𝓛𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓗𝓪𝓼 𝓘𝓽𝓼 𝓦𝓪𝔂

Eleven

Play the song above entitled Someone You Loved❣️ I just wanna share the music caught my attention while I'm writing this chap<3

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Savy's Pov

07/04/21
6:03 pm

Yreen,I'm sorry... Please, I don't wanna end our friendship this way...

07/04/21
6:06 pm

Don't make this hard for me, I'm fighting against my unseen enemy and I don't want to fight the destiny too if this is what destined to happen of our friendship... Forgive me please..

07/04/21
6:38 pm

I have something to say, this should be kept though but I don't want you to be clueless. I've been dealing this illness named Adrenal Cortical Cirnoma (ACC) this is a rare disease my doctor said that it is caused by a cancerous  growth in the adrenal cortex which is the outer layer of the adrenal glands. He told me that if this was diagnosed early he can help me by doing surgeries and chemotherapies to have possibilities to heal. But sadly it didn't, that's why I have no hope of healing. My mom and dad did everything but it's nothing, there's no progress. So I guess this is what is destined for me. I'm not saying this to have your forgiveness or for you to sympathize me. I say this because I wanna let you know every things happen to me just like how you share all the things that happened to you. Yreen I know I am at fault but please give me a chance and forgive me.

07/04/21
7:49 pm

You still didn't read my messages, are you that mad? I'm sincere on my apologies you know. I regret keeping secrets to you.

07/04/21
9:00 pm

Alright you're mad, I'm not gonna force you. I hope when time comes that you are ready to forgive me I can still be here and be happy for your forgiveness. Time is very important to me Yreen, because I don't know if when will I go or until when will I stay here.

07/05/21
6:10 am

Good morning, I'm not going to school right now because I'm not feeling well. Take care of your way to school Yreen<3

That is all his messages for me weeks ago. I don't really know what to do or what to feel. I'm hurt on his situation right now but I can't think of any solution to help him. I'm just 17 years old for God's sake! I'm still naive at so many things. All I can do is to cry and cry, I felt useless. Remembering Arch's words, I wiped my tears. He doesn't like seeing me in this state.

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07/20/21
10:09 pm

Even if I will leave the world and travel to heaven, I won't ever forget you Yreen. You happen to be my very best experience in my life. I will guide you through your journey even though you can't see me literally. Stay safe, Arch's always with you...

I wipe my tears as I walk towards Arch's coffin, he died the day after my birthday. 1:09 in the afternoon 3 hours before he sent his last message for me. I read his messages way too late, but I can't blame anyone. This is my own decision to read his messages before my birthday ends.

I read his last message too late because my phone is charging that time. I read it at 2 pm. Her mother— our Practical Research teacher called me and told me the incident, she knows Arch and I are friends. That's why she calls me and told me that Arch just passed away.

Since that time, I didn't shred a single tear. Maybe because my brain are still processing what is exactly happening. My chest does ache so much that I acted like I'm a walking dead. Alive but doesn't have an emotion, in short I felt numb.

As I arrived in front of his coffin, I touch the glass covered just above him. Arch looks peaceful, he looks thinner too. I wanna cry but my tears seems like didn't want to, maybe because I wasted too much tears. Or because I just can't accept that this is really happening.

I'm not good at narrating things, even I.. can't explain what am I really feeling. Arch and I are friends for just a month? Or a month and a week. But he become a vital part of me. He is so good to me, and always be there when I need friend. I remember the first time he come to me just to offer himself as a shoulder I could rely on if I needed because that time I suffered for Aria's death. And starting that day, we became close and talk often then later on ended up friends. I still remember clearly his efforts on doing my assignments and taking notes in every subjects just so I can have a lesson to study because that time is my grandpa's death and I can't go to school.

He did so many things for me and God didn't give me a chance to make the things he did for me. But I can't do anything, it's God's decision. We are all just temporary here in the world. Arch is still 18 years old and yet God take him back.

We must be thankful because God let us come in our current age. I am still 17 and I'm not sure if until when God let me borrow this life.

In my 17 years of existence, all I did is to obey my parents, wake up early every Monday to Friday morning just to prepare things I needed in school. Study hard and be kind and obedient. I didn't did a thing that can make me a useful human being but then I realized, God made each one of us because we are all useful. Each one of us have worth, either we belongs to a poor or rich family.

Arch is so kind, caring, thoughtful and very obedient son to his mother. He surely did things that made him more valuable in this world, no doubt about that. Because even I, experienced and saw his attitude. How he thinks is way more advanced despite of his age. He seems that he saw the world and aware of what might happen next.

He is a smart guy who has a high IQ. He is a gifted person with lots of talents and patience about things. He always think positive and encourage people to be a better version of themselves.

Who knows he ended this way, world is so cruel. Why won't they just take the lives of those bad people? That's what makes the world unfair. Too many bad people enjoyed life as being a bad, while the good ones are taken early. Maybe because good person is accepted above for having less sin while bad person is given a chance to change themselves to a better one.

I'm not that smart and I'm not that average girl who got 90's above grades but I can analyze things when it comes to life.

“I hope you are happy and free now Arch, Savior Yreen won't disappoint you. May you live in peace in where you are now, I will never forget the things you did to me. You may left me but you will be forever in my heart and you will never be forgotten.” I caress the glass above him once more and turn to walk away.

I look up to the sky and saw that the sky is so clear, the weather today is nice. I think Arch is happy right now for making this day a peaceful one.

I look at Arch's coffin once again. I lost Aria— my bestfriend, then my grandpa— my partner in crime who supports me in everything I want, then there's him— Arch Weast who do things more than what Aria and grandpa did to me. They all leave me in different ways. Aria died in accident, grandpa died because of his oldness and Arch died because of his illness.

Life really has its way to make me suffer like this and molded me to a strong person who are independent and reliable to do things in my own.

From now on, I will be my bestfriend of myself. My adviser, my comforter, my savior and my shoulder to cry on if I needed. Maybe this is destined to me, to have no one in my side. Just myself against the world.