo Nott

sixty two

Aurora's pov:

I was in the bathroom when I heard Pansy walk into the room. I was cleaning myself up, but no matter what I still looked evidently exhausted. I heard Elio and Pansy talking, but it was obvious they were trying to be quiet for my sake.

"Can you guys stop whispering?" I said as I walked out of the bathroom and headed towards my bed. I sat down as Pansy left right away after saying a small 'bye'. I looked at the clothes in Elio's hands and shook my head. "You can go sleep in your own room."

"I don't think I can." Elio said as he sat across from me on my bed.

"Why?"

"I can't promise you I won't do something to Theo." At the mention of Theo I felt my eyes automatically start tearing up. I looked away from Elio towards a blank spot on the wall.

"I don't care what you do to him. Just don't do anything that will get you in trouble." I took a deep breath to try to control my emotions, but only a couple seconds later I bent over and put my face in my blankets and began to cry.

I felt Elio lean towards me to rub my back for support. It was a small action, but it definitely helped. The moment I walked out of the boys dorm the first thing I thought about was that Elio would blame me for bringing this upon myself. He knew I would end up getting hurt, but I was so opposed to the idea.

"He doesn't deserve you, Aurora." Elio said. That made me start crying even more. I could feel my throat start to hurt as well as my head.

After ten minutes I was fully calmed down. I sat back up and cleaned my cheeks with the sleeve of my shirt.

"What did I miss in the same classes we had together today?" I directed the focus onto my studies. 

"Aurora, just take a break." Elio sounded tired. "I promise I'll get you all the notes you need, but just leave it for tonight." he said.

I stared at Elio for a couple seconds with no emotion. "You're being awfully nice to me. Maybe I should continue dating guys that cheat on me and do everything Theo did to me." I saw the shock in Elio's features.

"What did Theo do to you?" He cautiously asked. With terrifying strength, I managed to not cry to the question.

"It doesn't matter." I looked down at my hands and took notice of the ring Theo had given me. It was an old looking one, but it looked expensive all the same. I took it off and put it under my pillow. "You were right." I looked back up at Elio.

"About what?"

"Theo."

He shook his head. "He had me fooled too, Aurora."

"Not as much as me." I just felt tired at this point and my eyelids felt like they would close at any given moment.

Elio leaned over to kiss my forehead. "Get some sleep. I'll go get you food for when you wake up."

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I never actually woke up to eat until the middle of the night. Elio was asleep on one of the extra beds in my room and I saw that he had brought a sandwich wrapped in plastic from dinner. I put on a sweater and grabbed it on my way out of the room.

On my way to the common room I debated whether if I should go to the boys dorm or keep going where I intended. I don't even know what I would be doing in the boys room. It's not like I would actually say anything to Theo.

I fell onto the couch in front of the barely lit fire and thought about Theo.

My eyes still felt extremely tired and I knew I was dehydrated from all the tears I had shed in the past day. I was too in my thoughts to hear someone come down the stairs from the dormitories.

"Hey." I looked to my left to see Theo. He walked in front of me to the fire. "Why don't you turn this on more?"

I was in shock. He was talking to me as if nothing had happened. When he got the fire brighter he turned to me. He looked bad, but I knew not as bad as me.

"What are you doing here?" My voice was scratchy and I didn't want to talk to him.

"Same as you." He sat down next to me on the couch, so I got up and moved to an armchair. I brought my knees up to my chest and looked towards the fire.

"Can you leave?" I asked.

"Aurora-"

"I don't want to talk to you." I mumbled.

"Can I say something?" I heard the desperation in his voice, so I didn't say anything. "I promise you I never did anything with that other girl." I scoffed and hid my face in my arms as I felt a few tears leave my eyes.

"Your fiancée." I mumbled. Theo didn't say anything. "I don't know what you're trying to say to me right now."

"I want you to know that I never did anything with her while with you." I looked up at him and shook my head.

"What you say doesn't matter anymore. You're promising me something when your promises don't mean shit."

"Aurora," he knelt down in front of me, way too close for my comfort. He reached out for my hand and I pushed him away from me.

"Don't touch me." He looked at me with hurt.

"You don't deserve to look hurt." I spat at him. He sat back on the couch and ran a hand through his hair.

"Yeah? Well you don't either."

"You're kidding, right?" I was shocked at his response.

"You weren't entirely innocent either." I shook my head in disbelief as I looked at him. "You were always flirting with other guys and constantly ignoring me throughout our entire relationship."

"I was studying! God Theo," I looked at the sandwich in my hand then back at Theo, "After everything you've fucking done, you're still trying to gaslight me."

"I'm trying to get you to understand that neither one of us can sit here and tell the other that we don't deserve to look hurt."

"Yes I can-"

"No you can't."

"The difference between me and you is that I actually loved you. You didn't love me, Theo." I saw a look of self-disappointment fall across his face as he looked down at his lap. "Out of all the fucked up lies, that's gotta be the top one."

"You win." he said.

"I win what?" I asked, confused.

"This argument." he looked back up to me and stood up as he walked away.

"Don't ever talk to me again." I said. I heard him pause midstep. I didn't look at him, but I knew he was looking at me. "Next time you see me just ignore me. I don't want anything to do with you."

"You say that, but I know you wish we were in bed right now." I turned my head, so he wouldn't be able to see my face at all. "Just how we were last night."

"Fuck you." I choked out.

"I wish the same." Once I heard him actually go up the stairs and I heard a door open and close in the distance is when I threw my sandwich in the fire and began actually crying again. I was starving, but the pain in my stomach was nothing compared to the pain in my chest and throat.

I wanted to go to my dorm, so I could cry in peace without anyone walking in on me, but I didn't want to wake up Elio. In between my nap I had woken up slightly and seen that he was still awake past midnight. Just there to give me comfort. I fell back asleep before he could realize I had woken up. I knew he would be exhausted once we woke up for class, though I don't think I was going to be able to attend classes later today.