You tell me you can't wait for our future. The house. The kids. For me the wedding.
The next time I see you, you tell me you don't think about the future. So, I asked you "Am I in your future? Do you want me there?" You say yes.
In the same sentence you tell me you don't believe our relationship will last.... Talk about mixed messages.
You tell me you are sick of having to reassure me that you love me but when you get drunk you tell me you don't. You say it as a joke when sober.
What am I meant to believe?
My head spins and I have no idea what is true and what is a lie anymore.
Help me understand where we stand? Help me understand how you truly see me.
Please I am begging you.
I feel lost and broken. I don't feel like myself. I don't know what to do or where to go from here.
I'm drowning.
Alone. In the dark and cold.
Can't see straight.
Help me!
Please?
Our future scares me because right now we have nothing.... Right now, we can't afford much or do much. We barely have time to hang out.
I need your support. Your help. Your love.
Will you give that to me? Can we do this? Will you try?
My heart is breaking at the thought of losing you. Am I losing you?
Help me.
I know what you're thinking... "Why should I? I've done all of this before."
Here's why....
Because I love you. Whole heartedly. With my full person. With every fibre of my being. I am in love with you.
I thought you were my person. I still do.
I love you.
Please help me fix this? Please help me make this better?
I am not perfect. Neither of us are. But I want this to work. But you need to as well.
