Unpretty Love

**[23]**

"Lisa, dont you really want to drink the alcohol?" Seulgi ask. Lisa, Seulgi and Chaeyoung go to a bar together. Seulgi asked them to come because she is stressed recently because of her family. "You need to relax."

Lisa just nod. "No, I am fine. I still have work tomorrow. And my stomach is not really good recently."

Seulgi and Chaeyoung nod, they understand.

Seulgi told them about her father who is now cheating with younger female who is the same age as her. That's why she is always busy recently, because her mother knows it and her healthy drop.

"I really want them to divorce. Because, my Mom deserve better, but it seems she wont do it. This is kinda make me afraid of having relationship, my father is such a scumbag bastard."

Chaeyoung said. "85% Men cant live without cheating." Lisa who is listening just give a bitter smile. "Thats why even I know Jimin wont cheat on me, I dont want to get married or the worst have children, even he asks me multiple times."

Chaeyoung has the painful past. She is an adopted child that Park Family take from the orphane. Her biological mother leave her when she was 7 and she always thinks, her mother wanted to kill herself, because who is parent so evil to leave a seven years old girl outside in the middle of winter?

Thats why she doeasnt want it. Also their relationship is good and thats enough.

"If parents cant love their children. So whats the point? There is a lot of parents who dont have the quality for being parents. Its better they dont have children rather than they have but they cant love them. So irresponsible." Chaeyoung said sounds sad and bitter. And then she grabbed Lisa's hand. "But Taehyung is a good and gentleman, Lisa. No need to worry."

Lisa just nod.

"Its better they dont have children rather than they have but they cant love them. So irresponsible."

"Too many people I know and I am experienced the pain itself. So yes. Its better to step back and think again if we want a marriage or having a children. I dont know but I feel I am not capable for being a wife and a mother. My biological mother doesnt want me from the start. And her mistake to make me born in the world even she knew, she cant love me. That a dumb decission right?"

Seulgi sighed. She knows Chaeyoung's story. But she cant believe its traumazing her like that. "I kinda agree. How can parents be irresponsible and act as if its okay to make their own children get the burden and blame their existency." Seulgi speak but Lisa has different meaning.

"Right?" And then Chaeyoung laugh.

Lisa can say she cant understand the feeling because her parents love her so much. But guilty start to get her. Does want to make this gone make her being irresponsible? Is it okay being a killer?

"I- I dont want to keep it." She said weakly without thinking that much. Afraid for making more trouble. The doctor in front of her cant say much. "Alright. Come to her. She is an excellent doctor at Seoul hospital but you can ask her to operate you." And the doctor give her a card name.

"I am afraid, doc." Her body was shaking. And her eyes were full of unshed tears. She doesnt know if she feels happy or sad. But its clear she is afraid to face all of the consequences.

The doctor just give a small. "Its okay to take a break for a moment to think about your final decision, Miss."

"Lisa, are you okay? You look pale and sick!" Chaeyoung said, worried.

"Lets go home. Dont you drink your medicine today?"

Lisa just nod without thinking she is dizzy and dont know what to do.