Do you really like her, Dude?
A voice asked on the background. Malikot ang video dahil siguro sa siniset-up pa nito ang camera.
What are you doing?
Another voice asked. This time the camera focus on its surrounding. White curtain. An aircon and a tv.
I'm recording this, Dude. Para naman may remembrance tayo.
The first voice answered.
Let him. You'll thank him later dahil may memories ka sa nangyari ngayon.
Another voice added. I assume na tatlo silang nag-uusap. Pansin ko rin na parang nilapag nila ang camera sa isang lamesa dahil hindi na ito malikot.
The girl was so serious, Dude. She's scary.
True. When he looked at us kanina. Parang bigla nanginig ang tuhod ko.
I heard the man they were calling "Dude" laugh, then answer.
She's different. I know it's stupid to say but I think it was love at first sight.
Dude, that's hard!
Oh no. You can't love a person you just saw!
I laughed. Totoo naman kasi. Hindi ito fairytale na unrealistic.
They're debating now. Lumikot uli ang camera. Tanda na may humawak nito. This time it was focus on a man na naka-hospital gown. Tinatakpan nito ang mukha nya. Hindi makita ng maayos ang mukha nito dahil labag ata sa kalooban nya ang ginagawa ng mga kasama.
Just look kahit once lang, Dude.
Eto naman parang bata. Nahihiya pa!
Mga siraulo talaga kayo. Umalis na nga kayo! Ginugulo nyo kami dito.
Wow ha! Nahiya naman kami sayo.
Oo nga naman. Kung hindi pa namin nalaman na nandito ka, hindi rin namin sya maaabutan.
Could you please shut your mouths? Baka dumating 'yun.
Here, take this. Pwede na tong kainin.
I think the other man handed them the cup noodles. The camera was once focus on the surrounding. Minutes later it went black.
Akala ko doon na matatapos ang video but I was wrong. The background was now on a mountain. It looks like a tourist spot. An overlooking view.
The place was so nice. The food was so good but I'm getting jealous to them.
The familiar voice said and laughed on the background. Minutes later it was focus on the back of two people hugging each other.
Look at them. They drag me here tapos iinggitin lang ako? Where's the justice?
Natawa naman ako. Kawawa naman ito kung sino man.
Oh God! Help me! I don't want to live alone. Send me an angel! O kahit sino nalang po na pwede mo pong ipadala!
Napahagalpak naman ako ng tawa sa binulong nito. Inilibot pa nito ang camera. May iilang tao pa ang namamasyal.
Dude, ano to? Mag aalas sais na. Thirdwheel talaga ako?
It's okay. May date ka rin sana ngayon kaso tumanggi nang sinabing ikaw ang makakasama.
My laughed died when I saw who was the man was. I was contemplating myself kung totoo ba ang nakita ko.
It was Architect Ivar Cañoza.
And me.
After that the video ended.
Memories come flashing to my mind. It was like I was watching a movie. Where I was the main lead.
Lumakas ang tibok ng puso ko. Sumasakit ang ulo ko.
I remember the very first day I saw him. It was in the library. I was annoyed by his presence. He was so weird and creepy, and he kept on following me just like what happened the other day. It was like déjà vu.
The second time was in the hospital where I was the attending nurse. That's where I met his friends.
Naalala ko ang videong pinanood ko kanina. It was now clear that it was me they're talking about. It was Architect who was wearing a hospital gown. And it was Justin and Grey who was debating on the background.
Then, it was Vina who was supposedly coming with us kasama si Justin but she denied. That was one of our dates as an official couple.
I remembered the soccer game, how I was so embarrassed nang tinawag nya ako sa gitna ng game at nalaman kong sya ang tinutukoy ni Vina. The food trips and the overlooking views we did take together. The reaction he had when I agreed to be his girlfriend. Even the bracelet he gave me.
Kahit yung pagbabalat ko sa prawns. At kahit yung mga maliliit na detalye naaalala ko.
I'm crying as I recall the times I spent with them. With him. I now recall the stories Jake, Grey, and Justin told me. I remembered it all.
Those happy memories we had with each other was so good to be true. He loved me. I know he really do.
I remember the sketch I made for him. The ring he used to gave me. The rejection I felt with him.
My heart hurts when I realize how hurt I was back then.
He left me with no clear reason. It was vague. I couldn't understand everything that was happening.
One morning, we were happy, and then the next day, he was out of nowhere.
I'm so inlove with him that I lost myself.
I loved him, but I guess it wasn't enough for him.
I dried my tears. I need to fix myself just like I did before. Mabigat ang pakiramdam ko. I can't absorb all the memories that I just discovered.
I held onto the handle of the chair when I felt my knees tremble.
Gusto ko lang uminom ng tubig. In that way, baka gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. I tried to stand up kahit nanghihina ako.
I know I can do this. Maliit na bagay lang ito compared sa lahat ng napagdaanan ko. Nakahinga ako ng konti nang makarating sa kusina.
I was holding the glass nang malapit na itong madulas sa kamay ko. Nanginginig pa rin pala ako. I tried to pour some water sa baso ko kahit nahihirapan akong iangat ito.
I need to calm down.
I have to fix myself.
I drank the water and tried to relax. Sumisikip pa rin ang dibdib ko. Nanlalabo na rin ang mata ko. Nanginginig ang buong katawan ko.
Napahinto ako nang marinig na may kumatok sa pinto ko. I tried to walk but before I even do it.
Everything went black.
