His Hidden Wife

Chapter 57:

Alexandra's p.o.v:
I let out a gasp and sat up and moved back until my back hit the bed, I covered my belly in panic, I didn't know what was going on, who had let them in, no one knew I was here. I could feel my heart try to beat out of my chest. "Alexandra stop please I don't want to get you worked up" they said. "H-how d-did you find me" I whispered. "I'll be very honest with you, I had help from your family" they said. "T-the Messi's" I asked. "Yes them, I mean you no harm, I promise that's why I'm here talking to you, instead of kidnapping you like we had planned at first" they said. "Well no point in hiding now, so tell me Ms. Montenergo, what can I do for you" I asked kind of scared of what she could say. "I think it's time for both of us to talk alone, for once in for all, don't you think Alexandra" she said with no hesitation. "Yes of course, but why if I may ask" I said. "I think I owe you that, Alexandra and I ask that you let me" she said. "I would like that" I said, I moved over on the bed and let her sit next to me. "I think before we start I think I should start off by saying sorry, for all the things that I did to you, I know that doesn't fix anything but I'm truly sorry" she said taking hold of one of my hands. "Listen Valeria, you don't have to say sorry, I didn't know what I was getting myself into, I mean my world was ripped from right under me and basically told this is your knew life figure it out, please don't get me wrong a few good things came out of this" I said looking away from her. "I'm sorry I feel like half of it is my fault, I mean it's time I tell you my story and maybe it will help you understand why I did the things I did, and by no means is this an excuse for the things I did; growing up was hard for me and my sister even more for the Messi's you see, coming from two big power houses everyone has there eyes on you, everyone is waiting for you to mess up and fail, but that's not the purpose of this story you see, growing up everyone assumed that me and Raymond would grow up and date each other, I mean it made sense that we would, our families were close and all so we followed along. So we did we started dating and I guess one of us ended falling a little harder then the other, yes I won't lie to you I did love Raymond but I was never in love with him, like he was with me. We both knew that marriage was next for us, but something didn't feel right when I was with him, but then out of no where, Christian came in and my whole world was set a fire, I had found what I was missing and I found myself falling love with him, please don't get me wrong we never did anything while I was with Raymond it was after Raymond had asked me to marry him and I had said no, that I gave myself to Christian. I know, I know that I hurt Raymond in the worse possible and I should have never dragged him along if what I felt for him wasn't love. I know I broke him, I had made it hard for him to love again and to be able to trust someone with his heart again, I changed him so much that he threw himself into work instead of spending time with his family, but then karma got me in the worse way possible a few weeks after that, I knew my parent's and they were not happy that I had broken up with Raymond and on top of that I rejected his marriage proposal, for so boy that I had just met, and so one day Christian left me with no answer to why he was leaving me, and that hurt me like no other and it turned me into the ruthless person I am or was behind the cold mask I had put on to make sure no one got in my way.... I also hurt so many good people around me, I had messed up Araceli's relationship with Leonardo, I hurt Raymond and most importantly I hurt you with the way I acted, I'm sorry Alexandra, it must have hurt to see me with him, I was so busy trying to find that love that I had lost that I went looking for it in the wrong person, I tried to go after someone who was never mine in the first place, I should've known that it was you all a long, you are so different form the rest of us, not in a bad way" she told me. I sat back and thought about what she had said, maybe she wasn't that bad, just misunderstood and like I said before who am I to judge anyone. "Listen, now it's my turn, I grew up very different from you guys, I was always alone and didn't really have friends or anyone I could turn to so imagine how I felt when I was told that I was getting married.... I was told that I shouldn't fall in love with Raymond, I was to be his hidden wife, I was never to be seen, I'm not used to that, so I asked myself why.... Why marry him then, but I had no say so in how things played out, but then I started to fall in love.... And maybe that was a mistake because I don't think that Raymond is over it yet, once I left to the market without telling him and he lost it, I had asked him what his deal was that got him even more mad. I honestly didn't see a problem with it I was being safe and plus no one knows who I am, so I didn't see a problem in it, I'm not used to living like you guys do, were everyone is watching us, all I ever wanted was for someone to love me and hold my hand while walk.... Raymond sometimes comes home late and we don't really see each other, but when we do I fall in love with him all over again" I said wiping the tears from my eyes. "I'm sorry Alexandra I didn't know you felt like that, I can tell you one thing, I don't think he meant to do things that way, I think he forgot or didn't know that your not from our world and that were used to having a camera in your face and having people watching your every move, I could see why you may feel like that, but why haven't you tried to talk to him about this" she said. "Because I never been good about talking to anyone about my feelings, I can't I didn't want to argue with him, this is the life he is used to living and I have to be okay with, I'll be fine with my baby boy" I said. "But you shouldn't have to be okay with it, I need you to speak up and say what it is that bothers you Alexandra" she told me. "I just told you I can't, I'm not like you guys, I always avoided problems which is why, I never had a relationship other then the one I have with Raymond; so I don't know what it's like to have a healthy and normal relationship okay" I said. "Wow, Raymond really did mess up that day didn't he, you were hurt and had every right to react the way you did, you already feel like you didn't fit in with us from the start" she said. "Listen Valeria, sometimes I sit here and wonder what it may be like if Raymond and you were to have stayed together, would things be different" I said. "Listen I don't think we would've made it, to be completely honest, you see we are to a like in a way, we both are head strong and would've butted heads a lot. But if for reason we did make it, we would've broken up and divorced each other shortly after marrying each other" she said honestly. "Oh wow, I had a totally different outlook, I mean do you know, that once I found out of you were I had a bad dream about you and him, getting back together and him leaving me for you and I was pregnant at the time too, I guess that fear never left me... I keep thinking that he'll leave me" I told her. "Alexandra I never thought that me coming back would do this to you" she said. "No, no please don't think that, I did this to myself, I should've know better then to fall so blindly in love with someone who wasn't ready to love again, I think his work and his business were and are his way of coping with things, that now that I came in, he still doesn't that he doesn't have to hide, I'm here to love him, all I wanted from him was for him to be with me, yes I know he married me, but his gone by the time I wake up, and by the time its night time I can't stay awake long enough to know his with me in bed, he only stops when they tell him to stop, it shouldn't be like this, I need him here with me.... our son needs him....I wont lie to you, I miss him.... But the other side of me, can't let go of the fact that he said he never wanted this..... Am I the "this" he was talking about, because the last thing I want so for him to feel trapped in this relationship and if that's the case then I rather rip my heart out and let him go...." I said crying. "No please don't cry, he loves you, I promise or else he wouldn't be going crazy trying to find you or locking himself up in your room, he keeps asking for you and every time he just gets whatever picture you send, Alexandra he's begged to be with you or to at least tell him were you at" she said. "Why, why hasn't no one told me this Valeria" I cried. "Because they didn't want to stress you out even more then you already are" she said. "NO, no that's not the way this works he needs me, please Valeria help me please he needs me" I cried in her arms. "Alexandra calm down, that's why I'm here to help you but only if you want to, if you don't even I'll leave right now, but if you do I'll take you to him, with a little help of course" she said. "Y-yes pl-please I-I n-need h-him" I said hiccupping. "Okay no more crying please, I got a few calls to make" she said. "I'm sorry I'm pregnant and emotional" I said trying to calm down and stop hiccupping.....

Valeria's p.o.v:

I sat back and looked at her, she needed this she needed to get this off her chest ang she needs to talk to him, they are both made for each other. I know that she loves him and the way his acting he loves her too, this was just a misunderstanding and these two just needed time away from each other to realize that they love each, for crying out loud they were going to have a baby. I called Christian and told him to go ahead and call Leonardo and Nina to get Raymond out of the house and bring him to one of Leonardo's hidden houses, yes it wasn't hard to find the house that the Messi's had Alexandra in, this was the first house we had looked into, because it was the closet one to the hospital. We just simply walked up to the door and knocked, I asked to see Alexandra and the nurse let us in, we looked at her puzzled. Mrs. Messi knew that her kids would do something like this, they were only to step in case Alexandra was in distress and didn't want them here. So we came in and Christian waited down stairs for me, I felt a lot better after talking to Alexandra, but now it was time to get her to her husband and me to thank my soon to be husband for putting up with my crazy plan. "Okay everything is ready let's just get you changed and ready to go and we'll go" I said coming to help Alexandra up. "Is this okay, to do what if something goes wrong... what if he doesn't love me anymore" she said in a panic. "Alexandra it's to late to back down, our siblings are already on there way with your husband, so come on your husband is waiting for you" I said. We helped her get ready and we were off, we had chosen a house not to far away just for the both of them to talk and for them to be together. We had all got in Christian's car and we were off, the nervous look in Alexandra's eyes never left, I knew all she had to do was talk to him. We had made it to the house in about 30 minutes and we let Alexandra get off the car and go inside...

Alexandra's p.o.v:

I was a mess on the inside, I had let them bring me here to meet Raymond, but what if that's not what I wanted, what if what I wanted was to break up with him and ask HIM for the space that I wanted... Would he understand that??? Would he understand that I wasn't ready to see him??? Would he allow it??? To be honest no one had respected my wishes, they all wanted me to see and talk to him, he wasn't the only one that was hurt, I was too... I'm not used to this, this mental battle that I have going on with myself... I had to think for myself for once... I was never given the chance... I had got off the car and walked towards the house, I reached for the door but stopped and the heavy feeling came back to my chest, I know I shouldn't be here... I slowly knocked on the door and quickly pulled back, because my hand was shaking... I heard a voice telling me to come in. I slowly opened the door and walked inside. I knew whatever happened inside this house, was going either be one of the best choices in my life or the worst... "Hello Alexandra" his said.......

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