It was Wednesday. 5 days after one of the worst days of Ben's life. He wasn't on talking terms with Joe, he was practically ignoring everyone else, and hadn't been sober since before the party he'd been drinking everyday which got him in trouble. Today he wanted to just lay down and but he couldn't they were performing their song they've been working on for weeks now
"So what's our band name?" Gwil asked. We were all sat in an empty music room at break, a few minutes before their music lesson. Everything was awkward between everyone. Actually, that was a lie, everyone was awkward around Ben. He'd been having a go at everyone recently, the worst one was when he had an argument with Gwil and he brought up the fact Gwil was insecure about everything little thing about himself and he'd cry about it every night
"Queen" Rami answered "I also drew a little logo, might get us more marks"
He showed the logo to everyone, they all responded excitedly. Except Ben. He just hummed in response
"Are you even fucking sober right now?" Rami asked irritated
"No" Ben answered slowly shaking his head
"Oh shit. Here we go" Allen muttered to himself sliding comfortably into his seat
"Fucking hell!" Rami threw his hands up "What is wrong with you?! Why are you being like this?"
"I'm sorry I didn't know the options I chose in my own life effect you so fucking much!" Ben argued back
"You're being such a fucking baby about everything!" Rami stood up
"Don't!" Gwil said
"No I'm sorry Gwil, he's ruining his life which I'm completely for, but he's gonna ruin our GCSE's which is going to ruin our lives!"
"You say that like you're not out there fucking girls ruining their lives, surprised Lucy is lasting this long"
That was it for Rami
"You fucking asshole, just leave" Rami grabbed Ben's shoulder pulling him out of chair and shoving him towards the door
"Cunt!" Ben called out leaving the room
"Twat!" Rami screamed at Ben
"Go fuck yourself you motherfucker!" Ben shouted for a last time before running into somewhere
"What's going on here?" Mr Taylor asked concerned
"I'm not working with those twats! Especially not that piece of shit Rami" Ben explained to him but to be honestly it was more aimed towards Rami for him to hear
"Say that to my fucking face" Rami swung the door open to the corridor
"Oi! NO! Do not fight!" Mr Taylor pushed Rami back before he could reach Ben
"What's going on?" Mr Taylor asked. They both started overlapping one another "Okay! Rami first."
"Alright. This bitch-" Rami started but was cut off by Mr Taylor saying not to insult each other "Okay, he has been acting all weird and annoying ever since my birthday. He keeps having a go at all of us! And drinking all the time-"
"Don't you think I know that!" Ben shouted
"NO! It's not your turn to speak"
"Please! You can tell I'm not fucking okay! I haven't gone less than 2 hours without drinking some kind of alcohol ever since Friday. I'm not okay!" Ben ignored him and carried on "Why cant you fucking see that!"
Ben had started crying a little now, making Rami feel bad. How didn't he realise it was this bad?
"Okay. I'll have your group first. We'll make it quick because I need to get the school counsellor for you Ben. While you, Rami, and the other need to talk"
They both silently agreed to this and headed to the room they'd be performing. It was dead silent and no one was talking to one another. They all got into their positions but before they could start, Ben started to feel sick and his face had gone pale. He was going to throw up
"Can I go to the toilet?" Ben asked getting up even if the answer was no
Rami inhaled to say something but was stopped by Mr Taylor telling him to not start anything
"Be quick!" He told Ben but he was already half was down the hall focusing on not throwing up. Luckily, he got there on time. He hated being sick, he didn't like the sound he made or the burning of his throat afterwards but he couldn't stop drinking
"You alright?" A voice spoke softly, Ben didn't know who it was from the voice but he could tell instantly by the shoes. He gave them to him for his birthday
"Joe?" He asked lightly trying not to throw up again but instead he just started crying
Joe slowly opened the door when he heard Ben's gentle sobbing however when Joe saw him he was quicker than ever to cradle him in this arms. It had only been 5 days but they both missed each other more than ever. He let Ben just cry to him, Joe knew he needed this cry, he needed to let everything out now or else it would built up
"I'm so sorry" Joe apologised after a minute of Ben crying into his shoulder while they were sitting on the schools bathroom floor. But neither of them cared
"It's fine, I knew me and Rami would never be close friends, we're so-" Ben started to ramble on by Joe stopped him
"I'm not talking about Rami. I'm talking about me. I'm so sorry" Joe apologised "I was scared and that's no excuse for what I said, but it's true. I'm not like you, I can't just do it accept whatever the outcome is. I need the outcome to be exactly what I want, it sounds selfish but I couldn't come out to them not knowing how they felt about gay people. But now I know"
Joe delicately held Ben's face so they were facing one another
"I want to hold your stupid fucking hand in public" Joe started, Ben was confused but understood once he carried on "I want to wake up and hear your annoyingly deep voice telling me good morning, I want to see your ridiculous face in the morning while you adjust to the light. I want to kiss you foolishly soft lips and not give a care in the world"
Ben's heart was beating a lot faster than it should be
"I want you" Joe smiled "again"
Ben had got his good old fashioned lover boy back
