So please ignore the title LOL
For all of you that are wondering if I'm okay, I am...
Just been some changes in my life recently and I'm slowly trying to adjust. It's just been a crazy life out there.
College math isn't going to good atm...
But English is! I love my English class so much!!!
So just wanted to say that. I know I'm not really bubbly atm and kinda depressed... but I have been coming here for my boredom and all of that, as a way of getting it off my chest. This helps me cope that I'm now slowly starting to realize. Venting to total strangers is something I could never do in real life, but on here I can hide behind a screen and you guys get my life into words.
I hope it means something to you as well.
If I were to die tomorrow, I'd like for my life to be on here. For other's to read and realize they aren't alone. They may be excited about the same thing or depressed about the same thing... that's mostly why I write. Entertainment/Life lessons/morals/etc. lolol
That's why I enjoy letting out my emotions in words.
My brain works differently. What I may speak verbally is totally different from the way I speak through writing. My words verbally are non complex, while my words in my head hold a lot of vocabulary and complexity. It's weird because I don't like to draw attention to myself that way. I don't like the attention of people saying, "Oh, she's super intelligent!" It just has never appealed to me that way. I like to show my strengths through silence and make people guess if I am or not, until a situation arises and I have to show I at least made it to 1st grade LOL. I guess that has alot of setbacks as well. Like I sing and play a ukulele, but getting up on stage to flaunt that has never been my thing either. I hate looking for anything that might draw attention to myself; I even wear dark, non flashy clothes so people don't notice me. I'd rather be invisible to a crowd of people. Although I do have effects from that.
I hate the feeling of being alone, but if it's my choice I would rather be alone all the time. Not saying I don't like some social interaction, but I've come to realize that sometimes after a big crowded event (I'm not talking like 1,000 people, to me crowded is like 30+ people lol) I grow tired on the way home and just want to sleep. Like it just drains me socially. That's why you won't see me around too many people at once.
This is probably boring to you guys, but I like to write a lot. I've even started to try writing songs. (Not going to well right now, but slowly and surely, I'm getting there. I just haven't had a good spout of inspiration yet. Also if you guys wanna give me topics to write songs about that will help too. I don't care if it's the most random thing in the world, just throw whatever you have off the top of your head and slap me with it cause guys, I'm kinda desperate atm LOL)
That's really all I have guys... Just drop your song ideas in the comment section, Like I do not care if you say, "Oh, Liberty! You should totally write about avocados!" (Don't use that as a actual choice for me... I hate avocados) So yeah, just leave 'em there.
Stay Slayin' (insert emoji with sunglasses because I'm on a computer and can't insert one XD) :D
