花 ⊰ [ jihan ]

五

why would i choose the third one?

joshua kept repeating while going back home.

am i that naive?
the doctor said the operation is the best option,
do i want to die?
if the person i love doesn't love me back, the petals will turn into bloody ones

do you really want that, joshua?

even if it is him he is never going to think of me that way
just like me.
it can't be jeonghan.
i am not in love with him.

is it seungcheol then?
ew, there's no way, it doesn't make sense anyways
what if it's just stupid illness,
that would make sense!
wouldn't it?..

while going to the property, josh decided to enter one of the cafeterias on the sidewalk to buy two cups of hot chocolate and vanilla cupcakes. he knew soonyoung was waiting for him but there was not much food home so he decided to buy them because hoshi might be starving.

kwon really cared about his best friend, they knew eachother since kindergarten. he kept texting shua until one replies. joshua instead, was leaving him on read whole time.

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hoshi
> JOSHUAAA
> are you okay?
> where are you, i've been waiting here for two hours already
> oh! what the doctor said? do you know what disease is that??
> i think i know but just tell me i need to be 100% sure
> hey! don't leave me on read :(
> aha????
> anyways
> i'm really hungry!
> don't you have food at home? i am looking for some candies and the only thing i found are some expired american cookies
> i'm not saying i won't eat them though
> hey i said don't leave me on read
> OH WAIT I HAVE YOUR SNAPCHAT LOCATION
> what are you doing in the gugudan cafe?
> jisoo hong i'm going to come for you if you don't tell me why are you there.

joshua hyung (͡°‿ ͡°)
okay okay, fine! <
i decided to buy us some muffins and now i'm waiting for our hot chocolate <

hoshi
> FINALLY
> okay then
> i'm waiting for you (~‾▿‾)~ <3

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this guy

a smile appeared on joshua's face. he picked up his order and went outside. as josh needed more time to think about his disease and who actually caused it, he decided to walk by the park but still had in mind that he has to be fast or the hot chocolate is going to be cold. after walking around he saw two similar shadows near him. it was jeonghan and seungcheol, holding hands and hugging. the pain in joshua's lungs has sharpened again. he stand there, didn't move a bit until the pair noticed him.

"hi joshua! would you like to join us?" he screamed just so shua could hear him.

joshua was still standing, he was to stunned to say anything or move even a small bit. then he felt tears coming out of his eyes. jisoo turned around and ran away. while running down the sidewalk, he finally realised.

so it's him