the new neighbor (cate blanchett x reader)

Missing days

*y/n's POV*

It's been a week since we've been in the same room together, despite that we've been texting and stealing glances at each other from across the street with almost unnoticeable smirks that say "I miss you".

This week we discovered that the window of her bedroom and mine are right in front of the other. One day as I was getting ready to go to bed I got a text from her "look through ur window ;)"  When I did she was standing in her room with a big smile on her face with her robe almost untied. I couldn't help it but smile too and then I  texted her "I see u r still a big tease huh?!" She looked at the phone looked up for a moment and removed her robe in a way her upper body was exposed. She was wearing a lacy black bra and her hair was messy in a hot way. As I was perplexed looking at her my phone dinged and a message from her popped up: "all this will be yours again soon". To which I answered "I hope so ;) There's not a moment of the day I'm not thinking about you and missing you </3" She looked at me with her head tilted and a soft smile on her face "I know babe It's the same for me. I love you darling <3" I sent her a kiss and just when we had finished Andrew entered the room so she quickly put her robe on and I immediately disappeared from the window. We haven't done that since that day, but we've been texting nonstop.

Being back in school is hard because I can't concentrate, she's always in my mind and to top it off I have to see Dashiell in most of my classes and he sits next to me in most of them too so yeah, that definitely doesn't help.

I really miss her, whenever something happens all I want to do is run to her to tell her, it doesn't matter if it's a good or a bad thing or even a really insignificant one the first person that comes up to my mind is her. All I want is to have her close and right now that's not really easy.

She's planning on talking with Andrew to explain to him all that has happened and then divorce him but she says she needs some time to think it through, which I understand, after all, they've built a life together and have kids and she's a public figure so she needs time to think about how she wants to manage it all. None of this means that our relationship is coming to an end it's just that she needs to think things through.

This has been a rough week my mom keeps trying to make it up to me for kicking me out of the house but the best she could do right now is leave me alone honestly. Also since that call to Louis when he found out there was something going on between me and Cate he has been asking me about it nonstop, and even tho I really want to tell him I don't really have the energy.  So far he only knows that I spent the weekend with her and that something happened but, even tho he imagines it, he doesn't know what exactly. And if all of that wasn't enough we have to do an assignment in pairs for history class and the teacher said she was going to arrange it randomly so I'm freaking out because Dashiell is in my class and let me tell you if we end up paired together I'm done with everything for good.

It's been hard finding a way to cope with the situation, at first I thought rewatching Carol could help but it definitely didn't, I ended up SOBBING harder than ever. In the end, I found comfort in writing poems, not necessarily good ones, but it helps with getting my feelings out of my chest.

*Cate's POV*

I miss her with every inch of my body, she's so close yet so far. I want to tell Andrew, I can't live like this I feel bad for not telling him and I just need to be with her. I have a feeling Andrew will try to understand although it might be hard for him, but I'm worried the kids won't, mainly Dashiell since he's in class with her.

I've spent most of the week spacing out and having flashbacks to the weekend with her, how nice she was with Edith, how she made me feel full of joy, how she pleased me like no one had ever... She has taken over my mind. At first, I tried to talk to her as little as possible but I soon realised I couldn't go through my days without her. Everything reminded me of her, I woke up in the morning and wished she was the one by my side, I was driving the kids to school and wished I'd see her, cook and wished she came to me and wrapped her hands around my waist, go to sleep and wish she was there to kiss me goodnight, to hold tight and be the one I drift off to sleep with.

I know Andrew knows something's up, I'm not as affectionate as usual but I cannot pretend to want him. I still have love for him, of course, but not romantic love. I think when he started truly suspecting something wasn't right was that night when he almost caught us talking through the windows. I think I'll talk it through with him shortly.

Today I went to pick up Dashiell from school and I saw her in the distance and all I could think about was running to her and holding her tight in my arms but I knew I couldn't.

When Dashiell got in the car he started telling me about how his day went and when we were almost home he said "Oh yeah, I almost forget, we have a history assignment and we have to do it in pairs. The teacher made them and I'm with y/n" when I heard her name my heart skipped a beat "I told her that we could do it in my house, it's that alright?" my thoughts were running through my mind a thousand miles per hour, I want to say yes but I'm not sure if that's a good idea. After a short while, I answer "Yes, of course, just let me know when and at what time she's coming" Now I'm nervous because I don't know if we'll be able to pretend we don't love each other but I don't care anymore because I need to be near her again.