Without You

Chapter 11

I didn't know what to say. I just stood there staring at Maariah as though she had told me something outrageous. Well, in a way she had. I didn't dare look at Sam, but I walked up to Amelie, who was grinning and picked her up walking out of the room with her in my arms.

"Mummy? Mummy? Why aren't you happy?" Amelie asked. I ignored her and continued to walk briskly out of the hospital. I then realised that Sam didn't have a car. I didn't want to wait for him. He could get a taxi or something.

I didn't exactly know why I was walking away. It was all I knew, and it felt right to do so. I decided that I would drop Amelie off at Tiff's, and then I'd decide what I wanted to do from there. I might just go for a walk or something. To clear my mind.

I dropped my daughter off at my sister's house without an explanation, and left my car walking away from her house slowly.

I walked the streets, not really looking where I was going. When I looked up I realised that I was in front of a house that I hadn't seen in seven years. Mum and dad's house. I don't know why I was stood here, but I felt a strong urge to go in, thinking that maybe today would be different from all of the other times I had tried to speak to them.

I slowly walked up to the front door, and hesitated. Did I really want to go through with it. I didn't know. I knocked befire I changed my mind, and then waited becoming increasingly anxious as the seconds wore on. Maybe they didn't live there anymore. Then the door opened.

Mum was stood there looking at me in shock. She looked almost exactly the same as she had done before, but this time she had a few more wrinkles, and a tired look in her eyes. "J...J...Josie?" She said making it sound as though she was asking me whether I was there or not.
"Barbara, who is at the door?" I heard my dad's voice before I saw him. When he saw me, the look on his fsce changed from happy to completely annoyed. He looked as though he hated me. "You? What are you doing at my house? And where is that child of yours?" He asked venom in his voice.
"I wanted to see you and mum, because I'm having a hard time, and my daughter Amelie is at Tiffany's house." I said, beginning to cry. Everything had just become too hard for me, and I didn't want to deal with it anymore. I just wanted my mother to hold me in her arms. She did. I was so surprised, but she pulled me in for a hug and gently stroked my back as I cried. My dad must have been very angry, because he walked out of the hall and slammed the living room door.

After I had calmed down, mum took me upstairs to her room. "Can I see a picture of my granddaughter?" She asked seeming as though she was excited. I hesitated for a second, but then decided that she had a right to see her granddaughter, even if she didn't want to have anything to do with me when I was pregnant.

"Oh my goodness, she's beautiful." My mother gushed, a few tears escaping from her eyes. "I'm so sorry for not being here for you in all these years. I don't know what was wrong with me," she whispered.
"Mum, it's fine, nobody's perfect and we all make mistakes." I said trying to console my mother who was now crying. She shook her head. She really looked as though she was beating herself up about not being there for me. I actually understood why she didn't help me. My dad had always been the dominant figure in our family, and mum had to listen to everything he said, so she must have been scared that he might leave her if she took my side over his. I told her about everything that had happened in the last seven years, even telling her about Sam. She listened to me quietly, taking in everything that I had to say. She only spoke at the end to say that she was incredibly proud of me. I then heard a noise, and saw my dad stood in the doorway with a sad look on his face.
"I'm sorry." We both said it at the same time, and then laughed. I ran up to my dad and into his arms, because he had his arms open. I felt safe and at home.

We caught up on everything that all of us had missed, and then I decided that it was time for me to leave. Amelie had school the next day, and I needed to get her home so that I could ahower her and get her to bed. I said goodbye to my parents and they invited me to come round with Amelie next week, and mum added that I should bring Sam if we made up, which made me cringe slightly. I felt guilty for leaving him at the hospital.

As I was walking back to Tiffany's house I heard my name being called frin behind me. I spun around to see who it was...

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