Celestial Heartbeat (Book One) COMPLETE

Chapter Thirty Six - Time (REN)

One more chapter after this and then the prologue! :o

This is just a quick snippet from Ren's point of view, as I wanted him to have some extra thought in the story about what was about to happen to him, but really still want Evie to voice the last chapter. :)

If time really was a person, like a lot of the legends described him as, then I could just imagine father time laughing his head off at me. New Year's came hurtling toward me like an out of control truck on the motorway and all I could do was stare back at it like a deer caught in the headlights. I had done nothing, been nothing. I was nothing. And now, I never would be.

Inside I could feel myself breaking down. Every action was accompanied by an extra shake that never used to be there anymore. Every thought was attended to by the shadow of doubt. Even watching TV had become harder to bear, considering the amount of 'Tune in next Tuesday to find out!' type lines that they were spewing out.

The only thing that had me able to fake a smile was Evie. Because even though she knew just as much as I did what was going to happen, she did her best to hold her head high, find what little hope was left and tell me it was going to be okay. And in a weird way, maybe it would be okay. Because even as a wolf, I would get to be around Evie, to be touched by her, held by her. I would even still be able to sleep at her side. It wouldn't be the same, but it would find its own way to be perfect.

She would talk to me, just as she always had.

That was the funny part. It took me so long to see it, but it had always been Evie who held me together. Even back when I wanted to hate her with every fiber in my being, there was always something about the girl with long blonde hair that held me together. She would just sit there in the moonlight, talking to me about her day. Sometimes what she said was profound, but most of the time it was what now seemed like insignificant worries. Either way, as a wolf I enjoyed listening to the frequencies of her voice and the way that her smells behaved accordingly. I still wasn't sure whether being a wolf would change me in the ways that I imagined it would. I always did lose myself at least a little bit each time I was a wolf for too long and this was going to be forever. But I knew, even if I lost a lot of my memory and human sense I would always find myself at Evie's side, as clueless and loyal as ever.

I could forgive father time, too. I could forgive him for sending this date forward much too early for my liking. But I could forgive him because I was at least grateful for the fact that he had granted me the ability to live in the same time as Evie.

Because even with the amount of pain I had to endure with her at my side, I could only imagine it being ten times worse without her.

In my last hours with Evie, all I could remember thinking was;

Thank you, father time.

For all you could give.

And even for that that you could not.