𝓛𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓗𝓪𝓼 𝓘𝓽𝓼 𝓦𝓪𝔂

Eight

Savy's Pov

After that day I received a letter from C.V. I become anxious. I don't know why, I always shove my anxiousness but it's no use. Today is Friday our class finished early because in all subjects we just answered 20 items  tests each, regarding on our lessons from Monday to Thursday.

I am now walking to go home, I didn't bother to ride any vehicle because it's safe to walk in this hour, it's still 3 pm and the road is peaceful. I was walking alone, I prefer this way rather than walking with someone else. I wanna have a me time, if only Aria is still alive right now... She won't allow me to walk alone because it's dangerous she says.

Talking about Aria, I remember Arch. He is not around whole day. I hate the thought that I felt worried. Last night I keep on looking at my contact list, my thoughts are fighting if I will call him or not. But I ended up not calling him and fall asleep. I still didn't read his messages he sent the last time I have a fever. I wanna read it but stopped myself.

I know I'm stupid, yeah. There's a time I can't stopped myself from asking my decision, is it right to cut our friendship? He just like me right? So what if he likes me? He didn't force me to like him back right? So why I acted as if he did all of that? Arch is a good guy so why I acted rude towards him? In fact, I still didn't return the things he did to me. Oh, let me rephrase my sentence— he did so many things to me, while I didn't do anything for him. Am I selfish? Am I too much? Am I that bad—

I stopped my own thoughts. I'm going too far again. I am starting to blame and question myself. It's not good, I'm not going to regret what I did to him. I did the right thing, right?

I almost stopped walking when I heard a song from a house just near to where I'm walking at.

~I always thought you were the best, I guess I always will. I always felt that we were blessed, and I feel that way, still~

~Sometimes we took the hard road, but we always saw it through. If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you...~

I literally stopped from walking and listen to the music. The music sounded so calm yet it's meaningful, it creeps inside my heart and caught my emotion. My attention.

~Sometimes the world was on our side, sometimes it wasn't fair. Sometimes it gave a helping hand, sometimes we didn't care..~

~'Cause when we were together, it made the dream come true. If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you...~

I didn't notice a tear fell from my eyes, it seems that the song is dedicated to me.

~Someone who understands me, and know me inside out..~

~And helps keep me together, and believes without a doubt, that I could move a mountain, someone to tell it to...~

~If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you...~

The song finished and suddenly the surroundings went gloomy, it seems it's going to rain. I wipe my tears, thinking I'd look crazy if someone might see me. I continued walking when the rain starts to fall, I decided to stop. The music of the nearby house barely heard because of the strong rain.

I feel like my tears are going to fall again, so I let it.

Okay, this is enough. I am wrong, I did the wrong move. Arch deserve a second chance, he didn't do bad at me so why would I let him suffer?

I covered my face with my both hands and just cry under the strong rain. I didn't care if I get wet.

I just realized how silly, numb and stupid I am. I am selfish, I always think myself as my most priority. I didn't think I hurt Arch badly.

I continued to cry when I feel the rain stopped, I slowly uncovered my face and look up. The rain doesn't stop yet, it's umbrella. The umbrella is the cause why I didn't feel the rain anymore. I didn't bother to look who's the one covered me with the umbrella to avoid soaking wet. Just seeing his hand holding the umbrella, I know it's him. For almost a week of ignoring him I felt bad. I cried again and didn't think twice, I hugged him. I didn't care if I am wet, I'm just thinking of saying sorry to him.

“I'm sorry...” I hugged him tightly and cried on his chest, wetting his shirt for the second time.

In case you forgot the first time, I soaked his uniform and ID back then when my grandpa died.

“I'm so sorry... I regret what I did, I hope you can still forgive me. I'm not thinking right that time so that I made a wrong decisions. I'm sorry.. ”

“It's okay, It's fine for me. Ofcourse you are forgiven. Stop crying, did you forget already?”

“Forget what?”

“I told you, I didn't like seeing you like this... Crying like a baby.”

“I thought I'm your baby?” I look up.

He look down at me and smiled. Not a happy smile.

“Ofcourse you are my baby, but I don't want you to cry over things. It doesn't solve anything.”

“I cried not to solved my concerns, I cried because I regret what I did to you.”

“Still, crying didn't change a thing. I understand that crying can lessen the pain you are feeling but be thoughtful. Don't cry easily, learn to be strong... Learn to not spare a single tear if you have a problem, instead think of a solution. But if you are full and carried to much heavy things, you are allowed to cry. You are free to express your emotion, on the other hand, keeping heavy emotions is not good to your mental health.."

“Are we back to friends again?” I asked him.

“Kinda..”

“You seems not sure... Are you okay? You look pale, and thinner. You lose too much weight, what happened? Aren't you taking care of yourself?”

I stepped backwards to look him from head to toe.

“Are you sick?” I ask him, silently praying he's not.

“You didn't read my messages yet, I can't tell you personally. I messaged you the whole truth. Read it at home.”

When the rain stops, Arch and I bid goodbyes. Then we parted ways. I have this feeling that this will be the last time. At that thought, I turn back to where Arch was walking and run towards him.

“Arch!” I shouted, he stopped.

When I arrived in front of him, I didn't waste a second. I hugged him for the second time.

“I don't know why I have this feeling that I can't hug you like this anymore. You are not going anywhere Arch, right? You already forgive me right? We can still eat lunch together at the cafeteria and share jokes, you can still accompany me if I went to my locker and you'll bring my bag even if I didn't ask you, right? Hey Arch, speak up. Promise me, just this one... I'll be good to you, maybe I can try liking you too. I'll try my best just... just don't leave, alright?” I looked up at him only shattered in pieces when I saw his tears fall from his eyes one by one.

“You told me back then that, an honest promise are not meant to be broken... So... I can't promise, because I don't wanna lie to you...”

A/N: I think 7 chapters left, before this story will completely finished<3

Song title: One Friend by Dan Seals