I Guess Im Staying

cuts and explainations.

NASHS POV

I saw the bathroom door swing open and I looked at Kiah. I walked toward her to pull her into a hug but she took a step back and immediately collapsed to the floor. She looked paler than I have ever seen her before. She hasn't eaten anything all day. But that can't be all. I examined the cuts on her body that were there before. I then noticed red marks on her wrists. I turned her wrist over and she winced. I looked at her wrists and tears all of the sudden streamed down my face. Kiah was cutting herself. And these weren't the cuts from what happened to her before, these were perfectly alined and crossed cuts. Fresh lines and she was bleeding like crazy. I looked up at Cameron and he was tearing up. We took kiah to the hospital. When we first got there her heartbeat was slowing down real quick.

SHAWNS POV

while me,matt,carter and Taylor were watching the movie I saw nash and Cameron run out the door with kiah in Nash's arms. I was confused. Then I saw blood drops on the floor. I ran out the door with Matt carter and tay and we all got in the car. I called the jacks and Hayes and told them what happened. We all met up in the hospital and ended up in the stupid ass waiting room. We were all in patient and were all getting furious not knowing if kiah was ok. After an hour or two nash and Cameron came out. Nash looked so stressed out. His eyes were red and puffy and he looked so pale. Cameron came over to us and told us what was up. " Kiah seems to have lost a lot of blood so the doctors are gonna have to keep her here for a few days and run some blood tests. Till she regains the blood and white blood cells that she's lost." Apparently she was cutting herself. I don't blame her and all but I don't want her doing that. She means so much to the world she just needs to realize it. I felt so bad for this girl. Nash and cameron decided to stay overnight with Kiah. The rest if us went home and got some sleep even though I think it should be nash getting the sleep. He looks horrible.

NASHS POV

The doctor said he needed to keep kiah at the hospital for a few days. By now I looked like the walking dead. I felt like the walking dead. It was horrible. I understand in a way what this girl is going through. It hurts me too much to see her do this to herself. I can't help but cry even more. Me and cam walk out. Cam explains to the guys what happened. After awhile the guys went home all except me and cameron. I refused to go home, even though I was probably the one that needed more sleep than anyone else. The nurse at the front desk let us in to Kiah's room. I saw her on the bed sleeping peacefully. I walled over to the hospitals bed and sat next to her. I looked at her face,she still had the recent cuts and bruises on her body. This has been a really long day. I continue to look at kiah. She had made no eye contact with us at all. Me and the. Guys always saw her face buy never her eyes. I wonder what color they are. Hmm. I kept thinking to myself, a million questions going through my head. I felt so crazy.

CAMERONS POV

When me and nash went into Kiah's room he immediately walked over to her and sat down. He looked like he was about to cry but he held it in with everything he had. I went and sat down In one of of he hospital chairs. I went on my Instagram and twitter and followed and answered some fans. Luckily there was a guest bed in the room. But then again I had to share with nash. Dammit. I got up on the hospital bed and layd down. It wasn't all that comfy but I can live with it. Slowly I dazed off into a really deep and uncomfortable sleep.

NASHS POV

Cameron had fallan asleep on the guest bed but I was still up.it was about 3 am. I couldn't sleep. I was so worried about kiah. I mean sure we've only had her for a month or so but still. We are all she has. I examined her face. She was so beautiful. She regained some of the color back in her face. Her cheeks were slightly Rosie and it was adorable. I covered her hand with mine and sat there in silence. Her hand moved slightly under mine and I looked at her. Her eyes started to flutter open. She quickly glanced at me then shut her eyes again and pulled her hand away. I put my hand in her cheek."please open ur eyes. I want to see them." She said nothing. All I heard was her panicking breathe. She gets so scared easily. I wonder how she got these cuts and bruises, I wonder how her family died. My hand still on her cheek, a few tears fell from her face. I wiped them away with my thumb and told her its ok. She pushed away and turned her back towards me which broke my heart. How am I supposed to help her. I started to cry. I got up and was about to walk out. Then I felt someones grip on my hand. I looked over. Kiah had a grip of my hand but she wasnt facing me. I got a text from her.

Kiah: please stay. I don't wanna be alone.

I smiled and sta back down.

Me: only if u look at me please

Kiah: I really don't want to. I'll cry.

Me: haven't u cried enough,babe,I can't take seeing u like this. It breaks my heart.

Kiah: please nash. I will face u but I don't think I can handle looking at u guys. U all remind me too much of my family

Me: I want to see ur eyes. U have a such a beautiful face and I just want to see ur eyes.

Kiah: I can't. U can leave if u want.

I looked at the message and sighed. I got up and left. When I closed the door I heard kiah cry softly. I just wanted to hold her and never let go. I went to go get some food for me and cam.

KIAH'S POV

I asked nash to stay but he told me I had to look at him. I can't bare looking at the guys it hurts too much. Knowing that they are taking me in basically as there own. Once nash left I started to cry. It hurt me so much. I felt so broken and alone. I tried to turn around to look at cameron but all the cuts and bruises on my body hurt so bad. Idk why its just now starting to. But they all hurt. I lifted up my shirt and saw one of my cuts stitched. I touched it and screamed. It hurt so bad.

CAMERONS POV

I woke up and heard kiah scream. I jumped up and looked at her. She was holding her side crying. I walked over to her and touched her hand. She got startled and almost fell off her bed. I caught her and pulled her up. She screamed again. I lifted up her shirt and saw the stitched cuts on her stomach,side,and back. "Huh,its gonna take awhile for them to heal sweetheart. Doctor said ull be a little sore." She had tears streaming down her face. I wiped her tears and told her to just relax. I sat back down and checked my twitter. I got bored after a bit and just sat there. Nash came in with some food. He asked if everything was alright. I told him what happened. He got all teary and pale. I hate seeing him like this. I tried to cheer him up. I guess he felt a little better. We ate our food and sat around for a bit. The guys all came in and wanted to say hi to kiah. She didn't say any anything though. I think she was off in her own little world. Later on me and nash decided to go home and get some sleep. Shawn and Matt stayed the night with kiah.

SHAWNS POV

me and Matty decided to stay the night at the hospital this time. Me and Matt went to go get something to eat. Since taco bell was right across the street we went there. The hospital food tasted like rubber.