They always say it's the people who love you the most they hurt you most.
Well I figure they are right. I thought I could come to you with anything. I thought I could come to you and that you would stand by me no matter what. Hell that's what I've done for everyone my entire life. I thought I could come to you and tell you how I feel or what I needed.
Well I was wrong.
I told you everything and you told me I needed help. You told me i was using you as a therapist... I wasn't I just wanted you to know what was happening in my life and how I was feeling.
I thought you would stand by me and be proud that I trusted you enough to open up to you. To keep you included in my life.
I see now that you just see me as a problem... something that's there. Something unwanted.
You were the only person I trusted with a lot of things. But you told me that was an issue.
"Find someone else to talk to", "I'm not your therapist". That's what you'd say to me in anger.
Did you ever think maybe that I told you because I trusted you? Only trusted you with that information? Did you ever think that maybe I don't have that many people to turn to because as I've told you 1000 times before... No one wants to be my friend.
Everyone else thinks I'm weird. Not normal. No one wants to be friends with someone like me. Because I am different.
So thank you for once again making me feel bad for being lonely. Thanks for making me aware that unless you "fit in" you are not wanted or that you are meant to sit quietly and not tell anyone a single thing.
Just drown in your misery.
So all I can say is I'm sorry. I'm sorry for trusting you enough to open up to you. To telling you the things I can't tell anyone else.
I'm sorry that I'm a burden to you.
