𝓛𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓗𝓪𝓼 𝓘𝓽𝓼 𝓦𝓪𝔂

Twelve

Dedicated to @Faith11arcenal
Play a song: Two Of Us (Nightcore)

Savy's Pov

Today is Arch's burial day. All the teachers of our school is here, even the principal. Almost all of the students too, from junior high and senior high in every strand are here. Many people surrounds Arch's burial ground.

When the ceremony starts I can't stand there and watch, so I turn to look away.

I've been visiting Arch in their house when he's still completing his seven days funeral. And until now I still felt numb, I still didn't shred a single tear. Am I fed up? Did I become a hard hearted person?

Well I can't blame myself because I've been through a lot recently.

“Hey...”

A guy's voice interupted my thoughts, I look up and saw it's the CV guy. Tssk... I'm not in the mood right now so I didn't bother to speak and just look away.

“You know what, it really hurts when a person acted as if you are just a wind passing by.” he said.

I still didn't look back to him, I just stood still.

“And it hurts too when a person acted as if they didn't hear anything when in fact there is someone talking in front of them.” him again.

I'm starting to lose my temper. One more word and—

“So rude—" him again.

When he speak again I didn't waste a second to walk away and leave him. In this kind of situation I'm in, I can't bare joking or arguing with someone. I just want to be alone and think things.

“Savena wait! You're so rude, I just want to talk to you about something.”

“Keep it to yourself, I'm not in the mood talking to someone right now.”

I sit on the chair away from others, I want peace. I'm starting to hate hearing people speak too much, they became annoying to me.

“I wanna talk to you about—”

“Stop. I'm not in the mood right now so leave.”

“It's something that—”

“I said I'm not in the mood right now.” I look at him in the eyes fiercely making him gulp twice.

“Alright no need to act like a tiger ready to bite. Maybe I will tell you this some other time when you're in the mood.” he emphasize the last three words.

I look away and didn't speak again. In the corner of my eyes I saw him leaving.

The ceremony ends at 3:00 pm, everyone went back to their respective cars— except me.

When everyone returned home and I was sure that I am left alone, I went to where Arch is buried and sit down in front of it.

“I still remember what you told me back then, that I won't cry easily at things. That I should take care of myself, that I should be brave and independent. That I should be considerate. I wanna cry right now because, what happened is not easy and simple. You leave me Arch, though I already expected this when I read your messages and saw how thin and pale you are already. But that doesn't lessen the pain. Your death hurts me ten times than Aria and grandpa's, I don't clearly know what did you do to me for me to experience this excruciating pain. I know Aria and grandpa for so many years yet you beat the pain they've caused to me when they died. You told me back then to take care of myself, is it because you know how hard and painful to have an unseen enemy that is called disease? Because you experience it and because you're too kind and you don't want me to experience any of it? You know what, your making this harder for me. You showed too much kindness to me that makes me crave your presence every minute,hour and day. You told me to be brave and independent— okay, I get what you want me to realize. Everyone must be brave because we are traveling our journey without a map. We don't know what we'll encounter in our way. We must be brave enough to bare all the difficult circumstances that we'll face. Because that's life, only the bravest can survive. You told me back then too that I should be considerate. That I will listen to others point of view. Well that's easy to say but hard to do. People nowadays give opinion about certain things when in fact they didn't know what is really happening. But I won't push that further because I know too that there are still good people. The problem is they are rare, and hard to find. I'm grateful to have you Arch, you and Aria are both good people that was sent by God and to let me experience the feeling of having a kind, caring and thoughtful friends. Even though the God take both of you early, I'm still grateful because He let me be with the two of you. Tssk... Enough for this drama, I reminisce the past and I'm thinking I can cry after but still look at me, my eyes are still clear and no hint of tears. Did I become a cold hearted person?” I look at Arch's name engraved then touch it.

Life is not forever— love is.
I love Arch as a friend, I love him just like how I love Aria. They are both my friends, and a vital part of my life. I will never let them down, I will bare on my mind the lessons they gave me.

“Thank you for everything Arch, until we meet again...”

I stood up when I suddenly heard a guy's voice at my back.

“I knew it, you stayed here and wanna be alone. I know you still haven't cry since Mr. Weast died and you just kept the pain in your heart. Do you know that sadness is normal for a person to feel? Because we are humans and capable of feeling and reacting what happened in our surroundings. We feel sad because we're sorry for what happened and we feel disappointed. However, if this will continue and doesn't fade in time it can cause depression and other mental illness. And do you know that if you become depressed you need to be treated. Because if you won't, there's a possibility that it will make you lose your sanity. So, my point here is— don't build up a wall and lock up the pain in your chest. Let it out and cry, seeing a person crying doesn't make them think that you're weak. Maybe some people will think that way but the people who knows life will understand. People who knows life could tell that you are brave. You cried not because you are weak but because you stayed strong for too long and suffered a lot, that's why you cry because you carry heavy emotions and can't stand anymore. Cry all you want, it can lessen the pain and sadness you are feeling. Either the people will judge or sympathize you, don't mind them they are not the one feeling the pain you are currently experiencing.”

I didn't notice that my tears are falling uncontrollably already, just hearing all those words this guy saying, all the pain I'm suffering flooded out through my tears.

I didn't look at the guy, because I know it's him again. Just hearing his voice I know it was him. The annoying guy— CV or I might say Chance instead.

A/N: Hi coffies!!! I'm not supposedly updating this chap right now but there's this reader of mine that's so eager and excited to read what will happen next and begged me to update so here it is HAHAH, Hope you'll like my update coffies<3 Love Lots!!!