dempeo/merder oneshots

mafia widow

2 weeks after Derek's death:
(Derek's a mafia leader)

I'm in bed. I'm wearing one of Derek's favourite shirts that I haven't taken off since I got home from the funeral. I haven't eaten since I found out about his death. The kids are staying with jo and Alex.

There's a knock at the door. I Ignore it. There's another knock. I Ignore it, pushing my face into Derek's pillow. There's another knock. "Go away!" I yell, my voice cracking. I don't think I've even spoken since the funeral.

They keep knocking. I slowly get out of bed, going to the door. I open it. What I see fills my eyes to the brim with tears. "Derek?" I gasp. He holds me as I collapse into him, sobbing uncontrollably.

I fall to the floor, curled up into him. He bends down infront of me, hugging me tight as I cry Into his chest.

He realises I'm not gonna stop crying for a while so he picks me up, closing the front door before carrying me to the couch. He sits me down, kneeling infront of me.

"You- you.. how are you- I thought-" I choke on my tears. "I'm so sorry.. I- I'm okay.. I'm fine.." he says. He puts his hands on my cheeks, trying to calm me down.

"Its okay.. I'm here" he looks into my eyes. "I thought i lost you" I weep. "Never baby.." he whispers.

"What happened?" I ask. "A gang was after me.. I had to tell everyone I died.. I sent one of my guys to tell you before hand so you wouldn't think- but he died on the way to you.. I'm so sorry" he says.

"It hurt so bad" I sob. "I didn't mean to hurt you" he says. "You had a funeral.. I- I saw your- your-" I cry. "That was just to not cause suspicion" he says.

Tears are streaming down my cheeks. "I'm sorry" he whispers, wrapping his arms around me. He pushes his face into my neck as he holds me close. I squeeze him tight, crying into his neck.

I finally pull myself together after about an hour of just staying in his arms. I pull away slowly, wiping my eyes. "I must look like shit.. I'm gonna go-" I say. "You look perfect baby.. you always do" he cuts me off.

"I love you" I whisper. "I love you too.. so so much" he kisses me softly. I put my hands on his cheeks, kissing him again deeply.

"I'm gonna go to the shop.. do you-" he says. "No dont leave" I hold onto him. "Please" I tear up again.

"Okay.. its okay.. you wanna come with me?" He asks. "I can't go out like this" I  say. "You wanna shower.. I'll wait here for you" he says. I nod but don't move from his arms. He looks into my eyes.

"You know what? I could use  shower too.. can I join you?.. is that okay?" He says, probably seeing the sadness in my eyes. I nod enthusiastically.

He picks me up. I wrap my arms around him, cuddling Into him as he carries us to the bathroom. We shower together, me staying very close to him, hugging him and cuddling Into him the whole time as he washes my body and hair.

We get out and get changed. He looks at me. I look into his eyes. I haven't spoken much. He kisses me softly, pulling me into his arms. "I'll order something instead" he whispers. I nod into his chest.

He picks me up. I wrap my legs around him and he carries me to the bedroom. He lays down on the bed, me next to him. "Try to get some sleep darling" he says. I shake my head.

"I'll be right here" he says. I roll ontop of him, wrapping my arms around him, snuggling Into him. "Please don't leave" I say. "I won't" he whispers.

I very quickly fall asleep ontop of him, exhausted from my sleep deprivation.

I wake up hours later still in his arms. "How long have I been asleep?" I whisper. "Um.. 11 hours" he says. "Oh.. you stayed" I say. "Of course I did baby" he says.

"When was the last time you ate honey?" He asks. I look down. "Okay.. its okay.. I ordered a pizza.. is that okay?" He says softly. I nod. "You wanna get up?" He asks. "Can we stay here for just a bit?" I whisper. "Of course baby" he kisses my head.

I smile, snuggling into him. "I'm really sorry for hurting you" he says. "Its okay.. I just- I'm glad you're alive.. I can't live without you" I whisper the last part.

"I'd never leave you honey.. if I do ever die.. I won't.. but if I do.. the cops won't tell you.. one of my guys will.. until its confirmed by them.. don't believe it.. okay?" He says. "Okay" I say.

"You wanna have some pizza.. you should eat" he says. "Okay" I say. "Are you okay baby? I know I hurt you but do you feel better now?" He asks gently. "I feel better.. I just want to be with you for a while.. when do you have to go back to work?" I ask. "I can take the day off tomorrow.. do you want me to?" He asks. "Yes" I say immediately. "Okay" he says.

"Derek"  I say. "Yes baby?" He looks into my eyes. "I missed you" I say. "I missed you too" he says. "Can we make out for a bit before pizza?" I grin. He grins, putting his hand on my cheek. He kisses me passionately.

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Just a fluff coz I'm in class rn

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