WILL YOU STAY? {c.t.h}

seven: periods

"sis? you sure you're okay now?" apparently all of them (with calum as well) had been there outside my room on the cabin waiting for almost an hour, hoping that maybe i'll go out. i don't want to be a party pooper and i hated attention so I have been begging for them to go but they don't want to. i couldn't blame them since i have cried nonstop. lately I was being so emotional and well, blame it on my period.

"yeah, don't worry." i groaned because of the uncomfortable and painful feeling that i have been experiencing on my lower stomach. i didn't mean to groan loudly but i couldn't blame my emotions. i let out a heavy sigh and stood up. I need tampons.

"becca!" ashton exclaimed and hugged me. i rolled my eyes and gritted my teeth as soon as I felt my stomach is as if it was twisting. "ew, blood. are you on your period?"

i nodded and bit my lip. he immediately let go and went as far from me as he could, as if i had a disease. "disgusting." he muttered as he shook his head in disgust and annoyance.

they all left, leaving calum and i staring at each other awkwardly.

"are you feeling okay now?" calum asked while scratching the back of his neck. now he's asking me if i'm okay. i couldn't believe this guy's attitude, he's hopeless and unpredictable. i clenched my fist, hoping it would make me somehow calm myself before i even do something harmful to him.

"no." i simply said and walked again inside my room. it's a shared room of me and emma but i guess she's staying with ashton even though it was planned that ashton would go with calum. there is no way i would let him sleep with me. there's only one queen sized bed and i don't care.

"look, becca i'm... i..." he sighed and ran his hair frustratedly and then immediately regretted doing that as he attempted to fix his hair once again. "sorry."

i rolled my eyes at him and crossed my arms through my chest. i'm planning to ignore him but i decided to play around since it's his fault anyway plus it's my time of the month.  "to what exactly are you sorry for? for calling me ugly and has a shitty attitude or for telling me I don't deserve anybody?"

he took in a deep breath and sat beside me whilst looking at me for a while then back to his hands. "for both. i didn't mean to say that. sorry i lost my temper. any of those i said are not true. i swear i say the opposite things of what i actually mean whenever i'm angry or-"

i gave him a confusing look. why would he be angry? "there's no reason for you to be angry. we were playing. what's wrong with that?"

"you didn't even let me finish." he glared at me and i gave him an apologetic smile. "or when i'm embarrassed."

"you should lessen that kind of habit. that's not good. " he nodded at me and asked me if we're okay and if i already forgive him.

"Not yet. I need to take advantage to earn my apology." I smirked because of the thought and he rolled my eyes at me and shook his head.

"a'right. what do you want me to do?" he stood up and covered my legs with a blanket, i still have stains on my shorts and i know it's disgusting.

"buy me a tampon." i grinned at him and he looked at me, horrified rather than shocked visible on his face.

"A TAMPON?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?" calum yelled and accidentally kicked the legs of the bed, making him sit beside me and cry out in pain. i feel pity for calum. ever since he and I have been seeing or arguing to each other, he always ends up being hurt physically. but he's been an asshole so he deserves it.

"yes, a tampon and yes i am serious. please i need it now!" i pretended to look like i'm in serious pain and his face softened and felt guilty afterwards.

"i hate you so much for making me do this." he said, slamming the door hard afterwards.

"the feeling is mutual, calum!" i laughed and shook my head.

calum and i's relationship confuses me. sometimes we're friends sometimes enemies. we're not strangers. not acquaintances. but as much as i hate to admit this and it's kind of absurd,

i feel so alive and my true self comes thru whenever i am around him.

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"here's your disgusting tampons and i bought you medicine and foods because i figured you'll at least calm down if your not feeling that feeling you're feeling right now." calum didn't even knock on the door and immediately placed a paper bag on my bed.

"thanks." i smiled at him and surprisingly, he smiled back. i don't get it why i find him so attractive. luke, michael, and my step- brother ashton are all so so so good looking but it's calum who always gets my attention. looks can't kill. if you didn't knew him personally you would've thought he has such an attitude. his right hand is inside the pocket of his black skinny jeans and the left hand is holding his phone.

"so are we cool? yeah?" he asked and i nodded happily, tapping the left side of the bed and offered him to eat with me. "uh, sorry i need to talk to my girlfriend. if you don't mind?"

oh. girlfriend. i stupidly laughed at myself. "no, i don't mind at all." liar. "tell hannah i say hi. lock the door when you leave so the guys won't bother me while i'm eating. thank you again. "

he didn't even acknowledge me, he just ignored me completely and left me alone. i don't blame him though. he's always like that.

i shrugged off the thought i had on my head and focused eating instead while scrolling through my twitter.

*Short update sorry :(*