Lie To Yourself

19

My squeezed my legs together under my desk to dull overcoming urge that I could feel in my groin. It felt so bittersweet, I loved yet hated this feeling. Had what Brooke said been true, did I want to fuck her? I think based on my body's reaction to her my body knew it before my head did.

I rubbed my eyes trying to bring myself back round to focus. I'd already pissed Tim off this week, the last thing I needed was to have not finished all my work for another day in a row. 5pm soon came and went and people were filing out of the office like it was on fire. I've never really understood peoples affliction to working after 5pm but I guess I've also not really got anything to go home for.

The clocked ticked on and it was soon 6:30.

"Right that should be it I think" I murmured to myself packing up my laptop. I started to put my coat on and I heard a familiar knock on the door making me jump from my thoughts.

"Working hard or hardly working" Brooke stepped in my doorway! I've never noticed how white and perfect Brooke's smile is.

"Haha very funny, I'm coming now anyway"

"Coming for me? Again? Twice in one week"

"Grow up!" I nugged Brooke's shoulder and I walked past her and we both left my office me locking the door on our way out.

We walked in silence to my car, I started the engine occasionally catching Brooke watch me from the side of my eye.

I threw my heels off as we walked through the front door, Brooke flicking the lights on behind me. I was so hungry, my feet hurt and I'm shattered!

"Time to order Chinese!" Brooke headed towards the cutlery draw for my stash of takeaway menus.

"How did you even know they'd be there"

"Find me a single person that doesn't keep them in a cutlery draw" Brooke said and to be fair it made complete sense.

"I'm going to let you pick what to order, I'm going to get a shower and get out of this dress!" I was already walking towards the bathroom, dreaming of a hot, steamy shower to wash off this difficult day! How was it only Wednesday!

I sunk my head under the hot water letting the water almost drown me as it washed away all of my stress, makeup and excessive amounts of hair spray. I ran my hands along my shoulders gripping them slightly tilting my head to a side. Just as my fingers started to go wrinkly I was ready to get out.

I wore my light grey jogging bottoms and a vest with my bunny slippers. Heading towards the living room I could smell the relaxing scent of a beautiful Chinese takeaway! My pace to the kitchen sped up a bit, not wanting to delay me devouring beautiful food!

"Nice bunnies" Brooke joked as she was dishing out the takeaway.

I just held up my middle finger at her and winked.

"This smells amazing!" I grabbed some forks and drinks and headed to the couch.

"What would you like to watch" I asked trying to help Brooke as much as I could whilst she was still separating out our meals.

"You pick, seen as I choose tea!"

"Hmm maybe a film...what we thinking, romance? Comedy?"

"What about a horror?" Brooke suggested walking towards me with the delicious mound of food.

"Excuse me...hold the phone...no thanks. We will have to rethink you staying here if you allow yourself to watch a horror. Especially on a work night."

"Hahaha are you joking?" Brooke looked inconsolable

"Yes! I don't fuck with horror films, I don't want to eat my tea hidden behind a cushion!" I defended.

"Ok ok a romance then."

I proceeded to open Prime and flicked through the movies finally settling on The Notebook. I settled into the couch with me tea on my knees and tucked into a chunk of sweet and sour tofu.

"I've never even seen this film but I'm very surprised it's your type of film." Brooke looked inquisitively

"Why'd you say that?" I was genuinely curious. I love this film.

"You just don't come across as romantic, more so like head bitch in charge."

"That doesn't mean I can't be romantic haha" I argued terribly.

"Are you?" She really is pushing me

"Hmm I guess I can be, but I've not been in a recent situation where I've been able to be."

"So when you've had a boyfriend, what's the most romantic thing you've done?" Just eat your Chinese Brooke. Leave it please.

"I've not had a boyfriend?" End of conversation

"But you're not a virgin?"

"No, I'm not. But I've never met anyone that I wanted to be more than a one night stand." There, now end it Brooke.

"Interesting" Brooke said as she poked at a chip with her fork and put it in her mouth, looking between me and the film.

I managed to eat the rest of my tea and watch the rest of the film without another solo counselling session from Brooke.

Once we'd finished I cleared the plates, washed and put them back in the cupboard. I could see that Brooke was looking shattered so I told her she didn't have to sit in here whilst I finished the plates.

"Okay I'll see you in the morning! Night Katie"

"Night Brooke" I said as she was already wandering off to her room.