Why does it take one thing to make a person's day, and one thing to completely ruin it?
I've just asked myself that question...
Why is it that one thing someone might have said to you, done for you, or whatever can completely make or break your day?
It's so stupid if you ask me... Maybe I'm just not in the right frame of mind right now.
Life is like a boat ready to fall down a waterfall, but is held barely between two rocks. That one thing could push the boat over the edge and land on the other side. It could possibly float, but more often than not, sink; Just depending on what the situation is.
I hate how I just used a boat and a waterfall as an analogy...
Maybe one day it'll all turn up, who knows. But until then I'll continue to cry myself to sleep, just for tonight. Tomorrow I'll be stronger than today because they say time heals.
But that doesn't change the situation as much as I cry about it, it's simply a way to release so much sadness your heart can't handle it and eventually all your sadness falls in streams of water down your cheeks and your nose gets all snoty and sometimes, if your really sad and don't care, you just feel limp and leave your head on the surface of whatever it is and bawl your eyes out, leaving a puddle of snot, tears, and spit, but it's okay. I'm fine.
Crying doesn't solve our problems, but when your done and had a good sob, you feel so relieved and refreshed. Sure the pain is still there, but now you have a better grasp on it and can move on.
That's what I am doing now. Instead I chose to write it down and express my thoughts on it here; as a way of letting go I guess you could say.
But that's not all. Sadness is just simply an emotion. Nothing more. Various things can cause sadness. But for me tonight it's a break for something in my life. To take a break and see if it'll fix itself. And I'm praying to a god out there that it will because the amount of care I have, I don't want it to be for nothing.
So that's why I come with something deep tonight. To share with all of you. Compared to the other stuff I've written, this is the most deep and formal piece I have, but that's why I have a journal for this kind of thing. My life in chapters. Obviously the other ones are A.D.D. At its finest. But I also like it because I can write about stuff like this. Some deep, some A.D.D. But hey, no one's complaining right?
That's all I have for tonight. Writing that helped calm me down enough that tears weren't flowing anymore and I was distracted for a bit. So thanks to all who have read this, it means a lot that you guys read my content I have.
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