Forbidden Love

Chapter 3

“Hey,” she says. I just stand there. “Can I come in?” I nod and open the door for her as she walks past me. “C’mon,” she says grabbing my hand and pulling me up the stairs. We walk into my room and she sits down on my bed and I stand my my door. “are you gonna close the door?” she asks. I look at her then at the door and shut it. “Come sit over here,” she says patting the bed “what is up with you?” she says as I make my way over to the bed and sit as far away from her as possible. “How come you are not speaking?” I point to my throat. She starts to laugh “are you seriously gonna try to pull that one?” she asks shaking her head still laughing. I give her a ‘what?’ look. “I know you’re not sick,” she says “dude I am your best friend I can tell when you are lying.” All I do is meet her blue eyes, which are brining a hole through me. Dam, she can give some of the dirtiest looks... but she looks hot as fuck when she is annoyed. She clears her throat and brings me back to reality.

“Hi,” is all I can get out.

“That’s a start,” she smiles “what is up with you?”

“Nothing,” I say.

“Stop lying to me,” she says.

“I’m not lying,” I say... that was a lie. If I had answered that question honestly she would be halfway across town trying to get away from me. ‘Oh yeah, there’s nothing going on in my life, except for the fact that I think I am falling for my best friend, also known as, you.I think I’m falling in love with you Ashely.’ Even though it was in my head it felt really good to say.

“Um, hey are you still in there?” her sweet melodious voice brings me back to reality.

“Yeah sorry. So what’s up with you? What have you been up to?” I ask. Big mistake.

“I think this boy likes me,” she says smiling and leaning on my headboard. Right at the moment I wanted to kick her out. Just be like, ‘ok, good seeing you, have a nice life,’ and pushing her out of my room. But I can’t. I have to be the supportive friend. The friend that can control herself around her because she is not falling for her. Life’s a bitch. 

“Um... do you um.... d-do you like him back?” I ask.

“I-i think I do,” she says. My heart sank. I bit my lip to stop it from trembling. Fuck. “His name is Colin. He is drop dead gorgeous,” she says her eyes rolling up in her head. ‘You are drop dead gorgeous,’ I say to myself. “Think he is gonna ask me out.”

“Oh,” I breathe.

“What’s wrong?” she asks.

“Um...uh... it’s...it’s just that...that I like Colin,” I blurt out.Shit. That was such a stupid move. I mentally face palm myself . Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

“You do? Since when? You should have told me,” she says.

“Um.. well last year I started to like him,” I say.

“Oh, I’m sorry I’ll back off if you want me to. I mean, I can talk to him for you. I actually like Dillon too. He likes me too and he is cute,” she says. Shit. Does she have a backup for everything? Does she not get it? I’m so stupid to think that she would like me back. She is my best friend for fuck sake.

“Um.. ok. I mean if you really want to then go for it,” I say. Wait if I get a boyfriend maybe it would stop. I mean the having feelings for Ashley. “You really would talk to him for me?”

“Yeah anything for my bestie,” she says pulling me into a hug. “Um I have to go, but I’ll text him and you ok?” she says getting up.

“Yeah sure,” I say. She leans and I pull away.

“What is up with you and not letting me kiss you?” she laughs holding my face and leaning in again to kiss my cheek. I close my eyes as I feel her soft, full lips connect with my skin. “Ok bye see you later,” she says walking out of my room “love you,” she yells from the stairs making me smile.

“Bye...I think I’m falling in love with you,” I say to myself when I hear the door close. Later that night my phone buzzes.

From Ash:

‘I talked to him!’

To Ash:

‘Who?’

From Ash:

‘Colin you dummy’

To Ash:

‘Oh....and?’

From Ash:

‘He said you were cute!’

To Ash:

‘That’s it? I’m cute’

From Ash:

‘C’mon, it’s a start and who wouldn’t find you cute’

What was that on that just might be the sound of wings?...nope it’s my heart fluttering.

From Ash:

‘OH WAIT HE SAID HE WOULD BE WILLING TO GO OUT WITH  YOU! OMG!’

To Ash:

‘Cool... I’m gonna go to bed. Night.’

From Ash:

‘Ok... I’m so happy for you even though you haven’t even gone out on a date with him!LMOA!  ILy sleep well baby.’

I fall back on my bed. She said I was cute and called me ‘baby’ and said she ‘loves me’  all in one day. I am so fucking messed up. It’s your best friend, I say to myself. Ugh! Shit!  What the fuck have I gotten my self into?

“Fuck!” I yell. Then I text Taylor. 

To Tay:

‘I need your help! I fucking messed up big time! I told Ash I liked Colin because she said she liked him and I only did it so she would stay single...but as always she had a backup...Dillon. She talked to Colin and he said he was gonna ask me out and she called me cut and baby and said she loved me. I am a mess! I need you to help me! But don’t text me until tomorrow because I’m  going to bed...or at least gonna try because of all these fucking thoughts going through my head. Yup so... talk to you tomorrow. ILY’

And with that I lay down on my bed and cuddle up in my bed and replay my whole day in my head.

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Hey, sorry if this was kinda short... I had hella homework. Not feeling school anymore. Sorry for any spelling and grammer mistakes. Thanks for reading, it means a lot.

-J