Sᴡɪᴍᴍɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʀᴇᴅᴅɪsʜ ʜᴇʟʟ. Eᴜsᴛᴀss ᴋɪᴅ.

17.A Sad Heartfelt Talk

You woke the next morning in a foreign room. Your ass hurt from how rough he was. Your thighs and back were aching, your neck was stiff. Your body felt as if it was gonna give up any second soon.

You let out a groan and shifted around the bed you laid in. Your eyes looked around the room as you let out a yawn. You couldn't even get up. You laid there in pain, hoping you didn't get kidnapped.

The door to the room opened as a familiar face walked in. Unfortunately it wasn't the redhead but instead it was Heat. He brought you a cup of tea as well as some water and pills. He sat down on a chair next to the bed and handed you the pill and water.

"What is this?" You asked.

"Pain killer. Thought you might need it." He said.

You nodded and popped it in your mouth, swallowing it with a big gulp of water. You handed him back the glass that he sat down on the nightstand as he handed you the warm glass of tea with honey and mint.

You thanked him and took a sip of the warm liquid, your body relaxing.

"Where am I?"

"You're at Killer's. He's been watching your cat with that black-haired woman. He seems to like you." Heat said.

"Oh. Where's Kid? Did he bring me here?" You questioned.

Heat's eyes lowered to the ground as he shook his head slowly.

"He's not here. He's out with Bonney. He didn't bring you here either, he left you on the ground after you passed out. You were freezing when we came back. Killer was generous and left with you, ignoring Kid's yells."

Your eyes went dull but you didn't feel as upset. You were hurt he didn't even pick you up or help you but you were grateful Killer even thought of you.

"You really do like Kid. He might be my boss and all but, why? He's only bad-mouthed you and treated you horribly." Heat said.

"Honestly Heat...I wish I knew. I disliked him at first, but the more I saw him and was around him, I began to fall for him without realizing it. I thought I had a chance but I didn't. He never cared even when I thought he did. He just wants to use me for his needs. He even called me gullible." You said with a frown.

"I know. He's always making fun of you during work. It seems like an obsession to me. He even talks about you in front of Bonney. Granted, it's not a good kind of talking but he's always mentioning you." He said with a shrug.

You looked to the side and sighed.

"I was getting over him. I enjoyed my time with Law and Kid separated us just so he could use me and toss me away." You said truthfully. You didn't know why you were opening up to him of all people but you felt as if you could trust Heat.

"I know I've put up with him and his women for so long, but he's never done this to anyone. You don't deserve to put up with how he's treating you. He's going to keep pulling you back. You need to learn to depend on yourself and just go along with him." Heat advised before he got up.

You thanked him for his advice before he left the room. Maybe you should listen. You took Nami's advice and felt the best you had in weeks, months even. Law made you feel truly amazing.

But, he always pulled you back. Even when you tried to leave, you never could. You wondered if you'd ever get a chance to experience kindness from Kid. All he cared about was the woman, 'Bonney'.

The other side of happiness, a world where you were his lover. A world where he loved you and cared. A world where Bonney didn't exist, a world where you could be with him.

Your body was disgusting to you now. In the other world, you loved your body as well as Kid. In the other world, you had a happy family, in the other world, you didn't have to deal with such hell.

You finished the tea and left the empty cup on the nightstand as you laid in bed. Your body hurt, your heart hurt, your mind hurt. You didn't want to deal with such hell again. You didn't know if you could deal with it again.

You stared at the ceiling, tears falling from your eyes as you imagined the happiest life ever with Kid. You couldn't even smile at the thoughts, you could only frown as tears rolled down your cheeks.

What did you do to deserve this?