𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗪𝗲𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗕𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗲𝘁𝘀

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𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗣𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝟭𝟯

"𝘨𝘰 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘺 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦, 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥 "
- 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘺 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦, 𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘭𝘦

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TW : PANIC ATTACK & HOMOPHOBIA

The day went by pretty fast. Soon enough, my brother left us to pick up Emma at her office and few minutes after I was entering in Chris's car with Scarlett and him.

"So Baby Stan, how's school ?" Scar began, with a wide smile, like she had intentions behind this simple question.

"Well except for the all being expelled stuff, nothing special" I shrugged, looking in the review mirror where she seemed to analyze me.

"Well Chris here told me about a certain Hailee, and how maybe he was scared she was bothering you or-" I automatically looked away at the mention of her name, force of habit. I should have guess it was exactly this reaction that she was expecting, "Oh it's definitely something else"

"I don't know what you're talking about" I held her stare in the review mirror, my eyebrows furrowed.

"I'm not following guys" Chris interrupted our little stare with his usual lost puppy face.

"Thea ?" She completely turned over, facing me.

"Yes Scarlett" I responded with my prettiest smile.

"Is there something you would like to talk about ?"

"No, there is not" I tried my best to keep my composure but it seemed like I failed for a second.

She looked puzzled, watching my every moves trying to decide what she should do now.

"You don't have to be scared of anything you know" Scar attempted, adding, "It's okay"

Her words hit me. It was as if someone had taken me by the arms and shaken me awake. "Wait, you're not mad at me ?"

"Can someone please explain-" Chris tried before he was cut off by Scarlett.

"Why on earth would I-" She searched before she almost yelled with a glare that could have scared the all planet, "Has Stan reacted badly cause I swear to god Imma-"

"No !" I interrupted her, yelling, "No he doesn't know. And I don't plan on telling him anytime soon" I crossed my arms over my chest.

"You're not out to him yet ?" Scar asked softly while Chris had a look of realization on his face and let out a oh.

"No" I denied firmly. "Only Kaya Abby and Cameron know and it took me years" I added when I saw her questioning look. "Less people know the better"

"If it changes anything, I don't care that you like boys, girls or something else, as long as you're happy, I'm supportive" Chris explained. "I'm sure your brother thinks the same" He offered me a soft smile in the review mirror.

My eyes fixed themselves on the landscapes unfolding as I drowned myself in my thoughts. Memories came flooding back at me making it possible for me to go back at the surface. All the memories I have of my father calling me with homophobic slur, all of the times he punched and kicked me until I passed out from the pain, repeating over and over again how wrong it was, and how much I deserved it. Making me feel guilty about something I have no control of. Telling me I should get treated and pray to god for my sins, the simple sin of loving someone.