The Best of Her

Chapter eighteen

June.

Some people look at happiness so objectively it becomes another aspect that a person must work for in order to own.

I strongly disagree with that. Happiness should come freely, at random moments of our life, and when we least expect it. I don't blame people who strive for it, it sure feels good. That joyful emotion that gets your chest tightening in the best of ways, smiling out of nothing and just feeling like the world revolves around you.

When I said that Mavis was a tornado, I wasn't wrong. She unexpectedly fell into my life and ravaged it, only in the best kind of way. She feels like the random happiness that falls into your life. She is the random smiles. She is the person that makes me feel like the main character of our world. I said that I don't agree with the people that work in order to obtain happiness, but now that I have had a taste of it I'm willing to work for it with the intention to keep it.

"Do you have constipation?"

I lift my head from between my hands and stare straight ahead at the idiot I call my friend. Jamie looks at me all innocent, arms folded against his chest while he was leaning against the kitchen cabinet.

I'm rather interrupted when Axel comes in and strolls directly to the fridge. "That's his thinking face."

Jamie lifts an eyebrow at me, "what are you thinking so hard about that you look like you want to shit?"

I sigh and rub my face, so exasperated with them. But then again, I want to get it off my chest so I tell them. "I think I like Mavis."

"Oh really? could have never guessed."

"Shocker."

"Fuck you, guys." I send a glare their way and stand up, leaving for the living room.

"Come on man, you can't blame us." Jamie was right on my track. "You basically act like a puppy around her, it doesn't take a genius to know you're smitten with her."

"Smitten? You should stop watching those historical series." Axel plops into the sofa next to me, taking one of the kittens roaming around into his lap.

"You are just jealous of my eloquent vocabulary." Jamie replied which only got him an eye roll from Axel, before his eyes moved to me. "He is not wrong though, it's obvious you're into her so just ask her out."

"It's complicated."

"What's complicated about it? She does seem difficult but she is into you I can guarantee you that." Jamie argues back with a shrug, as if it the easiest thing in the world. But I know better, I know the moment I try something with Mavis she will run for the heels and never look back on me, even if  she is into me like they are saying. She has that fight or flight attitude, she is either ready to go war on you or ignore and act like you don't exist, with no in-between. And I don't want to be ignored by her, so sticking to the friend zone (that I put myself into) seems like the better option.

I muffle my groan into a pillow. "I can't ask her out, she will ghost me."

"You chose to like a complicated girl, deal with it," Axel muttered and I let his words sink in before I reply without thinking twice about it. "She is worth it." those rare smiles are worth the stars, something out of this world entirely. I don't mind waiting, I will just torture myself every night with how her skin felt against my hand, the smell of her as she was standing so close to me, and those lips, Jesus those lips, I would beg for a single kiss. Just the thoughts of her got my body reacting in ways that aren't very saintly.

She has been tormenting my nights and dreams since that very fortunate evening when she decided to tell me she wasn't going to break. She was right, I was the one breaking. She cracked right through me and nothing felt as good. I probably made a fool of myself, blushing like a middle school boy who never touched a girl in his life. She has that kind of effect on me, I can't help but unintentionally react to her.

I will just keep hanging at the thought that maybe one day I will be feeling her body against mine.

I felt my phone buzz, and my hopes went up at the thought of her texting me, but I was quickly disappointed and weirded out at why my ex just sent me a message. "What the fuck?"

I haven't heard from her in weeks, and I thought that maybe she was finally going to stop trying to get us back together. It's been almost six months since we broke up, I ended things because I didn't have any real feelings for her and I didn't want to fool her or mislead her. She didn't take it well and not wanting to hurt her feelings I agreed to stay friends with her.

"What's up?" Jamie asked.

"Julia just texted me a 'hi can we talk?'" I respond, still confused at what she wants. Julia was nice, helpful and caring but she tended to get extremely jealous and it felt like she didn't trust me. I couldn't stay in a relationship where I saw no future for, so I was upfront about it with her. I don't know why she keeps trying.

Jamie made a face before adding,"Ooh that's never a good text from an ex."

"She probably heard about your new liking to miss ice queen," Axel exclaimed lazily. I brushed off his comment about Mavis and arched an eyebrow in question. "How would she know?"

He shrugged, "that girl is like the FBI, she always knows where you are and with who, I wouldn't be surprised if she stalks you."

She wouldn't go that far. "Jamie you haven't told anyone, have you?" he tends to have a runny mouth.

"Who would I even tell?" He is right he doesn't run around the same crowd as Julia, but now that I think of it I know who does. Malu.

"It was probably Malu who told her." I bite down the words, he can't keep shit to himself and he will get beat up for it one day.

I don't want to respond, but knowing her she will end up coming knocking at our door and there is no escaping her then.

Me: Hey, what's up?

She doesn't wait long before responding back.

Julia: nothing, just missed you and wanted to know how you were doing

She is testing the water, trying to keep easy but still trying to get me to say the news she wants.

Me: I'm doing just fine, hope everything is okay from your side.

Julia: Why are you acting so cold?
Julia: did I do something wrong?
Julia: or is there something else?

By something else she means someone else. I don't like mind games.

Me: if you want to say something Julia be direct and stop turning words, you know I don't like that.

Julia: that's right June, I know you and I know what you like and need better than anyone else, never forget that.

Jesus, how did she even come up with that conclusion. I don't even bother responding to that text, she will just find a way to spin my words against me and next thing you know she is calling herself my soul mate.

It has been radio silence from Mavis for the last few days, the person I actually want to talk to. It's ridiculous that I miss her, but I do. To not keep pitying myself I decide to take a nap, a nap that ended up sleeping all the way through the night until I got woken up at four am by a series of notifications from my phone. I was ready to curse the person when I saw her name and I swallowed down the words.

Mavis: do you like scrambled eggs or boiled eggs?
Mavis: you favorite color is probably yellow
Mavis: maybe green
Mavis: you like parties but you don't like dancing
Mavis: what's your favorite word?
Mavis: or words
Mavis: what's your favorite song?

I don't think I could have woke up to anything better.