Hi guys, it's been so long since I've updated. Life has been extremely crazy. I went through a break up of 5 years, I started a new career path in Dental Hygiene, and moved back home.
To say that I am exhausted mentally is an understatement. Just to keep things transparent for you guys. I didn't think people were still reading this after so long and it honestly is a wonderful experiencing coming back to the views on this that keep growing and growing.
Let's start with the last time I updated to now where I'm at in 2024:
I was doing a psychology degree at my local community College at the time from the last entry. Ended up not continuing even though I enjoyed a sort of therapy job as a technician. Loved my clients so much those kiddos were the absolute highlight of my day. After services ended with no fault of my own, the company couldn't pay me so no clients = no paycheck. Then I had to find something else and ended up working secretary on a medical surgical unit. Loved doing that and got promoted to patient care tech and although interacting with patients in an inpatient setting was great, the staffing issue was a concern to me which led me to leave. Now I'm a server during this new career path of mine
I have definitely grown more obviously, haha, but I wanted to touch on the relationship that I left of 5 years. That saying "if he wanted to, he would" is absolutely true. I stayed with someone who kept leading me on and was this way one year and a different way the next. Couldn't promise me marriage or anything like that either, so I had to do what was best for me. Mind you, I left during my first semester of Dental Hygiene school (ended this December 2024) and had to move my stuff back home, which is a lot closer to the college anyways, haha. The biggest thing that hurts the most is leaving my kittens behind. I couldn't take them home. My Dad did try to help figure something out, but with my Mom allergic and trying to get our dogs to accept her would have been a challenge in and of itself so I had to let them go.
Everyone tells me how strong I am for leaving, but in all honesty, I don't feel strong at all. I just felt like I left a long time ago before the relationship actually ended. I feel regret and guilty towards myself for staying so long knowing that things weren't going to change. I've been working on positively healing though so that's the main part. It feels good getting this out and I guess "journaling" what I'm going through right now to others who might have gone through something similar.
It's Christmas though, so we can't be sad, alright?
Aside from that, I have 3 semesters left of Dental Hygiene school! That sounds so much better than a year and a half, haha. I start my next semester January 15th which is quite honestly right around the corner. I'm nervous, but excited to see what this will bring. Got all my books and kits ordered as well!
However, even though so much has happened in this year alone, I just wanted to come on here and give a quick update to those that may still have me in their library. Just know you're never alone and never give up, but always have hope. Things always become better with time as cliché as that sounds, it's true.
That's all for now, I'll update in the future.
Love,
Libs 🫶🏻
