You're All That Matters To Me

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Talia

I woke up in a normal bed the next morning. I've never been more thankful to see Jason's room. Not him, just the room. When I sat up while yawning, something caught my eye. I limped over to it and saw it was a gift bag with a card stuck to it.

"Dear Talia,

I'm sorry for being a monster. I've never been taught how to deal with positive emotions and so I'd turn them into these evil actions towards you. I always felt like as a man I could not feel love or happiness because I'd be a beta. But I know this will just hurt you." I read and felt my blood boil. "Please, don't think I'm using it as an excuse for everything I did to you, I'm just unable to show emotions. Just know that you're an amazing human that I adore and I will completely understand if you will never be able to forgive me." I tossed the card to the floor.

I checked what was in the bag next to the gift bag. It was a bunch of clothes with a note. "I know you're running out so here's some clothes. - Bianca" Seeing Bianca's name made me happier than if it was Jason on it.

I then looked into the gift back from God-forsaken Jason McCann which had a bunch of sweets and snacks in there. There was also a red bear in it. After taking a closer look at it I noticed it was covered in roses and after I smelt it, it also smelled like roses. I hugged it closely and then heard the door open. I froze because I noticed in the corner of my eye that it was Jason.

"Can I tell you something about me I haven't told anyone?" I heard him say in a calm tone. I'd never heard this voice before; it was almost, comforting.

"Sure," I whispered as I started limping to the bed before I got swept up and gently placed on the bed.

Jason sat next to me with bandages and started wrapping my wounds.

"I was born into this life. Ever since I remember I've been in crime scenes, and the sight of dead bodies does not phase me, The first time I've ever seen one was when I was 4 and saw my dad get shot. I never met my mother, she apparently was some hooker my dad knocked up and then she left me on his porch with a note." He explained, I started to feel bad for him but then I remembered what he did to me. "I barely remember my dad, all I remember is he was not an affectionate man and after he got killed, his gang members had to take me in. They were very misogynistic and sexist so they taught me that men don't feel any emotions but anger and I grew up with those lessons. When I was 18, I went out to meet up with the boys, and my gang, When I returned, I found all those men slaughtered in the house. Ever since then, I turned off emotions completely and never felt anything." He explained.

I hugged him but then pulled away when I realized what I was doing. "I'm sorry you had to go through that. But it still doesn't excuse all the harm you caused me." I half whispered.

"I know it doesn't I just thought you knowing my story would help you understand me." He said. "When I saw you for the first time when I was supplying your best friend's boyfriend, it was the first time I felt something in years; so, I went insane. I needed you in my life and then when I was having feelings that were stronger for you I freaked out and lashed out on you. I'm sorry that you have to put up with me." He added and then left.

"Jason," I said getting his attention before he walked out. "You're not unloveable. You just make it hard for someone to not see you as a villain because you make yourself into the villain." I said as I laid back into bed cuddling the bear.

Jason is a monster, he makes sure everyone is afraid of him and then feeds off of this fear in everyone. If he worked on himself and tried to let himself feel positive emotions maybe I'd like him as an acquaintance; but, nothing evermore.

I drifted off to sleep but was woken up by the sound of banging on walls. "Ugh, what now?" I whimpered under my breath while I hid myself under the sheets.

"Hey Talia, Good evening to you." I heard an unknown voice.

"Go away." I cried.

"I will not." The voice said getting closer.

"Walk further and I'll pull the trigger." I heard Jason say.

"Ah, there's my favorite person of all time." The voice then said.

"Yes, it is Cedric, now walk away from her," Jason said.

"Fine fine." I heard Cedric say and then I heard footsteps vanish.

I then heard someone run into the room. "Talia, are you ok?" I heard Bizzle's voice and uncovered myself and realized he was covered in cuts.

"Are YOU OK?" I repeated his question.

"I'll be fine." He said as he picked me up and took me downstairs, then outside and into one of the vans. Everyone apart from Jason was there.

"What happened?" I asked concerned as the boys started the car.

"The dead body surprise wasn't a good idea," Christian replied.

"Really? No way." Erika responded sarcastically while rolling her eyes.

"Why are we leaving without Jason?" Claudia asked.

I wanted to ask that but honestly, I couldn't care less about this man.

"I don't know. He told us to leave him." Shawn explained.

"Where are we going?" I asked them.

"Our backup, secret, hideout house," Christian responded.

"I thought Jason being your love, you will care about him." Ryan laughed.

"Icould not care less about that man," I responded rolling my eyes.