INLOVE with roses that bleed

Chapter 1

As am getting ready to attend my grandmother's burial ceremony I realize that nothing in this world is permanent coming to think that even mountains collapse after centuries,while am deep in my thoughts I hear my dad's voice calling out my name and I grab my jacket to join everyone in the dinning room.As soon as they lift the coffin I was dolorous because no one understood me like she did and I don't think someone who does still exists.

Jane ''I think it's about time you tell Chris that his moving in with us because he can't stay by himself in that big house''.

He has to move in today because I will be going back to work on Monday and besides leaving him by himself may lead to a second burial ceremony.

Please don't fight him when you inform him just try to reason with him so that he can understand the reason behind this sudden change in his life.I don't want him to spend much of his time lonely its not good for him.He needs to be around someone who understands him, someone whom he will be comfortable with, maybe it's about time he starts building a relationship with jaydan

I will have to tell Charlie to stay for a while so that we can at least give him time to think about moving in with us and besides someone has to stay in that house.we should get get going am sure people are asking about us.

I guess this is how everyone says goodbye in this world, They sleep and never open their eyes.I feel like my heart is pumping chemicals and it's difficult for me to breathe and when I think of being forced to move in with my dad and his wife whom I can't be open with even though my relationship with her is better than the one I have with my mom. At least Jane is so understanding and she tries to show that she cares and understands me but then it doesn't change the fact that she can't replace Nana.

Chris I know it's been a hectic week for you but then I promise everything will turn out fine as soon as you move in with us. We are going to be a happy family and I promise to be there when you need me I know granny was everything to you because I remember the day you guys came to ask me if you could stay with her and the moment I said it's okay you can stay with her I could see that you really wanted to stay with her because I thought she gave you those caramel flavored muffins to persuade you since she was good when it came to baking.

I almost cracked a smile when he mentioned those days but then it was back then I guess it's about time we try to move on and yah right we will be a happy family with you been at work the whole day.How I wish I could say that out loud but I don't want to have an altercation with him today especially after we have just buried my grandmother am sure his hurting as well for God sake it's his mother am sure his pain surpasses the one am feeling.All I can do is cause him less stress and do as he said I should do so that I can have a place I can call home or else I will be all alone which is what I want but we don't usually get what we want in life because if we did Nana could have been here with me am sure by now she could have been warning me about being single at my age.Yah let me go up stairs and pack my belongings, Avoiding to have a conversation with him because I don't want him to end up crying in front of me.

As am packing my belongings in my red leather bag I hear my bedroom door opening and I really don't feel like continuing with the conversation I just had with my dad and am surprised to see my uncle Charlie who seems to be holding a golden rusty key and places it on my bed as he nods his head to show that his placing it on top of my bed and leaves without saying a word to me but am used to him as his more like my other uncles who hardly talk to me. I ignore the key and continue packing because I don't want my dad to sleep here because of me. As soon as I was done with my packing I head to my bed and lay there and suddenly I remembered that I was given a key. I took a lock at that key and I realized that it's the keys to the store room where my grandmother used to keep all her old stuff that she can't throw away or donate to a charity center.I woke up feeling dizzy and I see my dad carry my bag and I realize it's time to go to my new home. I stand up and offer to help him with my bags but he hands me the car keys and I head down stairs to drink water. A few people are still sitting and mourning my grandmother's death and I decide to go straight in the car and wait for my dad and his wife. I wonder where is she though because I haven't seen her for a couple of hours today. I see my dad and his wife approaching and Charlie remains with my dad while Jane gets in the car and she greets me again for the one thousand time today. She sets the heater on and starts the engine and my dad comes in quick.ooh it's a bit cold outside and I didnt even feel it I guess I was too stuck in my thoughts to feel it.when the car starts moving I take a look at this neighborhood that I used to call home and I feel the heat on my face as tears reach to my chin