Regretting Rejection (ON HOLD)

Chapter 19

A/N- Hey guys! This video is just Emma's favourite song of the moment (also one of mine) and I just placed that there just so you can enjoy some of Cameron Dallas too 😍😂anyways let's head back to the book.

Emma's POV
Water.
That's all I needed now.
My throat felt as if it was as dry as the Sahara Desert.
Numerous amount of throat tickling coughs spewed from me as my hands were frantically searching for water.
And I picked up the beaker beside me, which was on a mahogany bedside table.
Wait.
I analysed my surroundings :
The plain walls, the plain beige curtains and most importantly the horrid smell of hand sanitizer.
Ew.
Before I could reach the water, a big hand beat me to it as they fed me water.
My sore eyes trailed up the arm and to the face of the owner.
Caden.
"How dare you feed her water?! Don't even touch her."
Emmett growled as he attempted to snatch the glass out of Caden's hands which caused the scream of the glass shattering on the ground.
At the sound, nurses came flooding in faster than you can say furnace!
They frantically swept up the shards and Caden growled viciously at Emmett.
"Look at what you've done you d*ck!" He swore as he came to my aid to check if my throat was okay.
As his Hand made contact with mine, tingles erupted at his touch and my wolf sighed in comfort.
The moment was interrupted by a nurse who was allegedly called Brittany, walking in.
"Unfortunately, there's only allowed to be one visitor so if one person may please exit." She painted on a smile which clearly portrayed her impatience.
Emmett looked at me, his brilliant blue orbs staring at me with hope that I would send Caden away.
As I peered at Caden, his gaze held disappointment as if he expected me to choose Emmett but a glimpse of hope was there.
I took in a deep breathe as I sighed.
"Urm. Caden,-" I started.
But he didn't let me finish as he started to walk out in defeat.
"-Can you please stay." I finished and his jet black hair whipped around faster than lighting and you could read his face like a book as it glowed in happiness.
However, Emmett gave me a piercing look as a look of pure betrayal crossed his features as his slumped, disappointed figure walked out.
"I'm sorry Emmett..." I whispered, a stray tear left my right eye as my heart broke at his devastated state.
He stopped mid way as he heard my apology and carried on walking out.
Emmett was showing off his pearly white teeth as he smiled genuinely at me.
"I need to talk to you." I spoke softly as his hand engulfed mine whilst his thumb traced small circles on my knuckles.
"You can say anything but I just want to let you know that I was such a f*cking d*ck to you and I can't even express how sorry I f*cking am agh." Anger coursed through my veins as I could feel my eyes transform pitch black.
And I bared my canines at him.
"You're fudging sorry?! Are you fudging deluded?! You're such a fudging ass, you make my head spin and I wish you would just fudging stop with all of your fudging bullshit. Why don't you understand, you son of a blueberry?!" I pulled at my hair as all the memories of my past life flooded my thoughts.
He was about to speak but I quickly cut him off as I carried on.
"You're such a fudging ass in general! You're such a douchebag! You treat others like fudging bullshit because your the 'big bad alpha' well, get out of your fudging trance Mr.Alpha! You're the same as everyone else. No one is inferior to you. And if you want even a slight chance of US to work then you have to become a better fudging person. Respect others.
And respect me."
I finished off my rant as I furiously wiped at the tears of anger which slyly escaped my anger filled eyes.
I hated it when that happened.
It shows weakness and vulnerability.
I hate it.
I didn't want to show my vulnerability anymore.
Caden was just staring at me in awe as his jaw was hanging agape.
I don't think he was used to people talking to him like that. Serves him right! The douche!
After he realised what I had spoke, his fists started to clench, showing that he was angry.
If I am honest, It was humorous seeing him angry. And the fact that was trying to reign his anger in topped it off.
"You're absolutely right. At first, I used to act like that because that's how my father moulded me and if I'm honest, I just wanted to f*cking fit in, you know? But then I met this girl who I hopefully will tell you about someday.
Anyways, I met her and She wasn't perfect in her looks but her personality was beautiful and just thinking about her now makes me speechless. But everyone in my pack hated her for some reason and Urm I was furious at first, curious as to why they would hate such an angel. And I put on a façade to hate her because of the pack pressure. Yes. I was a f*cking wimp. I don't deserve to be an Alpha but for some reason I am." He let out a bitter laugh as his hands were balled into fists.
He was talking about me!
"So she ran away after something I had done and I went through pure agony. Words can't even describe how angry I was and how much pain I went through. So I banished her family from our pack. Her father and her two siblings.
They were the ones who started this all off and I blamed most of it on them but really I
Was just looking for someone to blame when it was really my fault. That night I did something unforgivable. And I went into depression for a few weeks at the realisation. Anyways, I'm going off track. So then at her loss, I became the bitter man I am today but after you came you've sparked something inside me that was stubbed out when she left. I'm not saying that I'm trying to replace her with you. Oh no no no, If she came back one day, I would take her back in an instant and show her who I really am and spoil her f*cking rotten like she deserves to be. With my love and anything she wants. Not that you're not amazing but she is my one true f*cking love and my mate and I love her."
My eyes were glassy and tears were about to spill any moment but they didn't as I refrained from crying.
He loves me, he actually loves me.
I'm not saying that I'm ignoring everything he's done to me and the pack. NO WAY.
But I guess I could give him a small chance to prove everything to me.
"Good."
Was the only word that left my mouth as I was utterly speechless at his confession.
His stormy grey orbs stared into my soul as he asked
"Could I please have one chance to prove myself to you? Please?"
His sudden mood change caught me off guard.
His heartbreaking, soft, tone of voice made it hard for me to deny him but I stayed strong.
"I don't know yet. You still haven't told me about Zaleya. What's up with her?" I queried as I rested my head against my pillow.
Caden let out a deep sigh as a hand raked through his jet black hair.
"Urm well, at first she was my girlfriend because yeah, I did like her but then after meeting Em- I mean the girl, I didn't look at Zaleya in the same way. And being the ass I am, I used Zaleya to distract me from the thought of the girl and when the girl ran away, Zaleya turned into a heartless Barbie I guess." He summarised as he looked at his shoes, shame was written all across his features as he uncomfortably scratched his neck.
"But you like Barbies don't you? You like fake, plastic girls to fudge around with." I stated without any emotion. He stayed silent,
I was too tired for all of this as I let out a frustrated moan.
"Okay urm... let's play 21 Questions."
I suggested as I wanted to get to know Caden before trying to fix things up with him.
"Okay. I'll start. Urm, what's you're favourite colour?" He asked and I rolled my eyes at the most overrated question on earth.
"Blue and grey." I answered as I asked my question.
I couldn't help but mention grey because I was so enchanted by his eyes.
"Vans or Converse?" I asked as he replied vans.
It was pretty boring until Caden asked.
"Abs or Jaw line?" And that's when I went into my fangirl frenzy.
"Welllll... You see I'm in love with a guy called Jai Brooks and his Jaw line.. OH MY LORD, it is as if Jesus moulded it himself and Jai's abs are to die for. I would lick Chocolate off his abs if I'm honest." He growled at me talking about Jai but I don't give an absolute fudge.
Jai is mine.
(A/N- BTW I'm talking about this awesome cunt called Jai Brooks from The Janoskians and omg he's mine.)
"Who's this Jai guy?" He asked curiously, failing to hide his jealousy. Okay that turned me on a bit.
So I used it to my advantage.
"Oh Jai? He's my ex from my last pack and I want him soooo bad."
A growl erupted from Caden but was interrupted by An all too familiar voice.
"So what do we have here?"
Zaleya was at the door way in a neon tube top and shorts (Well if you could call them that! They were more like underwear!)
"Freaking jalapeños." I answered dry and impassively.
She seemed confused and didn't understand my sarcasm.
What a twit.
She flipped my words off and sauntered over into Caden's lap.
And he actually let her.
What the absolute-
You would think that he wouldn't touch other girls especially not infront of the girl who was giving him a chance.
I sighed mentally.
It was obviously going too well to be true.
She leaned in for a kiss and that's when my wolf was angry.
Kill her! My wolf was vexed at the sight of another touching her mate.
Me : No. Blooming hell, Why? God. I wouldn't kill someone just because my wolf was filled with hormones!
Ariadney : She's touching what's ours. Does that not upset you?
Me: Not really, In Fact I'm not that surprised. I'm just fed up of everything-
My dull brown eyes widened as Caden turned his head away when Zaleya was swooping in for a snog. Clearly showing rejection.
Her caked face collided with his cheek but to mask her embarrassment, she started placing butterfly kisses down his jaw which was now clenched.
Being the dopey person I am, a small sneeze erupted from my small nose.
"Achoo!"
That's when they noticed my presence and Caden decided to talk to Zaleya in private.
Okay that did hurt a bit.
He was probably going to make out with her once they departed from my sight.

My disturbing thoughts of Caden doing the dirty with Zaleya were disrupted by a small knock on the door.
My eyes left my hands and to the door and they met with the bright blue tranquil orbs of Emmett as he softly whispered.
"Can I come in?"
His features portrayed pure fatigue as he slowly walked up to the bed I was residing in and took a purple seat beside me to place his melancholy figure in.
"So urm... how's life?" I asked awkwardly as I played with my hands.
It was merely a way to break the silence.
He gave me a lazy smile as he answered.
"Pretty shit. Partly because I don't have you in it anymore."
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
He doesn't have me?
I didn't need to ask him to explain because he already beat me to it.
"It was after the club. When we found you at the doorstep passed out, Do you know how f*cking anxious I was? I thought you had hyperthermia or you died. -"
I tried to interrupt but he didn't let me.
Instead he engulfed my dry hands.
"Just tell me what I did wrong. Please?" he begged and I couldn't help but give in. His broken features were too hard to deny and were overwhelmingly handsome.
"Okay before you say anything I just want to say that I'm totally okay with what you decided and I sound like such a needy blueberry but okay I'll tell you." I started and he was waiting with interest and slight fear at what I was about to reveal.
"Well, you said you were going to the bathroom but never came back so I went after you and found you at the private lounge and saw you with Zaleya and me being the dopey blueberry I am, I got jealous and I thought you were going to be Mates with her instead of being with me. But it's alright Emmett! I don't have a right to be jealous and you should totally be with her." I rushed out.
His face changed moods like the British weather.
From tranquility, to understanding, to anger, to realisation, to sadness and now to pure confusion.
"It's okay, I'll soon get over you bro. Don't let this whole incident spoil our friendship." Falsely, I painted on a weak smile.
You could tell all the emotions he was going through just by looking through his beautiful blue eyes.
"But what if I said I didn't want you to get over me? What if I said I wanted to go out with you?" He queried as his eyes softened even more if possible, he brought my knuckles up and placed a soft tender kiss on them with his luscious lips.
Agh.
Emmett was my sanctuary, my safe haven, his arms could make me safe even if we were in the middle of a battlefield.
But Caden,
Being with him is so wrong,
But feels so right.

Oh my lord.
What do I do?

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A/N-
Hey guys! Who do you want her to choose?
Also Emma doesn't swear so she uses substitutes for her swear words.
Fudge = Fuck
Blueberry = Bitch
Motherfluffing = MotherF*cking