Sat in a crowded place but feel alone. Out of place. Stressed. Panicking. I know one person in this room but they can't spend their whole night with me so I sit here trying not to panic. Not to run away.
I can't read. That would be rude. But it would be my escape.
Physically shaking. Feeling stressed and overwhelmed. What do i do to stop this feeling taking over me?
Breathe. That's what everyone says. Take a deep breath. It apparently helps.... 1.... 2....3... No not working. I'm all alone in this busy room the noise like a tidal wave hitting me and pulling me under. Drowning.
Trying to convince myself it will be okay. Hoping I can get through this.
I thought I could do this. It was getting better before Covid. Now it's worse than ever. It will be over soon. I can do this....
Am I being over analytical? I feel beyond self conscious... like invisible people are staring at me.... I feel like I'm having a break down.... Help.
