It is always hard to receive bad news. It's almost like your brain doesn't take it in. You don't want to believe it. You go into this weird stage where you feel shocked and sad but it also doesn't feel real.
They tell you and you react in all different ways. One person might cry while another gets angry. Your whole person feels confused and lost and you don't know what to do or how to go on. You move through your day in what feels like slow motion.
Everything feels numb for a while before everything hurts and back again.
There is nothing that can help make it better. There is nothing that can fix it.
Instead you just have to sit there feeling sad or angry or however you feel until one day you just don't anymore. One day you don't remember the pain. You remember the good days and the memories. You remember them fondly. The way they made life better. Funny things they did. The little things you forgot about. You remember it all.
Somedays however, random little things remind you of them and it hits you like a tonne of bricks. The pain you felt. The sadness. Everything. Just for a little while then it disappears once again.
You mostly remember that they loved and cared for you and you loved and cared for them.
That is the importance of friendships, relationships, families and friends.
It's hard and painful but it turns into something amazing. You have memories that no one else has. You have memories that will stay with you forever. You had their love until infinity.
Remember the good times. As that is what they would want you to remember.
