I Guess Im Staying

Bullshit

KYRAS POV

I woke up to Shawn's phone ringing at 2 fucking am in the morning. I tried ignoring it but no matter what it'd ring. I reached over and looked at it. Blocked number. I answered. I know I know stupid right.

Me: hello? I said half asleep

Unknown: hey! Omg baby I'm so happy u answered I had fun last night...*giggles*

Me: oh really!? Well excuse me but I believe u have the wrong number young lady cause this is MY boyfriends phone. So bye bitch!

I yelled and she hung up. Shawn shifted and looked at me. "U alright babe?" He said and I nodded my head handing him his phone and turning my back to him. He sighed. "Babe please do-" I cut him off. "Shawn it's fine. It's probably nothing. Just drop it!" I exclaimed and he sighed once again.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in kissing my forehead. "Your impossible baby girl," he said and I ignored him seeing that he wasn't understanding. Honestly this shit could not get any worse. I don't understand why people have to be selfish enough to ruin another persons relationship. I mean...SERIOUSLY! I kept thinking about it. I guess shawn noticed. "Babe go to sleep and quit stressing out!" He said and I shifted. Slowly turning towards him, I rested my head on his chest and listened for his heartbeat.

He stroked my hair calmly and caressed my face. A tear escaped my eyes and one by one they silently fell out. "Babe are u crying?" He asked and I quickly wiped them away and putting a fake smile on my face. "No of course not! I'm just going to get up. I'm not tired," I said and quickly walked to the bathroom, locked the door and got in the shower. Just so shawn thought I wasn't doing anything bad.

I heard a knock, "yes?" I asked, "hey can I come in?" It was nash. I opened the door and he looked at me cuz all I was in was a towel. "Hey! My eyes are up here grier!" I scolded him. "Uhm sorry UR just so gorgeous!" He smiled. "Um I was wondering if u wanted to hang out today. Shawn said he had a meeting so yea?" He asked and I nodded. "For sure sweetheart Thx!" I smiled at him and closed the door sighing. I sat down in the shower letting the warm water hit my back, my knees pulled up to my chest and my head in my hands.

I looked around and spotted the only thing that really stood out. My razor, I can't do this though, if I do I'm breaking a promise for shawn. I have too. I took a deep breathe and grabbed the razor...

13 cuts for shawn
9 for the guys
4 for the bullies/haters
6 for being ugly

I placed my arm in the water and watched the blood drip down blending with the water making it a tangy red orange. Tears welded up in my eyes and everything started to fade. No voices, no one here to help me. I was alone. I slowly dropped to the ground as blood rushed out off my arm reaching the drain. No one was there to knock down the door, no one to help me bandage it and tell me it will be ok. Things became pitch black and quiet. I whispered I'm sorry and blacked out.

*3 hrs later*

I woke up in the shower and was completely weak. I couldn't move. I looked at my cuts, still bleeding but they calmed down. The cold shower water hit my pruned skin and I flinched, I got out trying to find support and tripping over light shit.

I finally reached the counter and got bandage wrap and wrapped my arm letting no more blood spill out. My ears were ringing and after a few minutes it stopped and I could hear everything, knocks were coming from the door. I checked my phone, 5:34 am. I turned the shower off weakly and got dressed but failing the first few times.

Makeup makeup makeup aha! I got out concealer and all that junk and tried to make myself less pale.

Outfit:

Grey tank top
Red grey flannel
Knee shorts
Red vans with grey laces

I put my hair up into a messy bun and opened the door presenting myself with a fake smile. All the guys were standing and sitting there, Shawn and nash being the ones in front. "Hey what's up guys?" I asked and suspicion yet relief washed over them. Shawn pulled me into a hug. "Babe u were in the shower for three hours?! Are u right???" Nash said and shawn shot him a glare.

"Yea I'm totally fine!" I said totally cheery and tried to walk without losing balance. FAIL! I took one step and acted like I tripped. I sighed and looked up to cameron kneeling down to me, he whispered in my ear. "Kyra I need to talk to u!" He said and I nodded and got up.

We walked into another room and cameron sat down. "What's up?" I said and he looked at me on the verge of tears. "Cameron what's wrong?" I asked and he shook his head. "What really happened" he said and I shrugged. "Just needed time to think is all. Showers help?" I tried to say without any hesitation or emotion. He looked at me and just nodded and we met the others in the lobby.

"Babe I have another meeting I gotta get going please be safe?" He said and kissed my forehead and left. I turned to nash and fell. I cursed under my breathe and he helped me up quickly asking if I was alright. We headed out into town and he kept looking at me. "Eyes on the road nash!" I said and he focused. "That seems like a lot of concealer Hun?" He questioned. I shrugged. We just decided to have breakfast even though it was 6am.

We got muffins and star bucks. "Want anything babe?" He asked and I shook my head. I wasn't hungry. Nash looked at me for a moment then got his food, he parked the Car at some beach and looked at me once again. We both got out silently and sat down on the sand watching the sunrise beach from the water,

"Kyra?" He asked. I looked at him. And he smiled. "What grier spill!" I said and he laughed. "How come I never gave me a chance??" He asked and I got nervous. "I was scared, and I loved you....I rely loved u because you were there for me but at the moment I wasn't willing to get hurt. Not any more than I have been...." I said bluntly and he nodded. His eyes were glued to mine(not literally Ya weirdos!). They were beautiful.

The sun started to rise making the water a light blue and orange-pink color. Nash leaned in Alittle looking at my lips them back to my eyes. We both leaned in and.......

OH LOOKS LIKE UR GONNA HAVE TO WAIT TILL THE NEXT CHAPTER ️HAHA SUCKERS. Thx for the shoutout CHLOE bae ilysm and I'll be adding a new person in the story. She gonna be sammy wilks gf. So Ya. Hah. Anyways sorry I haven't updated in a while I love all of u hope ur having. A good day and I'll update very soon again ✌️❤️