Ghost | JAY ✓

21

21 : Birthmark (I Knew I Had No Chance)

[ NISHIMURA MIU ]

I was about to take my clothes off when the door creaked open. I halted and turned around to look at the figure entering the room. Jay stood frozen, he immediately looked away and cleared his throat, "Sorry..."

The half of my back was already exposed. I swallowed hard before fixing my clothes, I then raised a brow, "What are you doing here?"

He pursed his lips as he walked towards me, "I saw your birthmark near your shoulder blade."

"And?"

"It's beautiful." The side of his lips slowly rose. My forehead creased before avoiding his gaze. I do have a birthmark near my shoulder blade. It is unique, my nanny once said, because it reminds her of a dandelion. It doesn't look like one at first glance, but it is, if you look closely at it.

"You didn't answer my question. What are you doing here?"

He sighed as his tongue touched the inside of his right cheek. I looked down to his fidgeting fingers which made me confused more.

"Jay." I called his name.

He fixed his gaze to me, "Sleep with me."

I halted. It was as if I have gone deaf with what he said. Am I hearing it right? My mouth widened a little as I slightly squinted my eyes, "What?"

"Sleep with me tonight. Let's sleep together." He licked his lower lip before looking away, "My parents are coming here tomorrow morning. We need to at least pretend that we're getting along."

It felt as if a torn had been pulled from within me because of his response. I felt relieved. I honestly thought of something else.

"Alright. I'll follow immediately. I'll just get changed."

He nodded before turning his back. My brows shot up when he stopped walking midway, "By the way, dandelion is my favorite flower." He uttered before closing the door.

I was left staring out of nowhere. I let out a harsh exhalation before taking my clothes off, "Same..." I muttered under my breath.

Jay was facing his laptop when I arrived at the master's bedroom. I pursed my lips before walking towards him. I placed the cup of tea on his desk which made him lose focus on what he was doing. He removed his glasses and rested his back on the chair.

"Thank you." He muttered before looking at me from head-to-toe, "I might end up sleeping at 2 am because I still have things to do. You can sleep first."

I nodded, "Don't forget to drink your chamomile tea."

I flashed a small smile before walking towards the bed. I placed a lot of pillows at the center of the bed to make a border before covering myself with a blanket. I closed my eyes and let myself fall into sleep.

IT WAS still dark when I woke up. I looked at the time and found out it is still 3 am. I sighed and looked at my side, I noticed that Jay was already sleeping soundly.

I swallowed hard before squatting on the bed to stare at his face properly. I caressed his hair before letting out a small smile, "I knew I had no hope... but is it really not possible for you to fall for me..." I muttered under my breath.

I bit my lower lip and looked away, "God... I sound so desperate..."

I looked at him again and ran my fingers through his hair. I halted when he moved. I swallowed hard when he held my wrist, he then slowly opened his eyes. We just stared at each other under the dim light.

My eyes widened when he pulled my wrist, his other hand went to pull my nape as his soft and sweet lips met mine, he then slightly opened his mouth to deepen the kiss. I did the same thing to grant him more access. I just closed my eyes and followed his rhythm. His hand traveled down to my waist as pulled me on top of him. He continued to kiss my lips until it reaches my jaw all the way down to my neck... and that's my cue to push him away.

He slightly furrowed his brows while staring at me, confused. I swallowed hard and fixed myself.

"Sorry-" I was cut off when he spoke.

"Nara... fuck..." He stood up and massaged his forehead, "I am sorry, Miu. I dreamt of Nara. I thought she was you... I am sorry..."

The expression on my face faded. It became blank yet I still managed to plaster a fake smile later on. My heart hurts a lot but I don't want him to know, "It's okay."

Because I knew it from the start...

I knew I had no chance.