It was hard to fall in love with a thirty five year old man who calls you Kid.
A rough night when Eloise met Alex for the first time. Eloise caught her boyfriend cheating at the club the night she first saw Alex. She had no idea why she kept thinkin...
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•Eloise
It's been three days since the last time i saw Alex and about the confession. I tried to feel okay and forget about him but my heart is aching so much, I couldn't help myself but i cried whenever im thinking about it and i admit that im crying two nights just because of him.
I just hate it so much because im in this kind of situation again. Broken and helpless and it's hard to focus on things i want to do so instead im staying in my room and just take some sleep hoping that the pain will go away and one day I'll just woke up like nothing happened.
I swear to God I didn't chose this and God knows i tried to stop myself to fall for him because i know it can't, and we can't be together and its obvious that it will never happened but i can't stop myself leaning towards him. I felt shame and it damage my mood and my self-esteem, they elicit swells of anger and aggression. Im even more scared that it will effect my mental health.
Alex tried to approach me or he even wants to talk to me and he's sending me a message or calls but im just ignoring him. I didn't want to talk to him and even face him, it will just hurt me so bad if i saw his face or hear his voice. Admittedly, that i miss our memories together and how he took care of me and how he make me feel when i feel sad and he's the one who's always making me feel better and making me happy and forget my problem. But right now i had do forget all of that and accept that he will never gonna be part of my life.
I didn't tell anyone about this or even my friends or Brooke i just dont want them to know about how i felt about Alex. So instead i just keep it from myself and acted like im okay.
Sipping on my coffee while reading some books to keep myself busy. The rays of the sun are entering my room giving me a warm feeling, the birds outside are happily chirping and flying around. I stayed on my balcony and thankfully Alex is not home or something. I could stay here peacefully, i dont want to stay downstairs because Ruby is gonna be there.
God, im always praying that Ruby will leave here. I dont want her here.
While busy reading on my book my phone suddenly went off. I sighed, assuming that it might be Alex but no it wasn't him. I grabbed my phone and wondering who it could be as i answered the call and I immediately recognise those voice.
"Zach?" I asked, making sure that it was really him.
"Ellie dude, thankfully its the right number." Zach said through the other line.
"Is everything okay?" I asked confused, i never told him about my number and now he's suddenly calling me.
"Oh yeah everything's fine." He said. "It's been a long time since we hangout and right now we're having a little party at Miles house tonight."
My heart suddenly beat fast just by hearing that they are having a little and i know why Zach called.
"You should come." Zach continued. "No, you're definitely coming."
