WILL YOU STAY? {c.t.h}

five: like

june 30
"don't worry so much, i still think you're pretty."

i turned around noticing that michael was there, timidly looking at me and sent me an encouraging smile. we never talked so i was quite fascinated he complimented me. we have the same color complexion by the way.

"i'm finished. let's go." calum took my hand and literally dragged me to his car. "becca and i will take my car. let's just see each other there."

"how about michael? i thought he's with you and i'll go with emma and those two." ashton asked.

"change of plans." calum immediately locked the door and sighed. "i suggest you should not be too comfortable around michael. he's not who you think he is."

i was confused why calum said that. what's wrong with michael? calum and michael are friends, why would he say something against his friend? is he backstabbing michael?

"you're not the boss of me. i could talk to whoever i wanted to talk to. and what about the 'he's not who you think he is'?" i asked, quoting the 'he's not who you think he is' in the air.

"even though i don't like you, i just wanted to warn you because i care. michael could do things that might surprise you when you two get too very close. you would be hurt." he cares? he's confusing the heck out of me.

i didn't reply so i guess he took that as a fact that i didn't accept what he had said. i adjusted my seat to make myself comfortable and put my feet on the dashboard. i'm usually not like this but i just wanted to annoy calum. i don't particularly know why but I guess it's to satisfy myself. i knew how calum is so obsessed with his car.

"put your legs.. feet down. if you want to sleep then there you go at the back." he seriously stopped the car at the side just to talk to me.

i faked snorted so he'd know i was asleep. i'm pretty good at pretending like this so he didn't know if i was lying or not. he just groaned and sighed. he thought i was asleep. idiot.

"i don't know how long i could handle this thing anymore. i'm still hoping you'll remember me." calum whispered and kissed me on the forehead. i don't know if i was pretending to sleep or not but it felt like i was dreaming.

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"what took you two so long?! you're the first to go and now you're one hour late. what the hell did you two do?" ashton being furious is an understatement. thanks to michael who was holding him so he can't strangle the both of us.

"we were lost." calum casually answered and went outside his car. i don't want to go out, ashton will kill me.

"stop shitting me. you were lost?! calum, you are the one who introduced us this beach. you knew where's the shortcut and you didn't even bothered to show us where because you've always wanted to be the first." ashton's overreacting. he sure is the daddy of the group.

"can't think of any excuses to solo becca, huh?" luke teased, not a good joke. it only made ashton more furious.

"please, emily's not my type. i have a girlfriend, remember?" i was a bit offended but at least it helped ashton to calm down a bit.

i decided to let them talk about nonsense things and stroll around for a bit. i like it around here, it's soothing and calming.

"hey becca, where are you going?" said calum, catching up. i couldn't even go alone, could i?

"somewhere far far away from you, calum." i get it, it's so annoying how i still act like this but i can't control myself for having such low tolerance when it comes to him.

"can you please at least try to be civil? i see you don't like to be friends with me and so do i. but at least have some sense and know that they are not okay to whatever the way you're acting towards me." calum stated, annoyance evident on his tone. i huffed knowing he's right. i hate the fact that I'm so immature. "i don't like you but i still respect you as a girl and as a person. i shut my mouth to avoid myself from saying something rude to you. i have a short temperance, everyone knows that but for you i've controlled it, knowing that you as well is always hot-headed. i'm friends with your brother so whether you like it or not, we'll eventually talk and see each other. stop being childish."

he left me there all by myself. i'm not dumb to not know they haven't heard the whole conversation. i guess calum is right. i thought everyone is just like emma. emma who could handle my immatureness, though she lectures me from time to time, but never have been so ignorant towards my feelings. i'm not that kind of girl who easily gets hurt when someone told me they didn't like my attitude or simply my whole self. usually i won't even be bothered, let alone agitated. i would have just ignored it or laugh and then annoy them more. i am who i am, i won't change just because many of them hated my guts.

but why do i feel so affected when calum told me he didn't like me?

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"becca! come swim with us." luke pleaded, only because emma told him so. it's clearly obvious that he likes my bestfriend. and that can't deny the fact that she has 'the feelings' too.

"don't worry about me, i'm okay around here." i smiled and placed the book I'm reading on the side. "have fun with emma. i know you like her."

his eyes widened and he removed my earphones. talk about annoying."how did you- oh my god, what the hell. is it really that obvious? i do like her but i don't think she likes me the way i like her i mean yeah it's cool we like each other but you know wh-"

i stopped him by glaring. "listen here, hemmings. i'm a girl, i know how emma feels. but i'm not going to tell you what i feel. you should discover it on your own."

"and your point is?" he confusingly asked.

"why are you such a slow poke?" i asked and he just shrugged. "i'm saying you should talk to her. obviously you guys are not just friends. clear things out. MAN UP, okay?"

"okay.." he trailed off, unsure if he should continue what he would say. "but what if she didn't like me and me confessing would just make things to both of us awkward? i don't want that to happen."

"you're such an idiot. stop being a coward. i mean, look at her." i smirked at emma and she just pouted at me.

"you're right. thanks becca, you're the best!" luke hugged me and kissed my cheek. it was a friendly gesture, nothing more.

what's more is i am actually having fun hanging out with my brother's friends.i don't like them before that much but i talk to them now. and i guess after that talk i had with calum, i feel like i should go out of my shell and stop isolating myself from others. i'm comfortable with them so it is alright to show them my bubbly and happy side. not the snappy, immature, sassy, and bitch side. but note to myself, they need to experience that side sometimes.

"becca!" luke called while his hands are on emma's back, the other hand waving at me. i smiled because of how luke looked at emma.

"i'm coming." i grinned at them. i don't care about calum, i'm going to have fun. i took off my dress and run to the beach.

as i was about to go to emma and luke, i saw ashton behind them.

he was looking at them with only one expression visible in his eyes: sadness.

one more thing, i don't know if it's just because of the water michael is splashing to him or is it....

real tears?

*LUKE IS SO HOT BYe*