His Hidden Wife

Chapter 55:

Alexandra's p.ov:

"No, no I'm not ready" I said getting upset that one of the monitor's started going off. "Alexandra clam down, it's okay he doesn't know your here, he thinks he lost back on the island (Did I say were they went??) he doesn't know your at home" his mom said. "Are you sure I did turn off my phone so that he doesn't track me" I cried. "Oh sweet girl, there's no need, we plan to keep you hidden from him for as long as you need, or up until your due date, your going to one of the many hidden homes we have, you'll be living with a few private nurses and we will visit you as much as we can, okay without my son" she said. "But how won't he notice and look for me himself" I asked feeling nerves. "He maybe good at finding people, but me and his father taught all our kids how to be a shadow and how to hide like one, we will always be one step ahead of all of them" she said. "Okay I trust you" I said. "Okay so first things first we have to get you out of here and on the road to your new home, which is about two hours away from here but he'll never guess that your this close to home" she said. "Okay give us about an hour and we will pack all the things you need and we will go with you to get you settled into your new home" she said while they walked out. I laid back on the bed and waited till it was time to go, we had started our game of hide n seek...

TIME SKIP

We had made it to the house in no time, everyone was on alert with me making sure that I had all I needed. This was going to be my home for the next few months, I was going to be alone in this house again, yes I had the nurses that would be with me, but it was different, at least with Raymond I would see him at night, and now I didn't have that anymore, I had to get used to not having him... I had to be strong for the baby, but I knew this wouldn't be easy... But what else is there to do, I can't go home to my parent's we haven't talked in a long time and would be the first place he would look for me, or at least I think he would... I honestly didn't know anymore, I felt like I didn't know him anymore, but at the same time was I overthinking it... maybe should I try to talk to him first... No I couldn't... He was mad at what happened but that doesn't give him the right to do this to me, well more like say mean things, but words can hurt someone just as deep, if not more, he's been nothing but a sweetheart to me.... I don't know if I'll be able to forgive him, how could I, not with the way I understood things, that was one of my biggest fears, him marrying me and then later on, him regretting being with me, or him realizing that he still loves someone else and wants to leave me, I never wanted him to feel this way, like he had to be with me, if anything he married me because my parents owed them money, I could've found a way to pay it off, even if it took me years to do it I would have because it if would have saved me the trouble of getting my heart broken; I fell in love with Raymond the moment I saw him, then every sweet moment after just made me fall more in love with, the warmth that came from his hugs and that safe feeling that I felt when I was in his arms, or how soft his lips felt against mine every time he kissed me. How would I ever forget these wonderful feeling that he showed me, I'll keep them in my heart forever. But I had something else to look forward to, the greatest gift anyone could have ever given me, the gift of being a mother to the baby growing inside of me. "Come on Mrs. Alexandra, we have to get you to bed and then lock everything up, and your night nurses will stay and the rest of us will leave" one of the nurse said. I just nodded my head and just followed along not wanting to waste anyone's time. Oh lord here I was having to depend on someone again, I let out a sign. "Mrs. your mother in law will be here in a few days to see you" the same nurse said. I nodded again and we were in my new room, and they helped me get a shower and get to bed, after I got in bed and was left alone I couldn't help but wonder how Raymond was doing and how he was holding up..... Raymond I still want you....

Raymond p.o.v:

I was losing it, how did I let this happen? When had I lost sight of what was important to me? I was so caught up in trying to keep with work and making sure that Alexandra was safe and taken care of, but I was wrong, very very wrong. The whole time I was wrong... I had lost her, I froze when I saw Alexandra's wedding ringing in her hand. My whole world fell again.... I thought Alexandra was it for me... I wanted Alexandra to be it for me and she's gone, she had heard everything we said, more important she heard what I said. I hurt her. Now what do I do, where had she gone? With who had she gone? How would I face my family? How would I face my mother? How would I face Alexandra? How would I face the love of my life? I was mad, but not at her, I just reacted in the worse way.  My anger was not toward her, I was mad at the situation she was in, she was hurt and I did nothing to stop it, I couldn't stop her from getting hurt, the one thing I promised her, I failed at, I failed at keeping the one thing I love the most from getting hurt and exposed to the how crazy things could get in our world of flashing lights and cameras in your face and news reporter's in your face. This whole time I thought I was protecting her and low and behold, I was hurting her, all she ever wanted was to be loved... I can see that now, she always craved to be loved and wanted. I should have asked more about her life before me, I know that she didn't have the love that we grew up with. I know that I was her first in many things, I one thing she always wanted I failed to give her to, someone to love and to spend time with her, all she wanted was company...For me to be with her!! I work to much, I get out late from work and I'm up before she even wakes up, no wonder it took her so long to tell me she was pregnant, I was never with her. I married her and then feels like I left her right after, and yet I couldn't help but fall in love with her. An even now I know I still love her and yet I hurt her, I didn't even take her to the hospital right away! How did I not take care of her or to see if our son was okay, for heavens sake! The biggest question is how do I fix it? "Raymond we have to go back home" Nina said coming back into my room. "Listen brother we can't go back in time and change our mistakes, what we have to do now is go find Alexandra, listen she left all of her things, so ahead of us by a lot." she said. "Nina how do I fix this I didn't mean it" I said. "I know that but she doesn't okay, so the best thing to do now is go back home and tell mom and dad what happened, and I don't think there going to like the fact that you lost your pregnant wife" she said. "Do you think I should call them" I asked. "I think you should we tried to call Alexandra but her phone is off or dead, I hope she's okay, she fell pretty hard." Nina said. "Don't remind me please I feel like the worst person ever" I said feeling ashamed of myself. "Listen brother, I think we all had a part to play in this mess, we all talked into both of your ears, but the ones who really needed to talk was both of Alexandra and you, you both have doubt and unanswered questions and feelings that only you guys knew the answers to, Alexandra just happened to be at wrong place at the wrong time" she said. "Well there's no point in delaying it anymore let's call mom and dad....

ONE MONTH LATER!
(Can someone look and tell me how many months she is please)
Alexandra's p.o.v:

It's been a month since the accident, and I've been doing good. I haven't cried over much....Okay I lied I cry over him almost every night! I love him, but I can't give in no not yet I refuse to look weak, I mean I almost gave in a month ago, when his mom called me saying Raymond was back home and demanded to known were I was... Needless bill to say his mother told me she slapped him, and his grandparent's are more then mad at him, but that's not what I wanted.... I honestly didn't think I was mad anymore, I miss him, I think everyone mad for me, I mean what he did was bad, and it did hurt my feelings. But I also know that I didn't want Raymond to miss anything, so was I the bad guy now for not wanting to see him yet.... He was so close to finding me and yet a big part of me wanted nothing more then him not to find me... His grandmother was due to come any day now, I wanted to see her too but it's not like I could do much I was still on bed rest and couldn't do much so I liked when someone came to visit me. "Mrs. Messi, someone here to you, can we come in" asked one of my nurses. "Yes please come in" I said. "Alexandra darling" I heard his mother say. "Oh my darling look at you" I heard his Nonna say from behind her. "Please come in and join me" I said from the bed. "Hey princess, how are you doing" asked his mother. "I'm okay, a little emotional but that's normal right" I said looking away from them. "Yes that's normal, but not all the way, your head nurse said you been crying a lot during the night" his grandmother said coming over and holding my hands. "I don't know how to feel right now, I gotten used to sleeping with someone beside me, and I'm not going to lie I miss him" I said looking down at my hands, "How is he" I asked. "We are also not going to lie to you, its been really rough for him, but he as to learn that his actions have consequences" his mother said. "But I don't want him hurting either" I said as my eyes got watery. "Oh sweetheart don't cry, we don't you to feel that way, but we also don't to keep anything away from you, listen Raymond has never been one to share his feelings with anyone, not even me his mother, but then you came into his world and flipped it, you have showed my son how to love and how to care for another person, do you want to know what he told us the night you left" she asked me. I just nodded my head in agreement. "When he called, he cried to entire time he was on the phone telling us what had happened, and that he lost you, he said he was the worst person ever and that he wouldn't hold it against you if decided to leave him, he also said that he loved you and he thought he was doing the right thing by keeping you hidden from the crazy world we live in, that he was very wrong for not talking to you" she said. Now that was a low blow, how could he say that he still loved me, this didn't make any sense to me at all, I know what I heard and he meant it all the words he said. "I can't" I said. "What is it, Alexandra" they asked. "I can't trust him, at least not right now, I can't forgive him so easily, I was hurt and his first reaction was to make sure that no one found out of who I was, and not ask for help, what if I did get hurt enough that we could've hurt our baby, I-I c-could've lost our son, you all heard what Doctor Leslie said I got lucky that nothing happened, but it was the way he reacted, I honestly don't know anymore" I said crying. "We know, your hurt but please don't get upset, no more crying please" his grandmother said. "But what if you give him a chance to come and talk to you" his mother asked. "I-I wouldn't be able to not forgive him right away, I would give in and act like nothing happened,  just so that it doesn't cause an argument between us, I never been one to fight or argue with anyone, so now add the fact that it's the father of my baby, that I seem to be running from, and I know that he has every right to know everything that has to deal with our baby, but I beg you that you don't tell him anything about me please, please give the pictures of my ultrasound to him, but that's it" I said. "Don't you think your being unfair to Raymond" his mother asked. "Yes, yes I am, but does anyone care about how I feel, I don't have the same support Raymond has, I mean let's be completely honest, you'll always no matter what take your sons side, and me, well to be complete honest I was sold into your family to pay off a debt my parent's had with your family, I just happened to fall hopelessly in love with your son, so someone please tell me were I failed along the way or who I pissed off to end up like this" I asked pulling away from both of them. "Alexandra I'm sorry, that's not what I meant" she said. "No, it's okay I understand, every parent's wish is to see there children happy, I don't want to mess anything up between your family and Raymond, his going to need you, please don't think that I'll do anything reckless, I know we have to talk before our son is born, but lease when I'm ready to see him, I can tell you now is not any time soon" I said.....

IM SORRY IM TRYING... I KNOW ITS NOT MY BEST...

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