I Guess Im Staying

Forgive and Forget

KIAHS POV

I was thinking to myself the rest of the day. I ignored texts. I made no contact with anybody. Carson texted and called so I turned my phone off and went do a ride. I stopped at a lake a few miles out and decided to clear my mind there for a bit. I sat up in the tree and fell asleep thinking about the guys. I woke up and went back home. I didn't bother turning on my phone cause I knew that I'd have a million messages.

I went inside and tried to be as quiet as possible. Instead of going upstairs I slept on the couch. It was. 3:40 am , and I was fucking tired. I layed there, listening to the pace of my own heartbeat. You'd think that I was ok, but I wasn't. A tear slipped my eye before I passed out.

NASHS POV

Me and the guys tried to stay up as long as possible. We waited for kiah. She didn't reply to our texts or calls. Her answering machine went straight to voicemail. I was worried. We all decided to go to bed. I thought that it was best.

The next morning I was the first one up. Around 4-5 am. I dragged myself downstairs and I felt like I was wearing heavy chains around my feet. I made my way to the kitchen and started to Rome around. The. I saw something move on the couch. I laced over there and saw kiah cuddled up in a little ball with a small blanket covering just her feet. I smiled and kneeled down beside her. (Sorry for the confusion of where they are at. There supposed to be in a hotel so just go along with it.)

I placed my hand on her face gently where the bruise currently took place. Her cheeks were flushed and cold. I picked her up and she held on to my torso. I carried her up to our room and sat her in my lap. I cradled her to keep her warm. She moved her hand to my chest and dipped her head into my arm. I held her closer and smiled. Before I knew it we were both asleep, her in my lap, cradled into my chest.

**an hour later**

Me and kiah were woken up by being lightly shaked. Shawn had come in to say that we had visitors. Kiah realized where she was and immediately threw my hand off her. She got up and went to the bathroom. I sighed and slowly got up and got dressed. It was almost noon. I went downstairs and saw the o2l guys. "GUYS!!!!" I screamed and laughed attacking them in bro hugs. "So where's kiah?" They all asked. "She's in the bathroom in our getting ready." I shrugged. We all waited.

KIAHS POV

I got dressed in the small bathroom. Today I wore ripped skinny jeans and a low cut shirt that had nash,hayes,carter,and Cameron's names on there. I put a hollister sweater on and one of Jack gs beanies. I didn't do my make up because I was too lazy. I finished up and went downstairs to the lobby. I didn't other to look up. I heard the guys talking so I knew where they were. "Kiah look up for a moment." I heard nash say. I looked up and saw.....holy shit it was kian lawley and Connor franta!!!!!! I looked back down and tried to hide my face. I didn not look decent enough for them to see me. I tried to walk away but someone caught me by my wrist. I looked over at the hand that caught me and the arm had a tattoo. Oh my god kian is touching me. "Hey kiah it's ok. I'm cool. So is Connor." He stood there waiting for me to say something. I escaped his grip and ran upstairs.

KIANS POV

Kiah escaped from my grip and ran upstairs. Nash tried to go after her by I stopped him. I signaled Connor to go with me and I asked nash for his key card. Me and Connor went up there and entered the room. I looked across the room and saw kiah sitting by the window with headphones in. She had her head in her hands and she looked as if she had regret everything.

Me and Connor walked over too her. I crouched down and touched her hand. She Flicked her arm back and started to breathe heavily. "Sweetheart it's ok. I'm not gonna hurt you." I said with a genuine smile. She got up and tried to leave but Connor blocked her way and I held her. I sat her on the bed and moved her hair out of her face. "You are very beautiful you know that?" I said. She started to cry. I wiped her tears and she winced. Apparently she had one hell of a fucking bruise on her face. She got up and left. Me and Connor looked at eachother confusingly and went downstairs too.

We pulled nash and cam to the sad and asked for an explanation. They explained everything and by then I was fucking pissed. I walked up to kiah and asked her for her last name. Someone else told me and so I followed her on everything. But the thing is, I had already followed her on vine. A long time ago. And I had messages from her.

Messages: hey kian I'm a. Huge fan. I just watched ur anxiety video and I just wanted to say that ik how you feel. I understand what you went through because I'm going through it too. Mine may not be as bad but it's in between. I get it when u say u feel alone. I always feel like no ones gonna be there, I feel like the world gets darker and everyone just vanishes. Um anyway I love you so much and I wish I could see you.

At that message I started to tear up. I showed everybody and we all looked at kiah across the lobby. She was sitting cross cross in the floor like a child. Apparently they didn't know she had anxiety.

KIAHS POV

**a week later**

Kian and Connor were staying with us,God knows why. I basically just hung out in my room the entire week. I never moved. The guys always brought me food but I never ate it. I wasn't hungry. Kian kept trying to talk to me. He said he wanted to talk to me about my anxiety but I didn't feel like it. I sat there with no expression on my face. Today I got a call from carson. I decided to answer. "Hello" I said in a quiet whisper. "Kiah! Finally please don't hang up!!! I need to talk to you." He exclaimed. I sighed, hung up and dropped my phone. I decided to go out. Kian came with me since he was bored and everyone else was busy.

We went to Starbucks and got some coffee. He offered me some but I refused. Technically i can't have coffee cause it makes me shake. Next we went to the mall. Kian bought a red/purple mixed bandana and a blue/yellow mixed one. He gave me the red one. I texted him Thx and put it in my pocket.

" no no no," kian grabbed it from my pocket and tied it around my head like his. "See, beautiful." He said. We walked around the mall. I got a few shirts with KIANS pic on there. Some of them had writing on the bottom like snee, or his name. Kian smiled at me and acted as if he was touched. We left and wondered around town. We were so close to the car. "Kiah!" I looked over and saw carson. I ran to the car and kian got in too. We hurriedly went home. I rushed inside leaving my bags in the car, stormed into my room and started to get overly angered. I started to uncontrollably cry and I started to shake. I was scared and I couldn't stop moving.i cradled myself on the floor and started to scream. Not again. Before i knew it I passed out.