Bucky's Arrival

chapter 7

 Bucky's been back with Steve for a good while now, and has been making improvements. He's starting to get used to being changed and bathed and such without so much fear, seeming to realize by now that Steve won't harm him. He's started being a little more outgoing, too, initiating affection instead of just waiting for it, asking for things he needs, and he's even started talking a bit. "Food", "water", and even "please" and "thank you" are now words he can speak without struggling, although sometimes he isn't comfortable talking so he still uses the sign language Clint taught him.

 Steve has been trying his best to praise and encourage Bucky each time he sees these improvements. He'll tell Bucky how good he's doing at speaking, voicing his needs, letting Steve change him. Positive reinforcement seems to help a lot.

 Steve has also noticed Bucky improving physically. He has gained weight and is no longer emaciated, he's less pale and has more energy. He's also noticed Bucky is starting to get erections, especially during his morning changes when he wakes up. Steve knows it's normal, basically every guy is hard when they wake up, himself included. But it still makes him a bit flustered, considering their history. 

 Bucky has noticed this change too. Steve has watched him touch himself sometimes during changes and baths, seen him absentmindedly palm the front of his diaper on occasion. He tries not to say anything when he sees these things. it's all normal and he doesn't want to discourage Bucky from normal behaviors like exploring his body.

 Although Steve misses how they used to be, he doesn't care if Bucky never remembers, or never wants that again. He's just happy to have Bucky at all. It'd be nice though. They wouldn't have to be so careful and secretive anymore. Being like that is legal now, it's normal. Celebrated even. it's no longer something to hide and be ashamed about. Having that with Bucky again, in this day and age, would be great. But only if Bucky wanted.

 The night Steve wakes up to Bucky moaning and shifting in his sleep, he first assumes it's another nightmare. He debates whether to wake Bucky and risk him lashing out in fear, or just let it pass and try to go back to sleep. But before he can decide. he's shocked when Bucky mutters a soft "Stevie" in his sleep.

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 Bucky's dream

 The Asset is not The Asset. He doesn't know what he is. Where he is. He doesn't have his mechanical arm, the thing which makes him a valuable Asset. Both of his arms are flesh and blood. He seems to be in an apartment. Small and mostly bare, save for a small table with two chairs, a torn couch and one twin sized bed. The door opens and a man walks in. He is oddly familiar, but the Asset has no idea why. He is small, skinny and scrawny. Soft looking blonde hair. His blue eyes feel strangely comforting.

 "Buck. How was work?" The small man says.

 "Same as always." The Asset replies.

 The small man comes forward and gets on his tip toes to kiss the Asset. "I always miss you when you're at work." He says.

 "Well I know that feeling," the Asset says. "you don't know how much I miss you while I'm at work."

 "Well why don't you show me how much." The small man says with a smirk.

 "I'd be glad to." The Asset replies with a smile.

 The next thing the Asset knows, they're both naked. But he's not afraid. He doesn't feel the usual fear and dread that comes with being naked. He feels excitement, happiness.

 The smaller man kisses the Asset again, a long and tender kiss this time.

 The Asset feels a strange fluttering in his stomach as the man crawls on top of him while they kiss, grabbing the Asset's penis with soft, gentle hands, and slowly stroking until it starts firming up.

 He then breaks the kiss to bend down, licking the Asset's tip. The Asset feels a shiver down his spine at the sensation.

 "Mmm, Stevie." The Asset mutters breathlessly.

 The small man then slides his lips along the shaft, taking the whole thing into his mouth, drawing a moan from the Asset as he starts slowly sucking.

 He pulls back then, turning around and once again grabbing the Asset's dick, now slick with spit, and slowly lowering himself onto it.

 "Stevie!" The Asset moans, throwing his head back. He edges in until he's fully inside, and starts mindlessly rocking his hips, slow at first then faster, sliding in and out of the tight, warm hole.

 "Ohhh, Stevie, Stevie," The Asset moans as he fucks the man. He feels a strange sensation growing in his groin, familiar yet foreign at the same time. "I'm getting close."

 "Already?" says the smaller man. "I love it when I can make you feel this good, Bucky. So hot and bothered you can't last."

 The Asset's movements become faster, more erratic as the sensation intensifies. Then something happens, he just feels so good, and there's something coming out, and it feels so good. He doesn't think he's urinating, this feels different, he doesn't know what's happening but it just feels so good. He's in absolute bliss.

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 Steve wakes up the next morning a little surprised to find Bucky still asleep. Usually he wakes first and then just lays in bed staring at Steve until he wakes up too. 

 "Bucky," Steve says, gently running his hand through Bucky's hair. "Time to get up, Buck."

 He would like to let Bucky rest, but he knows from experience if he isn't changed first thing his diaper will leak, and that will of course lead to a meltdown out of fear of punishment.

 Bucky stirs and lets out a small whine as he opens his eyes. Steve smiles at him.

 "Let's get you changed."

 Changing Bucky is a lot easier now that he doesn't freak out as much, although he still cries a little bit sometimes. But today he seems calm, and willingly kicks the blankets off himself and lets Steve remove his pants without fuss.

 Steve opens the diaper and isn't surprised that Bucky's hard again. He is surprised, however, to see cum in his diaper. That's a first.

 He blushes and just nonchalantly goes about this routine as usual, wiping Bucky clean carefully and gently before putting a dry diaper on him. He gets Bucky up and dressed, makes breakfast and sets the table. It isn't until they're halfway through eating he decides to try to bring it up.

 "Did you have some nice dreams last night, Bucky?" Steve asks.

 Bucky only looks at him and continues eating.

 "You said my name in your sleep." Steve states. "I hope it was a good dream."

 Again, unsurprisingly, Bucky only stares.

 "Are you starting to remember some things? I'd like to help if I can. If you'll let me."

 Steve tries not to show any disappointment at Bucky's lack of response. He forces a smile and praises Bucky for finishing his breakfast instead.

 After breakfast he puts Bucky on the couch and turns on the TV for him so he can take a shower. Bucky sits, staring blankly at the TV but Steve can tell he's not actually watching. He's slowly rubbing at the front of his jeans. Steve watches for a minute before going. He jacks off in the shower wondering about Bucky's dream.